how many of you dream? dreams that you recall anyway. since i took a break from smokin back in february i've had an abundance of dreams. i had some pitfalls in my life this year and at the advice of my family took st. john's wort...and after about a week of taking it i had nightmares each night in succession. i suspected it to be the cause and quit taking it. then more pitfalls and i was just really down. i continued having nightmares over the next couple months but not as often and not as gruesome...and as strange as it sounds..at that point in my life i welcomed them because even they were more interesting than my actual life and made me feel like i had some sort of meaning...until i woke up. more recently..my dreams have given me ideas for stories and shared music with me that i've been able to remember and record 50 percent of the time. some dreams fill me with a strange sense of warmth and i feel like i learn something from them...although i forget the specifics within the day. lately i've been feeling that familiar feeling of wanting to smoke again...but as i've lost all my connects in this time i'm not sure how i would be able to...and i've considered the synthetic routes...but while toying with these ideas it keeps popping into my head that i might lose my dreams again..or my memory of them. a few times in this stretch of time i've even become aware i was dreaming...and told myself so..but almost as soon as i became aware i lost awareness and was pulled back into the dream. i never managed to take any sort of control over it. sometimes these dreams are so meaningful that when i wake up i feel a strange sort of melancholy. does this happen to any of you? do you dream? do you miss your dreams? are you willing to take a break from smoking in order to experience them once more? do they matter to you?
yeah, i could definitely relate to this. This year when I stopped smoking for a month I started dreaming again, halfway through my break and I would be so shook by the dreams I was having. None of them were nightmares, but they were all really strange and would sometimes leave this weird feeling in me throughout the day. anyways.. dreams are quite bizarre and they'd probably one of the main reasons for me to stop smoking. Just to dream again and see what my mind has to offer.
Ya same here. August 1st was the start to my 23 day break (going camping on the 23rd so wanted to lower my tolerance for that). Since then every night I've been having vivid dreams that I know I have, but I just forget them as the day progresses. I have also started a new medication though (effexor) so I'm not sure if this has anything to do with my dreams.
My sleeping dreams mean nothing to me. Some people love experiencing their dreams and afterwords examining them, but I no longer see the point. I love waking up and finding I am still alive, it usually overrides the emotion of any nonsensical dream I just had and erases it from memory. I used to have dreams all the time when I was depressed, now I am the happiest I've ever been and I never seem to have dreams. I don't know if dreams and depression are correlated, but it seems that's how it was with me.
^^interesting, interesting too, OP. i remember my dreams almost every night and it doesn't seem to change when i'm smoking or not..maybe i'm just lucky some of my dreams help me realize underlying feelings and issues so i'm thankful
i had a weird dream last night... i was in like a space station with the people from the hills and everyone was just running around but then i realized that i could talk to them so i said "you bitch". i then realized i was dreaming but i didn't really want to be stuck in a space station with the people from the hills so i woke myself up. either i imagined it or i got that sleep paralysis thing because i was being pinned down by a shadow figure... strangely enough the shadow figure was me making a face so it wasn't too scary and i knew that it would all go away soon so i just closed my eyes and like a few seconds later completely woke up.
interesting stuff...while i was smoking i forgot how much i enjoyed dreaming. would be nice to be able to keep smokin and dreamin too. and i guess i can understand if you're indifferent to your dreams. for awhile i was sort of zombified after watching Waking Life and listening to the part where they were saying that the brain can't differentiate between "real life" and a dream. i wondered if i was still alive. the sleep paralysis thing is wierd too. i know science has explained it now but i've always wondered if there was any bit of truth to the old ways of explaining things...before science disproved the existence of monsters. i'm more likely to believe my imagination nowadays...but i'm not sure if it's just to keep life interesting or what. maybe i've just watched too much tv where the crazy guy is telling the truth and he's the only one who sees it. interestingly enough...last night i had another dream..and i became aware again. i was back in school in a class and feeling really stressed out over it. but suddenly i remembered that i didn't have to be in school for another 2 weeks...and i told myself once more that i must be dreaming. it felt strange though...it felt like "real life"...and i kept wondering why i didn't wake up since i realized it was a dream. this time i tried to control it..like they say about lucid dreaming. i wasn't able to "make" my own dream..but i was able to change the appearance of things. i changed the color on some walls as well as the patterns on them. nothing special though...and nothing more than that. it was like i would concentrate for a second..and the colors or patterns would burst like a scrambled looking explosion and become something new. pretty kickass though : )
