disappointing first shroom trip

The other night I ate 3.8 grams of dried shrooms. After about 30 minutes i began to feel lightheaded (it was similar to the "dazed" feeling that vicodin gives you). 15 minutes after that, I began to feel nauseated and a little bloated, so I got up from my computer and crashed on the couch. As i laid there, I noticed that the light on the walls started to form 2D psychedelic patterns on it, and they gradually moved back and forth. The light on my legs began doing the same thing (I realized that as I focused more and more on these hallucinations, they became more and more elaborate, but when I tried to ignore them, they almost completely disappeared). My carpet, which has many patterns and colors, also seemed to move back and forth, like vines growing into each other.

For the next hour and 15 minutes, I went back and forth between my computer and the living room. When I'd be browsing and reading articles(while listening to some music) the only words that I could clearly read were the ones I was trying to focus on, and the rest of the words i wasn't looking at were morphing into each other.

I went into my yard (it was pretty late at night) after hearing advice that nature was good on psychedelics, and every tree (or bunches of leaves) i focused on would seem to come closer to me (the leaves seemed to be "growing" towards me), and for some reason the flatness of the crossroads by my house became more obvious, and anything with height seemed to pop out at me in a very mild manner. I guess it makes you take nature very seriously, something I didn't like.

I also remember going into the bathroom and looking into the mirror. It was a little strange: I looked at my face from a different perspective, a child's perspective, and instead of seeing some skinny kid (my sober body image), I saw a more masculine version of me, with a lean face and tall athletic body that was a force to be reckoned with. I realized that the shrooms brought me back in to the mindset of my childhood years, but with all the knowledge I had gained since then.

The same type of "mindset" thing happened to me after I went back downstairs and played the ps2 game "Shadow of the Colossus". I felt like I had the mindset of myself when I was a 4th grader. Everything (especially the big tall canyons and cliffs you can find in "Shadow of the Colossus") seemed to be a force to be reckoned with (only a little humbling), and that I could never hope to be someone famous that would have something important to say to the world (I hope to become a filmmaker or a musician later on), and I felt a little helpless and worthless, as I did when I was a child.

This feeling I would describe to be as a more selfish respect, an outter respect for all things and ideas, but not respecting everything for what it is on the inside. As Terrence Mckenna put it, it erases your brain's disk space, so any predispositions you have on the world are somewhat put to the side and you are left pretty impressionable and childlike. This was the worst thing about the "trip" for me, the inability to control my own ideals I had formed during my lifetime. (Looking back on what I've written so far, everything seems so severe and strong, but it everything was actually pretty mild, like a moderate pill high.) I felt like it was very easy to describe (contrary to popular belief) what I went through, it wasn't anything that was as mind blowing as i thought it would be.

In the end, I was pretty disappointed. I thought that I would have very ellaborate hallucinations similar a lot of dmt art, but I barely did, even when I closed my eyes (and for some reason, when I did try to close my eyes and focus on the hallucinations, my mind wouldn't want me to). I've been through more severe trips on weed before, and I was expecting something a lot more stronger.

So did I come in with too high of expectations? Or did I just have a very mild trip on a very high dose? (for a first timer)

 

sounds quite good to me tbh

 

Yup, sounds fun.

 

eh, i was disappointed. i've gotten to much deeper places in my mind with weed. i've been able have artistic moving hallucinations when i close my eyes while blazed. this was different, and i guess it's just not my cup of tea.

 

Well, sounds like a pretty typical mushroom experience, although it does sound as if the shrooms you had were a little weak. Next time try smoking some weed while buzzed on the shrooms, it becomes a completely different experience, much more visual.

Why does everybody rate their psychedelic experiences based on visual effects?
If you try mescaline, you will be hell-and-gone into the psychedelic realms by the time you start to really see distinct visuals.

 

eat more..

 

Will do. And people rate the trip based on the visuals because of what we're led to believe, with all the psychedelic art and stuff like that. i mean, after watching the yellow submarine, why would you not expect something like that to happen? i did, and i've seen shit like that when i close my eyes during a really good weed smoke

 

I understand the reason people rate psyches based on visuals, but after experiencing psychedelics a person should realize that there is a LOT more than visual anomalies to a psychedelic experience.
Popular media greatly exaggerates the visual aspects of psychedelics, but how are you going to convey the ineffable, soul searching and revelations that present themselves in a medium such as film?
So the over-attention to visual aspects of psychedelics is understandable, but really leads to unreal expectations such as you encountered. I imagine that if you would have approached it with no preconceptions of what it is "supposed" to be like, you would have enjoyed it much more.

 

it sounded like a pretty good shroom trip to me too. maybe you just don't like what they do to you

 

Yeah that sounded great, especially having the mindset of a child again. I'd love to experience that. I've never gotten effects like that from a shroom trip but then again i've never tripped alone.

 

I love mushrooms I thought they were amazing! My first trip I just had an awesome body buzz that felt awesome and laughed my ass off for hours! I remember when they first started kicking in I was walking and all the sudden I just yelled out "I have a flat tire" because I literally felt like I was walking with a flat tire sounds weird but it my best discription haha and noone knew what I meant except my cusin, and he just started laughing.

 

Shoulda lemoned those babiez

 

although i have only eaten shrooms about 3 seperate occasions, i have found that different people have hugely varying expectations about the effects of mushrooms. they also seem to have hugely different effects on different people. i am not sure why. but in the OP, i would say that you had a good shroom trip but were expecting something different altogether.

 

Well written. Sounds fun.

 

Mushrooms are weird like that. sometimes an 8th wont be so stellar, and then other times 2 Gs will rip you away from this reality. I think the OP just had too high expectations. Try a stronger batch/higher dose.

 

Mushrooms brought me into the psychedelic world. It may be biased, but I think that's the best introduction. Maybe acid, but 12+ hours can be kind of rough for a first timer. I'm glad I didn't do 2c's for my first time. Not that I don't like them, I just have been thinking that your initial impression of psychs will have a lot to do with how you see them and what you are likely to get from them.

 

acid is great for psychedelic introductions

 

The visuals are the most easily describable part of the psychedelic experience, which is why people's recall of the experience emphasizes them. [I believe.]

 

To answer your question I think it could have been a matter of both. The way you describe your trip reminds me of my first time. Or any 'light' trip I choose to have now adays. Its really an awesome experience especially if you are more in the mood for "reality-tweaked" Rather than full blown mind fuck, which by the way is very easy to have and can often happen unwillingly, so do not underestimate shrooms. I think seeing as you took nearly 4 grams, these shrooms were fairly weak. I've had stuff where I'm tripping on 1.5 the way you were. And 4 g's I would be out of this world. Try it again my friend. I think as far as your expectations go, you may be right that you were expecting more but I think that has to do with what sounds like your "tripping" experience. You need to up the dose man or get stronger stuff. Your trip was perfect for someone who has never really tripped before, but you would love shrooms on a high dose. Try with a friend though. It makes it way better to be able to have that person ground you and bat ideas back and forth. Good luck man.

 

Visuals are irrelevant when you see with your mind's eye.