Once again I sit down to write a trip report and feel a lack of motivation to do so because, as many of you know, words are simply too inadequate to properly describe a night on lsd. However, I’d like to quickly go over some thoughts that came up during the trip and to reflect on the unexpected nature of the night. A little background: for this night I wanted a complete and total embrace of lucy, something I feel I have never experienced. I have had some great experiences with lucy, but when I read certain spectacular reports, I feel I might not have gone as far down the rabbit hole as I thought. At 7:45pm, 2 blue shivas were taken on a half-full stomach. I had planned on 3, but my tripping partner convinced me that a larger dose would be better suited for a more memorable setting, and we could always add another hit or some PEAs into the mix later on if we felt the need. As you should notice, this instantly contradicts my desire for an intense trip, but I justify this at the time with the fact that I had not tested the potency of these hits yet and they were supposed to be pretty outrageous. Anyways, the come up was pretty smooth, there was feelings of giddiness but overall a lot of anxious excitement. My heart was beating faster than normal and wouldn’t seem to slow down, so I knew something was making its way into my system. However, 1.5-2 hours after initially dosing, impatience and regret are making their way into my thoughts. I decide to add another blue shiva while my buddy goes a different route and adds 10mg of both 2c-i and 2c-e. 30 minutes after adding a blue shiva and I feel it now. We put on Sigur Ros, one of the most pleasant and beautiful bands ever, and let lucy take me to that place. But I feel this feeling often now, this intense euphoria and happiness, so am I really tripping that well? My open-eye visuals are vague and at times almost non-existent, but colors are definitely more vibrant and my depth perception is certainly enhanced. I close my eyes and I see galaxies and nebulae as I race across the universe, then I choose to condense myself down to the size of an atom and see the universe within the universe. But with a little imagination, I can visualize all these things easily while sober, so am I really tripping that well? Okay, there is no denying I am tripping and I feel fantastic, and sure these common occurrences for me are expedited on lsd, but I begin questioning what tripping is, what the purpose of psychedelics should be, and the effects taking psychedelics have had on my mind. At certain moments, I can’t even tell if I’m tripping anymore. Because of this, at one point I became bombarded with feelings of regret. Intense regret. Cycles of thought all expounding on the fact that you did not get the balls-to-the-wall experience you were looking for, you once again under-dosed, and this dose would have been better served in nature at a beach or in the mountains. Man, what intense emotion, I am tripping good. It just wasn’t what I expected, so I remind myself that this has been a fantastic night in its own right, to forget my expectations, and let the trip just be. This brings me to a question that has come up while sober or even while high on weed: how did I sense the world and my environment before psychedelics entered my life? I don’t seem to remember exactly. Sometimes I wonder if my senses have expanded or if I just wasn’t properly paying attention before. Either way, there has been an undeniable change in the manner I perceive my environment, and this trip helped further expose this. Is lsd supposed to have a mind-fuck aspect to it? Because I didn't get any of that. So much of this experience is marked by complete clarity. I don’t feel like my senses are “tripping out” but rather completely enhanced. Full mental clarity, full physical coordination with no body load, and I feel completely in touch with my emotions and the emotions of those around me. We smoke a bowl out of my bong which always makes me cough my ass off if I rip it hard. I take a huge rip, exhale, and then start to cough and I think, “I don’t like coughing, I should stop.” And somehow I stop mid-cough, and I’m not even fighting back the desire to cough. It’s just gone. Not even my asthma inhaler does that. That was pretty interesting. What started as a somewhat disappointing experience has transformed into a profound, meaningful trip. I feel the intense desire to create. I feel the desire for new experiences. I want to learn and soak up every second of my life. This is why I take psychedelics, to inspire myself. I also can’t help but feel lsd is one step towards the continued evolution of human beings. There is no reason to reject the idea that we can continue evolving our senses and the way we perceive our environment. And at certain points, I felt like an evolved or enlightened human being. I felt I would never come down because I never really came up. I was just myself, there, in the moment. I realized, with or without drugs, in each moment you can find all of existence, all of time, every path and facet. You can see the jewel of existence in its entirety if you choose to, not one edge at a time. All it takes is some imagination. For now, that’s all I have to say about it and thank you for reading if you got this far. Eventually I will take the remaining 5 hits all at once. Oh and my buddy, he was gone for most the night, and his pupils were fucking gigantic haha. As the sun rose and in the afterglow, we rode our bikes around town. It was so beautiful and pleasant outside I just can’t describe.
Take LSD, and then forget you took it Sitting around with a "Things That Must Happen For Me To Be Tripping" checklist is an easy way to waste a trip And every single one is different. LSD has an extreme clarity to it, but it is a fractal clarity, that is you are able to understand things fine and well in general compared to other substances, but your mind suddenly becomes 10 trillion trillion times bigger and more complex as your inner walls crumble. Remember all it does is change the person who took it, the experience itself with regards to visuals, mindfuck, crazy shit happening, that has more to do with what you are doing during the trip. It's also quite random, truly every trip is different, the effects are in one sense highly repeatable and in another sense impossible to repeat, for every moment you are a different being. Go in nature, take 5, forget you took them, and do things.
Ya that's the plan . I found myself at times overly analytical of the experience, but I do not regret it. In fact, this trip was absolutely necessary. Never again will I have a trip even partly ruined by expectations. A few difficult moments but in the end it was a fantastic trip. And I feel I need to emphasize one more time, that bike ride was one of the most glorious experiences of my life. Get a bike and go riding on lsd.
I actually have never done this, yet 2 of my favorite things in the world are bike riding and LSD will have to do this before school starts
Haha, I once noticed that at the end of a trip my lungs usually hurt and wondered why until I figured out that I take ridiculous hits both off Mary Jane and cigarettes the whoooole trip because I don't notice what is usually painful. It's interesting to note that even at doses that won't make you trip (like <20 micrograms) LSD has been proven at least as effective as traditional opiates like Vicodin
I will take that experience of lack of expectation into trips even to weed, or perhaps life. lol Btw, READING that trip experience made me feel like I was tripping lol. Trippily-written.
Im at this point where I have this weird perception that like LSD and 2ci are really similar experiences. When you get into heavy doses that may not be the case but I see them having alot of similar characteristics in 2-3 hits 20-25 Mgs range of the respective drugs. I haven't done LSD in about 10 months but both seem marked by very apparent lucidity, hit or miss visuals, color intensification, a euphoric body high, emotional opening and connectedness, music appreaciation and radically different experiences based on setting. Its strange to me why 2ci is kind of viewed almost as like a B list phenethylamine while LSD is put up on this pedestal. I know its slightly off topic but your writing of LSD reminded me of this thought I've been juggling around. Sounds like a solid trip overall and glad to read a trip report from you!
Good report. In recent trips, I too have found myself thinking about life before psychedelics, and my buddy and I had a stoned conversation the other day about the role of psychedelic influence on evolution throughout history. Cool stuff to think about. Glad it was a good one for ya
Wonderful TR. Lately it seems to me that a lot of the growth and understanding evolve over the several days after the trip. Are you sure you want to jump from ~200ug to ~500?
