Past life / Current Life - Calling on old-crone?

I have read a number of posts by old Crone and I am suddenly wide eyed to find out about my past and have a better understand of my present. I am in a moment of lots of change in my life. I am looking back trying to figure out what I have accomplished, done right, done wrong.. etc... I am also trying to plan and look forward to the change ahead but I am very anxious as I feel if I make a wrong choice I will limit what I will do or become in life.

If you would be so kind I would love some insight into who I may have been - who and where I am today - and any visions into the future you have.

Thank you so much (in advance)

 

Hi Openmymind

Lets start with your aura, the color that surrounds you. To me your aura is filled with colorful designs much like in a kaleidoscope. As you turn or the moments circle you you can change your emotions on the out side as if they spun on a dime so to speak. Inside you are a worrier unable and to close to see how beautiful you are. You are here for balance.

Your grid pattern looks like different shaped bricks making a design in a road. The design looks circular and magical. One would look for the proverbial portal of energy when around you. Your moods are fed and depleted by light and dark.

When questioning your self about right and wrong go with your gut knowing. What ever comes of the choices you make as long as you have learned and grown you have accomplished what you came through to do. Move beyond the judgments and come from a place of compassion and love and all things will work out for the good. Life is an opportunity and becomes what you make of it by how you see yourself and your perceptions. The limits you have are the ones you impose on your own thinking. You also have a stubborn streak that is sometimes a mile wide when you are being told what to do. =).

Past lives include a slave about middle 20's in age who was hung in the town square accused of sealing. You were innocent but that did not matter to the town. You were a custom dress maker to the rich, and often still love the feel of different textures in your hands. You were a printer in a newspaper office, an orphan whose family died in a house fire and still carry many fears inside side you riddled with what if. You were a choreograph of dance a drummer, and poker player to name a few. You do not pick easy lives but you do have interesting ones. Maybe that is why you like old movies or movies that touch your heart.You could be a writer as your imagination often needs an outlet for the things you feel intensely about inside.

In the now as you came through seeking union with the higher self you are looking for the sacredness without the religious format. You want to be both whole and well and often worry about dis-ease. You are here to define your purose and what you want from this life. The opportunities are endless. The key is to do what you love to do and if you do not know what you love create a path and try it out. Sometimes our lives are like a giant closet waiting for us to try on different outfits and roles for a time. You are capable of being and doing what ever calls out to you. Do not settle on one thing. Keep your mind interested in several adventures and define change as your guiding light. As you open to these adventures remind yourself that what ever you do is worth doing well before the moment pass's on. Find a way to enter your own vibrational patters with music that keeps you moving and free. Your weakness is stagnation. Stagnation does not bring peace. Happiness and joy mixed with love and gratitude do. Look to photography and design. You have an inner eye for capturing life at its move vulnerable and alive place.

As to the future life is what you make of it. You can create heaven in hell and hell in heaven if you so choose. How you perceive things will be your emotional weather guide. Emotions are a tool not a weapon. Live what you know. Teach what you know and always remain the student as you go. Nothing is written in stone. You are here to be you and what you is is a Spirit, an Essence of life sharing a moment with the human form for greater wisdom and understanding. You are not human trying to be spirit. You can change your world by changing how you see your world. Fear is not knowing who you are in an experience. When you define who you are there is no fear. Respect and living your truth changes you as you grow and in turn you change the depth of these places you take on and grow in and around you.

A place to start is your journal.