After spending all my savings, fucking up my next few months. (Moving plans) and just being generally depressed about being hooked again. I decided that it was time to get off opiates. With only loperamide hcl, naproxen, and half a gram of weed I made it threw the first two days. Not with ease. Was quite terrible actually. But I made it. I feel more clear headed than I have in a while. Though still in w/d (mostly cramping in my lower back. Rls. And the depression that comes along), mentally craving like crazy, I'm glad this has happend. I feel very positive about the future. To say I won't use again is very bold. And even rings untrue to me. But to not be a slave feels wonderful. If your thinking about getting clean, ask yourself why not. You can always get fucked up if you don't like it. Hudspin.
For the past 8 months ranging from 5 - 10 lorcets a day. Recently I found tar and monkey pissed .1 a handful of times. I know this isn't "crazy" by any means. But was controling me none the less. More than half the days out of the week I would be waking up sick. Or feel the onset.
Good for you im happy but you did not kick much... you tossed a Habit not a all out junkie addiction.... YOU EVER SUCK DICK FOR 5-10 LORCETS!!!! YOU EVER SHOT A DIRTY LORCETS NEEDLE THAT HAD HIV IN IT BITCH!!! Just jokin.... glad you kicked it.... hehehe lol
I did eat a lorcet that I had dropped in a fastfood resturant restroom once. Omg. I know its "not much" to withdraw from but none the less I DID withdraw from something that I spent way to much. Pawned a bunch of shit I really wish I wouldnt have. I'm glad its only gotten this bad. Side note. I don't have contects for anything other that what I mentioned, if I did I'm sure things would gotten way more gnarly.
I did eat a lorcet that I had dropped in a fastfood resturant restroom once. Omg. I know its "not much" to withdraw from but none the less I DID withdraw from something that I spent way to much. Pawned a bunch of shit I really wish I wouldnt have. I'm glad its only gotten this bad. Side note. I don't have contects for anything other that what I mentioned, if I did I'm sure things would gotten way more gnarly.
I've found it to be so hard staying off the dope man. I have a kid coming and that kills me the most. It makes me feel like a shit because I have to do it in secrecy. For the last year in a half i've been living a lie. Everyone thinking I'm sober, me quitting for a while then relapsing, you can only play off the dope sickness as being sick for so long before someone catches on.. So far my buddies are the only ones that have and there torn up. It's a shitty thing to see people go through as well as go through. I don't want to do it but I keep doing it, i've already lost three people to it. I know I have the power to quit, but it possibly the hardest thing to do.
Good luck! Have you thought of going to a doc and maybe talking to them? What about the thought of suboxone?
Excellent man - hang in there. Wish I could just clean it out of my life - now that would be sweet. It would take away about 90% of my lieing, 80% of the arguing and save me a shit load of money. What is it about the that stuff that keeps pulling you back in. Good luck and hang in there.
