Horrid dream... What does this mean?

I dreamed I was at a mall walking out of my favorite store and I met one of my friends from school. I haven't seen her in weeks in real life. For whatever reason I was just overcome wtih rage. She walked up to me and tried to hug me and I punched her in the face and continued to beat the sh*t out of her, it was like something took over my body and I couldn't stop. I pounded her untill she was on the ground and started screaming and swearing at my other friends who tried to pick her up.

I then woke up feeling horribly guilty and sad. Any idea what it could mean?

Recently I've been having violent dreams from burning a whole forest just to be cruel and killing and cannibalizing my boyfriend whom I love very much. I even dreamed I went to a daycare with a gun and started shooting people down. It's really horrible and I am a buddhist/pacifist and hippie in real life and do my best to avoid violence so it's nothing like me at all. I feel like I must have evil thoughts bursting to get out and this scares me. I don't even feel like sleeping now. I wake up constantly feeling guilty for these subconscious thoughts!

 

maybe you subconsciously feel like you are doing harm to yourself or others

examine your health maybe?

 

I guess that could be... Nothing is physically wrong with me that I know of however.

 

ok, your a buddhist. this dream is easy to fit into buddism.


YOUR SHADOW IS COMMING TO GET YOU!


you have cut away, denied, disowned and, repressed your shadow... IT IS PSYCHOLOGICAL AND SPIRITUAL SUICIDE TO NOT ACCEPT YOUR SHADOW!
if you accept your shadow self, you will move forward in your spiritual growth as a buddhist toward enlightment.:cheers2:


if (REPEAT, IF) you do not accept this gift (AND, YES, IT IS A GIFT!) from your shadow, you will never be able to reach enlightment in this lifetime.

psychological and spiritual growth is as hurtfull and scary as a goddamn motherfucker!

i have been were you are now. i have worked with a good number of people who have gone down this same road. those who refused to accept their shadow... it turned out badly for them!:sad:
those who accepted their shadows... are much better and contented people today!

the dreams won't hurt you and, you WON'T (REPEAT, WON'T!) act on them in the waking world. just let them run. THEY ARE GOOD FOR YOU!

i would suggest, you put a notebook, a couple of pens and pencils and, a tape recorder right by your bed.
draw, write and/or speak about your dreams when you first wake up.

don't worry. your not some kind of "sick perverted fuck." your normal and healthy. you will be fine.

if i can be of any help to you please, feel free to contact me.
i'm on your side and, i'm pulling for you!

 

Well that means alot ^_^

I'm glad someone doesn't read this and go "Oh holy shit she's a freak! Better watch my back around her!"

I'm not quite sure what you mean, however, by my "shadow"

Thanks, though.

 

repression creates obsession, and my guess would be that rather then redirecting the hostility of the culture surrounding you, into some kind of positive energy manipulation, you've sort of tried to force a lid on a pressure cooker with no safety valve.

it may be possible to redirect these energies in ways that soak that negative energy off into beneath the spirit legs of its source.

different beliefs have different ways of saying this, and what i'm suggesting isn't hating anything of course, nor wishing physical or spiritual harm to any actual person, but the cultural negativity itself, and the perspectives from which it arises.

nor is of course, altering and maturing it, yes i'm speaking very mystically here, because i have difficulty putting it in more concrete terms, and seldom find the ways it comes close to being expressed all that concrete either, in any sense of the word, causing or doing actual harm, though those with especially strong emotional attachments to what they are familiar with, may choose to see it as such.

 

I think I might understand what you mean...
Thanks for the input! I'm not sure I know how to redirect the energy, are you sasying send it back to society because thats where it's from?!?

 

Have you been drinking or doing a drugs recently, more so than usual?

 

I have never drank or done drugs, it's against what I believe, and I'm too young to drink as of now.

 

Anything else that could make you vulnerable?

 

Like what? Elaborate?

 

A new relationship, hanging around people you don't know very well, new people in your life that make you feel unsafe, sleeping around, being around people who are drunk or high regularly.

 

I've been staying with a friend of my dads because he had to go to the hospital and have tests done... They smoke all the time and it bothers me. Does that count?

 

It might. I've read and heard that bad vibes, bad spirits, bad karma follows addicts around. If you surround yourself with those sorts of people you may pick up some of their "following" and it could influence you when you don't realize it. you let your guard down at night, when you sleep.

This doesn't only go for addicts, but also people who suffer from anger issues, or generally mean, evil people.

Sounds strange/new-agey, but food for thought.

 

the english word shadow, comes from the old norse word sal. in fact, in old english the word was sal also.
the sal/shadow is one aspect of the human mind/soul.
the shadow is an inseparable companion within the mind/soul.
the shadow is the "weak" aspect of the mind/soul.

you stated you are peace loving. that is the "strong" aspect of your mind/soul, you identifiy with.
you DON'T see yourself as aggressive or, as an aggressor.

BANG! BANG! BANG! (at the backdoor of your mind/soul)
HEY SISTER! I KNOW YOUR IN THERE AND, I KNOW YOU SEE YOURSELF AS LITTLE MS.GOODIE TWO SHOES BUDDHIST YET; NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU FIGHT ME OR, HOW FAR YOU RUN FROM ME... I'LL GIVE YOU NO PEACE UNTILL YOU ACCEPT ME (SHADOW) AND, MAKE ME PART OF YOUR MIND/SOUL!

your shadow is the 'bad girl'. the big, bad, mean mamma hells angels motorcycle bitch from hell!
of course, that 'bad girl' is 180 degrees from the 'good girl' buddhist.

all you need to do is, open the backdoor of your mind (easy said. hard as all hell to do though!)
say "hi there, my motorcycle bitch from hell!"
throw your arms around her and say, "i'm now ready to accept that you are, the part of me i dislike the most.)
motorcycle bitch from hell will, get all teary eyed and say to you. "thank you honey! all i ever wanted was for you to accept i was always here!"
"i'll no longer be a big time pain in the ass to you
anymore!"



let me give you an example from my shadow.
i don't see myself, as being someone whom could kill/murder another person.
i have accept my shadow aspect that could and, would do that if need be.
i opened the door when my shadow knocked.
i said to him, "ok, i don't like this aspect of myself, in fact, i hate myself for having this aspect of me!" still, i know your there and i have accepted you as a part of me... no matter how much i hate it!"

since i have accept that aspect of myself; he has left me alone.
all everyones shadow want is some respect. give them that and, they will leave you alone.
even though they are the "negative" aspect of ourselfs, their still human and, everyone wants to be treated with respect.

 

Ok...
Sounds kinda hard but I'll accept my shadow.

I started laughing at the image of a motercycle bitch from hell living in my head XP
Thanks for the help though!