Over the years, my evils have wracked up, and I feel that it is time to finally voice them, as this is the only way I feel that I can continue into the life of freedom I have seeked. First, I'd like to say hello, and second, I'd like to confess for my thoughts. Every day, atleast one impure thought crosses my mind. From fucking the Shampoo commercial girl in the ass against her will, to killing millions of innocent beings, I have committed thought crimes that I have had second thoughts against having committed. I have thought of how to plot out a sexual assault, I have thought about murders, and I have thought about overall cruelty. I have also thought about all at one time, torture, rape, and killing needlessly. This sin I repent. Next is my sin of greed, gluttony, and Pride. I believed that I was the ultimate, and that all was mine for the taking. I took what I didn't need, left behind by others, but that was reasonable. But I stole from my friends, and that was not. Money as well. I have eaten to where I could no longer eat, and I have feared becoming fat as well. I have sickened myself with gluttony and I feel that my following of that sin is still strong, but be it so. The third, is pride, in masturbation. Weekly, I masturbated, each time into a piece of leather furnature. I gradually envisioned more, and when I tired of it, I saw the results. I sickened myself, and in disgust of what I was, I decided it was time for a change. I also killed three, no, more than four innocent animals with no need to it at all. First a rabbit, just for fun and a shot with a bow and arrow, I killed one of natures beings. I beat to death an innocent wood-rat with a stick, laughing as I did so. I tortured small mice and voles by placing ice ontop of them, and then crushing them. At a young age, I murdered the innocent beings. And finally, I murdered a Possom without cause, beating it to death like a maniac and using a snow shovel to do the deed. Now, I seek enlightenment. I wish to reverse my crimes but I cannot. I will change.
Fuckit I do all the first paragraph daily, never stole from friends but done the other shite. Never killed animals for fun but have killed for food. Standard everyday procedure.
I wanna fuck Flo in the face all day everyday for a discount.. dirty little red lipped **** face bitch.. mmmm .. wheres my remote at? ..
You made me smile I have daydreamed of her giving me oral sex, then forcing her down so I can give her vaginal and anal sex. rettyplease:
you hurt a few animals, stole a little bit, and have disturbing thoughts. you must not be so prideful to open up to other people unless of course this is like a show for you, where this thread is a place where it can be all about you, been there done that. You definitely won't change by writing I will change. You sound alone, how old are you if I may ask? I find the best way to live in society is become part of it and that means you have to obey the little laws like no stealing, other norms like no hurting animals. But then the question is why be part of the herd? I find it's impossible to be really happy alone. Have you ever been in love? Have you ever wanted to loved and forgiven? it is true a therapist can be a method to thaw isolation, it's also a person who can give you tools and resources to interact with others. I lived in isolation, I had friends that I never let near to me or felt any of that friendship feeling. It made my cold, and ultimately unhappy.
Read a good biography on Milarepa. He was a Buddhist saint that did alot worse shit than you. As an Ordained Minister I absolve you. There is an old saying, "When I was young I did what I knew. Now that I know better I will do better." Man self flagellation sucks. You are human and deserve some slack. Do you still beat animals to death for fun? Have you moved up to humans for the challenge? So I've absolved you a perfect stranger. The thing is that it isn't my job to do so. It's yours. Peace Out, Rev J
i agree with reverand jc if you are seeking enlightenment then you are going up, which im told is the correct direction... so if nothing else there exists that in your self described dispair, oh and quick question if you havent caught the last thread: were you brought up religeous?
Either that or he has hit the Existantial Crisis known as the First Noble Truth: Life is suffering. Boy what a feel good concept. From womb to tomb, birth, old age, sickness and death day in day out for eternity. We come in cold, blind, naked, and screaming. Go through our bumps, bruisies, broken bones, sickness, watching our friends die, hurting people by being an asshole, etc..... and realize that it is cruel and just doesn't seem to have any end until we leave the world hoping to be at least naked and screaming. Sounds like fun doesn't it. noble truth number 2 is much better. I hope you find that one on your own. Either that or he's reached the ninth step. Peace Out, Rev J
I thank you all for influencing me to take part in the joys of life instead of forcing myself to suffer And I may be on the ninth stage, JC, lol, or perhaps, something more, because I have already noticed the first noble truth
Actually the Ninth Step is from AA it is making amends with the people that you have hurt due to your behaviour. I know it is kind of a cheap joke. Peace Out, Rev J
Why thank you! It does wonders for my creativity too, and I am pretty friendly to, well, pretty much anyone And as for the ninth truth, I have been making amends to my friends, giving back and all, just seeing them happy makes me enjoy life.
It puts the lotion on its skin or it gets the hose again I am about as fucked up as a rectangular pandabear I guess, so, It's awesome we have a naturally equal fuckedupedness!
