DXM lets me venture to areas of my mind that are dark and morbid. On DXM if I choose I can go to the darkest corner of my mind and just fucking play there. Psychedelic drugs cause me to fear that darkness and strive for the light, which is the much better and more valued route. But fuck... I can't just ignore a whole part of me like that, ya know? The darkness is there, and it needs to be faced just like any other part of my psyche that lingers under the surface. 2c-e involves darkness for me, but in a much more external way. On 2c-e I feel like the darkness in the world around me in submerging on me. Not in a bad way... sort of neutral. But.. I dunno, fuck it.
i know what you mean. i enjoy that darkness with 2ce, those are some of the most memorable trips i have had.it stables out my mind. 2ce is more like a lurky, darkness, lurking at you, sometimes with you. dxm is odd . it make my lips numb , helps me write good poetry, relaxes my body, tingles my chest, and i can think clearly on multiple topics easily. a little more of a srz mind substance.
DXM just makes the world seem surreal to me. That's the main effect I get from it. Like, last trip I had I tripped on about 900mg, and I was just lying there thinking about my family, and they all seemed like strangers to me. My father in particular seemed surreal; I thought about the word and concept of "dad" and it just didn't make sense. And it seemed like death was imminent, yet I was totally apathetic to it. It's a weird trip. I do enjoy it, but it's far from euphoric. Honestly, it's something I'd like to stop doing.
I haven't figured out that question yet.... I was thinking of tripping tomorrow but I'm not sure if I feel in the right frame of mind, even though I've had a great week and it's almost like it's meant to happen. I don't know. :S
yeah but and darkness is never overwhelming - I find it more like an ultimate escape from reality for 4 hours
yeah i deffinitely have to be in the right frame of mind to trip. although i dont think its possible to have a bad trip on dxm, like a life ruining bad trip. but for the topic, i feel that way too. i usually hate being in total darkness, fears coming from when i was a kid.. but when im on dxm i love being in the dark. i dont feel like the dxm trip is about darkness though but i think thats deff a big part in it. i feel euphoric when im on dxm. but its not euphoria like other drugs its like a dxm euphoria. the best part of dxm is listening to a really good trance song, and it is just instant bliss.
This. This is how I feel. On my fourth DXM trip, I wrote this down: "DXM takes you to the line; the line between life and death. You play with it, you step into it and feel it, then you get pulled back to where you were before, away from the line, where mortals should be." Dextromethorphan...it brings out the darkness, almost in a positive way.
Me too. Dissociatives, well... dissociate you from your fear unlike other psychedelics which put you in touch with or sometimes right in the middle of the fear. Without the fear, you can visit those dark places from a more objective point of view and do as you wish, with little to nothing holding you back. Teh Feerz is a huge problem I'm dealing with right now. So much so it's been seeping into sober life and I'm not down with that. Here kitty-kitty...
