So I ate a decent amount of molly at 9:18. It came on quickly to say the least. I got sick actually. I just wanted to make sure that throwing up isn't atypical for someone that's eaten a large dose of molly. Please try to let me know asap. Any help is greatly appreciated. I feel fine now, but I was in a room with a lot of people and got sick. The first time I got sick i was chewing trident layers gum and it just got overtly overpowering. Sorry for the random rambling I hope someone can decipher this. Thanks again.
If you feel fine now I wouldn't be worried. I think nausea/vomiting is a potential side effect, although a rarer one for MDMA. GI issues tend to be about the other end If it's hitting you hella hard then the puking is mostly psychological. Just listen to your body. If you're feeling alright, even GREAT and coming up, but you just had a little pukey, that's ok. You did just swallow some drugs after all.
I feel better. I feel like the puking feeling hits me in waves though. Like a second ago i thought i'd have to puke a third time. I ate around 300 mg. I'm gona wait for you reply and then maybe go out for some fresh air.
300mg in one go? Yeah that's a serious roll my friend. Smoke some cannabis, it will make it all better And relax. Breathe. Sit down, close your eyes, and breathe. MDMA can be overwhelming at these doses . . . it can feel like you have a nuclear bomb inside you, the energy can be hard to understand conceptually and so you get nauseous, your body says "uh oh this could be a poison!" and opens the release valves but seriously if you have access to pot smoke up, it will kill the nausea and calm your nerves, and pot + mdma is lovely
Thanks man. I don't typically smoke weed, but I think that's what i'm gona go with. Thanks so much man. I'll let you know if it helps. I think i might go for a nice walk outside too with my best friend. You're awesome man. Thanks
I do have some anxiety, but nothing too big. I feel better and then worse. Kinda weird. My guess is just rolling suuppppperrrr hard. lol
Go for a walk outside with your best friend I have some anxiety too, it could be that. I've had it come on from MDMA sometimes. Your are definitely ROLLING enjoy and tell us how it is. Is this your first time?
Yeah, man it is my first time. I've gotten shitty rolls in the past that I think were amphetamine. Just made me super jacked up (like amphetamine) lol. Yeah walk outside with best friend go go go. I'll write a TR sometime later on. Thanks again Mr. Writer. You're a saint.
No worries brolinda. MDMA is not very 'jacked up', hard to explain to someone who's never done it. On the one hand it's VERY relaxing and even sedating, I often just want to close my eyes and drift off on it, but on the other hand its CLEARLY a stimulant and keeps you up and can give you energy to think, speak, move, feel . . . ah, nothing quite like pure MDMA <3
So I started writing a TR and I realized it's just wayy too long. Like 4 pages and I'm not quite done, so I'm gona do a bit of shortening before I post. haha.
my advice for long TRs: Skip the stuff that's not about the drug. No one cares what store you went to to get what drink and what flavor you chose, it's not your diary, it's a "trip report", report on the trip . How were you as a mind, as a person, as an entity, as an organism, affected by this substance entering your body?
At about 8:30 my friend Andrew and I took some 5-htp and vitamin C to preload. I also took a multivitamin earlier in the day. I had not eaten since about 2:00 PM, so my stomach is EMPTY. I was pretty excited all day about rolling at my friend’s birthday party, so I didn’t really notice if I was hungry or not. At 9:18 I pull out the crystal of molly and cut off a piece for Andrew. I cut him off about 200 mgs off the rock. Unfortunately for us the scale we had could only measure tenths of a gram so it was kind of worthless for measuring doses. Andrew ate his 200 and made a sour face, before chasing it down with some orange juice. I then cut off a large portion of the remaining crystal, what I'd estimate to be 300 mgs. I chopped it up finely and then ate it. Then I dump the loose crystals out of the baggie (about 10-20 mgs) and eat those before putting the remaining crystal back in the bag. We get our stuff together and decide that we should go to the store to pick up some gum and gatorade. (I know driving is a terrible idea while under the influence of any substance like this, but I knew we had at least 30 min to come up so a quick trip wouldn't be a problem). We picked up the gatorade and gum and I drove to the party. It’s post 20 minutes, I'm thinking I feel a little something, but I'm not sure what, Andrew says the same thing. I was apprehensive to trust any stimulation I felt, since I had been so excited all day. I get a piece of trident layers from him and we walk to the house. At this point I realize I am definitely feeling something more and coming up. Whatever it was, it was building quickly. We get to the party and I get introduced to a bunch of people. I realize that a lot of my friends aren't there yet. I'm standing in the kitchen talking to Andrew and I can taste the PJ in the air. The fruit in it is sweet, I think about eating one of the strawberries floating at the top. I'm standing about 2 feet away from it. This happens to me a lot when I trip (tasting smells in the air). It's quite interesting and usually pleasant. (Strangely though, I couldn’t find the distinct taste of everclear that knew was in the PJ.) Fucking A, I was coming up so hard. The trident layers tasted really strong. It was chemically overpowering causing a sensory overload and the dominant flavor was making me nauseous. The room was somewhat crowded and people were being rather noisy. Feeling quite overwhelmed, I tell Andrew that we should go upstairs and look for Noah (my friend that sold me the molly). I push my way through the people in the living room to get to the stairs. In retrospect it wasn't even very crowded, I just perceived it as such. I mount the stairs and start to feel woozy. I tell Andrew I'm feeling sick and he asks what kind of sick. Before I can answer I make a quick dash to the bathroom before puking. It's probably about 9:50 at this point. Then another rush of vomit projects into the toilet. It's mainly water, which I assume to be a good sign since I had the Molly with orange juice. I am sweating like crazy. It's hot as fuck. Bam another wave of nausea and I'm back over the toilet. Phew. I step into my friend's room and sit down before going back downstairs for water. I stand for 5 minutes in the kitchen, then a wall of nausea hits me. I'm gona be sick again. After another series of vomit and then some dry heaving I start to think fuck, I think i just came up really hard, but what if this isn't normal. What should I do? I thought that nausea was a side effect of MDMA, but couldn't remember hearing anyone talk about vomiting. First thing I check to see if Mr. Writer is online. He is! I feel slightly less nauseous, but not great. I made the posts you can see earlier on in this thread and am feeling good by the end of it. I'm really starting to feel a lot better. Andrew and I are talking and bonding more (we're pretty close, he's my trippin' buddy and we've been through a lot together). My friend's girlfriend comes into his room and announces she needs to change dresses. I used to have a bit of a crush on her and have felt that it may have been mutual. However, I would never do anything to jeopardize their relationship or all of our friendships. Nonetheless, she is rather attractive. She asks me to help her unzip her dress. Emotions roll through me like a freight train as I pull the zipper down and reveal her back. She's beautiful. She held the dress up to cover herself and then skips to the bathroom. She comes back with another dress on, which looked amazing on her. She then asks me to zip this one up, which I happily do as she holds the front of it over her breasts. I can almost see her entire backside as I zip it up. She thanks me and then we talk for a bit. She asks me if I am feeling any better, and I tell her I am. I felt really connected to her. My ex gf had just showed up and the idea of talking to her made me a bit anxious and brought back some nausea. I felt like it was hitting me in waves, sort of like tripping, but different. We then decide to go for a walk to a friend’s place. Munching on ice cubes is surprisingly nice; I highly recommend it. I thought I would desire things that were more flavorful, but it turns out that kind of thing was just too overwhelming. Upon Mr. Writers advise, we decide to pack up a bowl when we get to the house, to ease my stomach and tension. I don't smoke marijuana. I try to explain why to people and it's somewhat difficult for them to understand. I actually just don't like being high. I don't find it pleasant or useful in my life. I tend to get paranoid and uncomfortable, but I love tripping, and find it quite useful and relevant. Strange, I know. In this case though, I did find smoking useful. Since I don't smoke much I took two hits of some dank. It cooled me down and got rid of the nausea. We chill and talk (me noah and andrew) ‘til about 11:40 and then decide to walk back to the party. The majority of the party was going to go out to bars, but a few were gona stay behind and chill/have a bonfire. We were opting for the later. Noah tells me that one of our good buddies who went to the naval academy is on leave for the night and can talk and stuff. I haven’t talked to him for a good month probably. I texted him earlier in the night and he gives me a call around 12:00. We talk for a while and do a lot of catching up. It’s really nice to talk to him, we’ve been out of touch for so long and I’ve really missed him. My short term memory has been rather shitty throughout the night and I find it hard to concentrate on our conversation, but it still feels good connecting with him again. Sorry this is rambling a bit. We chilled at the house where the party was (everyone pretty much left). It was me, Noah, Andrew, and our friend Susan. We chatted a lot and had a nice time. The bday girl’s boyfriend stayed behind because he was too drunk to go to bars. Susan candidly expresses that he hits on her and says really inappropriate things to her while he’s drunk. I have major problems with guys disrespecting women in anyway whatsoever, so I immediately felt bad for her. Not three minutes after she had just told us this, he walked into the room and started to make comments. Now this is a guy who’s upstanding and you would never think to say things like this, he’s not been drinking for very long though and isn’t capable of being responsible with alcohol. After making a forward and inappropriate comment, which I don’t care to remember, he asks Susan if it was made her uncomfortable. She said no, and I just shook my head yes, not realizing he could see me. He said I thought so, etc. Continued to say the same shit Susan told us about and then left the room. Had I not been rolling, I feel like I would have been much more angry with him or confronted him. Instead, I just tried to make Susan feel better and keep some distance between the two. I felt sorry for her having to deal with that bullshit and thought about how all girls usually encounter this sort of thing at some point in their lives. I can’t imagine what it’s like to have to deal with that bullshit. At around 1:30 we’re sitting around the fire and Andrew says he thinks he’s coming down. I feel much less affected, but I’m still feeling rather strong. Later in the night my ex and I have a lengthy conversation about a lot of things. I admit to her that I rolled that night etc. We end up having another long conversation later and I think I figured some things out. It was really just nice to get to have a real conversation with her and talk to about some things that had been bothering me. I haven’t really discussed what’s been going on very much with anyone other than her. I left their place at like 4:30. Andrew was in bed and asleep by like 2:30. I didn’t get in bed til like 5:15 and ended up waking up at 8:00. I lay in around til about 11 dozing off once or twice, but not really sleeping. I don’t know if this really helped me feel a ton better about my situation with my ex, but I don’t think it hurt. Hopefully, all the benefits have not surfaced quite yet. I felt rather drained emotionally, physically, and even mentally the day after. I guess that’s to be expected though. I confronted a lot of difficult issues with my ex and missed out on a fair amount of sleep. Even two days after I felt kind of out of it. Today I feel pretty back to normal though (post three days).
I know it's still too long. I'll try to keep my TR's shorter in the future. I just wanted to get this one up. I know if you're saying that's a lot then I probably overdid it for my first go. It was good and I'd try it again, but probably at a lower dose and in a different setting. My friend and I discussed a candyflip with 4 tabs and 125 mgs of molly.
I think it's a great TR, really puts us in the shoes of someone doing it their first time on a serious dose
