I ruined my enjoyment of MJ

The last 3 times I have smoked Marijuana, I had freak outs and major paranoia that I was having a heart attack. I wouldn't be able to sit and stay in a room for more than 5 minutes without having to get up and walk around because I felt that if I didn't I would go crazy.

I don't know why this has happened to me though. I don't have any mental illnesses or any problems going on in my life, I've just been having really bad freak outs.

My freak outs were internal, as in It was just me thinking in my head the whole time. I didn't yell or scream or break anything, I just felt like my mind was on full speed and I couldn't stop my thoughts, and it was scaring the HELL out of me.

The first time I had this freak out was when I went to the bathroom. After I washed my hands, I looked into the mirror and said to myself "You are the one talking, Ryan."

...and my reflection said back to me "No. I AM." and smirked at me. I literally just was dumbfounded and told my friends about it. They just laughed.

Next time, I just got uber depressed while thinking about humanity and how there's so much violence and hate in this world, and that it's never going to change.

The last time, I took only ONE hit from a hitter that was pretty much already used up. The second I exhaled, I thought to myself "why in the hell did I just do this?" and ended up getting paranoid again. (I admit, that one was pretty much inevitable since I thought that)

I want to do weed still, but I'm scared to death that I'll just have another freak out again. Can anyone give me any advice? =[ I just don't enjoy myself anymore when I'm smoking and it's a major buzzkill for everyone else I so it with.

 

Try smoking alone.

 

Oh Jesus, I don't think that would be a good idea lol I've never smoked alone, and I think i'd probably get worse. I could always try it though >.<

 

If you dont enjoy it then just don't smoke.

Weeds not for everyone and there is nothin wrong with that.

If you feel the need to persist, try really small amounts. Warm yourself up. Smoking alone might not be a bad idea. Could be though, who knows.

 

what you need yo do is slow it down, start out with 1 hit and try not to hit it as hard, take deep breaths and see how you do after 10 mins and if you think you can handle one more hit then go head. drink water maybe take a shower to calm yourself down, that's what I tried to do, I have no clue if it help or not. but its worth a shot. take it slow and try and have fun

 

I was going to suggest smoking alone too....I only get paranoid when I'm around other people, because my paranoia tends to fuel itself when I think about other people realizing how bad i'm freaking out...if that makes sense. When i'm by myself i can get lost in my head without feeling bad about it, so i dont freak out as bad.

it really just takes building up a tolerance.

or like someone said, maybe weed just isn't for you

 

I would go the other way...smoke your face off every day all day till you can handle it

 

The first time I smoked with this one girl, she thought I was trying to murder her. I thought maybe I started it by being somehow creepy and looked her up on myspace to apologize for creeping her out. She made it very clear that sometimes when she smokes weed, she completely trips out; and it was really nice of me to message her, and that whenever I left, she thought someone else was trying to murder her.

Since then, I've met two other females who reported that marijuana causes them problems. The one said she gets intense visualizations of whatever she imagines, and has trouble discerning them from reality. The other one said that after being a long time stoner, one day after smoking; she forgot how to breathe.

Marijuana isn't for everyone. Just as some people are bad drinkers; some people make for bad tokers.

If you do decide to try it again; I would recommend reading tripping tips, about how to make sure you have a nice trip. Because it seems like marijuana takes you a step further than the average user =)

 

I recommend you enjoy it while you can. after you get the tolerance past that point, there is no going back, no matter how long you wait before you smoke again.

 

that happens to me occasionally. even if i am alone, i imagine cameras everywhere, watching me. i work with cameras though, so i think that must be why! anyway, it usually helps me to just go out into public. go to 711 and grab a slurpee or something. oh, and definitely a good idea to wear sunglasses. if you are too freaked out to be in public though, you might try turning on some music and cleaning a bit, that usually relaxes me best of luck!

 

One time when I first started smoking in high school I walked to this playground near my house and smoked a joint with a friend. There was a serial killer on the loose in texas somewhere, which is nowhere near where i grew up, but I started freaking out that the killer was breaking into my house at that exact moment to kill my mom...I literally ran home to make sure she was okay.

I perservered though, and kept smoking. Eventually I built up a tolerance and stopped getting so paranoid. Sometimes I do still go into what i call "the box" where I get lost inside my head and have nothing to say to anyone.

 

I remember the first few times I got reeeeally baked, me and a buddy would always go to walmart for vast amounts of junkfood. Instead of buying them before we would chief as much as our hearts desired then make the journey to that evil place. I would get in that place with like 40 zebra cakes, loads of cookie dough and Capri suns and realize, "oh shit! there's no way I can keep my composure in front of the cashier. A 10 minute trip to Wallyworld would easily turn into a 30 minute trip. I'd walk around just praying to sober up just a little. Finally I'd have to bite the bullet and do it, but that small set back would never keep me from smoking again.

Weigh out the positives and negatives.

Now when I get to the cashier and they ask me if I found everything alright, I just smile and reply, "No i'm high as a kite and have been looking for fruit roll-ups everywhere but all I can find are these damn pillow cases!"

 

haha going to the grocery store when you're baked is a really horrible idea..you end up with 50 dollars worth of chocolate and cakes and potato chips

 

man its so friggin obvious, stop smoking it, lifes still great without cannabis infact tbh i appreciate things more since i stopped i'm not half as lazy i used to be when i smoked weed. I had similar thing happen to me though it was triggered with extacy and ever since then cannabis gave me panic attacks too so i just gave it up, thats the most sensible thing to do in that situation. Dont let people take the piss out of you for it, it could happen to anyone just stop smoking it, life goes on theres a whole load of other drugs out there

 

lol I complety agree, I went to the store high, I have been trying to stay away from the sweets, it was torter. I kept passing all the sweets. it sucked ass

 

You're just thinking too much man. Stop smoking for a while and get your mind right. You can always start smoking again in a few days/weeks/months/whatever, if you still want to.

 

+rep good advise

edit won't let me rep you, next time

 

Op don't force it. If it's not enjoyable anymore just don't do it.
There are other ways to have fun.

 

Take a break from smoking for 2 or 3 weeks to clear your head, then try it again.

 

Thank you :] One of my friends thought he forgot how to breathe after he smoked some King Kronic (JWH-018) and it was scary...and you're right though I am just a weak person at heart and I just get so depressed when I'm on weed. I think about things like "war wil never cease as long as humans are around" and how worthless I am on a universal scale and stuff like that.

I've decided not to do it again until I feel I'm at a point in my life where I will enjoy it. I'm currently jobless, hated by most of my town, and im taking a semester off of school, so i just gotta get my life together before I do it again. I want to be able to enjoy it next time lol