So I did shrooms once and just had a really great time. I giggled at things that weren't funny and just had so much fun laughing. I also thought very deeply about a lot of things and had some really nice time to think. So, I figured why not try it a second time? I had some left over from the last time and decided to eat the remaining eighth. It started out the same as I remembered, just getting a little giggly, feeling a little funny. Soon, though, I started feeling really tingly, to the point I couldn't stand it. I had awful tingling all over my body and was lying in bed kicking my legs, I just couldn't get comfortable, but walking was awful too. I tried going outside for air but it was a mission to get myself together and out and once I got there I was just too anxious and self-conscious. Luckily, my girlfriend was with me and was not on shrooms and able to help me a little. It got to the point where I was absolutely bawling, so confused and unable to organize or understand my thoughts or what I was experiencing. I also had an overwhelming sense of insecurity and was extremely self-conscious, calling myself ugly, disgusting, and dirty. I also was SO confused at points I felt I didn't even know who I was. I think I could have explained basic info like my name, where I was born, etc, but I just didn't feel like I KNEW myself and it was terrifying. Finally, my gf suggested I shower which I did. She had to get in the shower with me and hug me and reassure me for almost the whole time. Luckily, by this time, I was starting to come down and regain some sense of normalcy. I had a little bit of a grip on reality and was able to pull myself together bit by bit. Why was this trip so drastically different from the first? I will NEVER do shrooms again. That was THE worst feeling I've ever experienced and I do not know how I would have dealt with it if it weren't for the supervision of my girlfriend. I was so insecure, unstable, depressed, and more than anything, CONFUSED.
if so overwhelming, how so now is it any different that you repeated the same words... the soul dont go nowhere in and outside the trip man. you the same thought you was going in coming out? If you think hard enough about what you just said, you may just trip off your own thoughts now without the aid of the substance.. Nothing has changed.
Sometimes tripping brings out underlying insecurities or subconscious issues that you may not be aware of in sober life. Best thing to do is not panic, face them one by one, and try to analyze what's making you feel that way. It's not easy, but remaining calm and just letting go will ensure a more comfortable time when things start to get rough. Difficult trips come with the territory. It's a shame to swear off shrooms forever, you could potentially have a difficult time on pretty much any psychedelic. Embrace the experience and learn from it. To get myself through the even the worst rough patches, I find that taking a few deep breaths and reminding myself I'm not going crazy, it's just a drug, it'll be over in a few hours, and just ride it out really helps. You have more control than you think, just be confident, take control of your mind and you'll always come out the other side just fine.
^^^This The mind is like a beautifully intense storm. Psychedelics simply take away your umbrella and force you to experience the storm, in it's full intensity. If you can't handle it, then hold on tight to your umbrella and never trip again, but that would be a shame.
^^^^ last two posts spot on. Tripping exposes you to insecurities and personal flaws you are not even aware of. But when feel those feelings of insecurity coming on, always remember that your tripping.
Also, check out PBSmith's post about psychedelic teachings and what he wrote about shrooms. Very informative and well written! http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?t=406125&f=48
Sweet Blasphemy summed it up pretty well, TopNotchStoner's analogy is great... Be thankful you got an experience like this out of the way early. You can see the profound cognitive shifts psychedelics have can greatly differ from trip to trip and hopefully you learn from this experience and integrate it into future psychedelic and non-psychedelic endeavors like Orison touched upon. It's best to respect these substances, they are often euphoric and ecstatic but they can be overwhelming and difficult for even those quite experienced with them.
Exactly! When I was 17 or 18 I had my first trip ever on 22mg 2c-i and it started out pretty excellent but due to an outside crisis that would have been difficult to handle sober, it quickly spiraled down and into chaos. Definitely in the top 5 most disturbing experiences of my life. Of course, I didn't know how to handle it then, and sometimes I wonder how I wasn't turned off psychedelics completely right then and there, but something just told me to give it another go and I'm glad I did. I'm thankful I had an experience like that early on. Don't geeve up, OP!
Thank you all for the input, very helpful actually. Perhaps I was quick to react just because the experience was so emotional for me, but I realize now that everything comes from me, it is not the shrooms' fault. I had a similar experience a few years ago when I tried 2c-i also but to a lesser extent and doing it again actually helped me to work through some of my unresolved issues with myself. Anyways, regardless, thanks for input, I really do appreciate it Maybe I'll give shrooms another chance and just remember that it IS just a drug and try to get more of a handle on myself.
THANK you. Just try a smaller dose if you're not comfy with an eighth. You may also try a higher dose, since you'll be taken further out of this reality and be left with fewer things to be anxious about. Sometimes, "headfirst" is the best way to go with psychedelics.
I somewhat disagree with going with a larger dose of shrooms now just because of the fact they seem to digest differently than alot of the synthetics. Taking more after a difficult trip always gives me that sense of "Why am I doing this to myself again?" It effects people differently though.
It definitely affects people differently, which is why it's hard to know which way to go. A smaller dose would probably be the best bet though, I'm sure, but a larger dose COULD still be acceptable, if it's a large enough dose to take dude out of his head.
True and for most substances I completely agree with you in regards to the higher dose, I was just pointing out that sometimes the way mushrooms are digested kind of keep me grounded slightly because of the nausea and 'food poisoning' running through my body which only increases at heavy doses. Certainly nothing wrong with taking a higher dose though.
mushrooms are at the top of a list of substances which belong to a class of chemicals which specifically attack your "self" and conception of "self". You experienced ego dissolution and were not prepared for it. you must bow to mushrooms when you take them and allow them full access, control, and permission to do whatever they want to your deepest core of being. they will dismantle you.
I wouldn't call it an 'attack' of the self and the ego, rather complete immersion. As for 'dissolution', I tend to regard it as consolidation! lol No 'poisoning'.
