I may be acting on this very soon

Had gay thoughts for 4 years. I'm a guy, and have always been obsessed with girls and their stuff. However sometimes, sometimes, guys can be interesting.

I couldnt imagine any sort of "relationship" with a guy. Also fairies bother me. The voice, the mannerisms, just offputting, kind of like how the valley girl personality is irking me now.

Its feels so weird, but sometimes a dick just looks nice. I feel like i'd like to touch it, suck it, who knows. Only on an athletic guy though. Im pretty athletic too, and i think it comes from a revulsion of how skinny, fat, or overall weak guys look. I hope this doesnt make me sound arrogant but im really open minded and im pretty self-confident so im not going cry at night because jesus no longer loves me or because a guy took advantage of me with his no no spot. I'd even consider bottoming (protection of course!) as i can see it being possibly pleasurable. However i have no will to be touched or to top at all. So weird right? I don't know.

Part of the reason ive never acted on anything is due to how only 1-2% of the male population is even considerable. The thing is though, some of that population is responding to my craigslist ad about bi-curious interaction. Maybe as early as tonight or tomorrow ill have the opportunity to go pull on a model guy's cock if i choose to. The worst thing that can happen is i dont like it and say sorry for the waste of time, right?

 

Nope. That's by far, NOT the worst thing that can happen.

The worst thing that can happen TO YOU is that you do not re-consider your own atttude as expressed here.

The fact that you only want to mate with the dudes who are in your own league (age, looks, body image) is fine. That's your prerogative, and you won't be alone with your choice. After all, birds of feather DO flock together...

The way you describe yourself as opposed to those who "irk" you in any way, is where you want to look both very long and very hard...
How about adopting the following attitude as in: "I am young, good-looking and athletic and am interested in similar dudes." Drop all of the rest and never mention it again...
KD

 

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It doesn't make you sound arrogant. But your security obviously comes only from your body. You're saying if you didn't have your athletic buff body you'd be weak like everyone else too. That is what worries me. Any guy who feel that way is gay or secretly gay if another guy who is buffer or more athletic comes along. You're weak already.

 

Ouch. That's almost an insult to gay people saying that just because he's so insecure, he must be gay. But no, I'm not trying to be mean. I just think that the poster means he has a specific type, and not that he is intolerant of others, just that he isn't attracted to them. If you're so obsessed with body image though, I don't blame you. You're a product of society and media most surely. Just know that you're setting yourself up for a fall either way by accepting it. Bodies don't last. Good luck experimenting. Curiosity didn't kill the cat, it made the kittens.