Glad to see your still the girl I remember. Well through serendipitous events, I acquired a couple of doses of the Shiva blotter. As it had been a long time (over ten years) and the setting wasn't optimal I decided to test the waters with only half a hit to start. Good thing I did. As others have reported, these baby's are potent, easily 200-250ugs based on what I took and remember from known doses in the past. First notice was after 20 minutes, after 90 minutes I was in flight. As I was "boarding the plane" I played a little on the PC, Torchlight, a mindless fun, very colorful and cartoony game. As I played the colors and effects got brighter and more intricate and I knew I was in for a good flight. After about an hour I decided to get some juice, and the wife was sleeping so I didn't want to make much more noise. Going out to the living room I noticed my daughter (9) had just started watching "Charlies Angels" and I decided to join her. I was getting smacked by waves of delicious LSD intoxication as we watched the movie. Following the plot was a little strange as my mind was racing through myriad thoughts and seemingly hours would pass yet the movie only progressed slowly and I would become disjointed as to the plot. But the best, most wonderful thing about it was enjoying the laughter pouring out of my daughter's little being as she howled and giggled at the antics on screen. Listening to her so thoroughly enjoying the show I ran through my whole time with her, from birth to the present and felt grateful and blessed that the universe saw fit to have our lives intertwined as father and daughter. I am always astounded at how a lifetime of experience can be condensed down and presented in a flash with utter clarity and understanding while in the presence of Lucy. Emotionally reliving her birth, nearly losing her as an infant to illness, all the wonder and delight I have witnessed in her little eyes over the years. The tears and hard lessons she has learned and has yet to learn. How much she is a complete joy and miracle in my life. All that she is to me and my life was presented, felt, considered, appreciated and given thanks for in the space of a mere few minutes. Sitting and laughing with her as we watched the movie surpassed every other laughing trip with friends in my life. After the movie she went to bed and I decided to go and sit out in the backyard for a few minutes. It was a beautiful night with a full moon and waves of clouds passing overhead, minutes became hours. Gazing up at the moon allowing my eyes to focus on everything and nothing the clouds took on a life of their own. Swirling and cascading past my view and trying to obscure the glowing ball hovering overhead I was struck by the constantly shifting patterns and swirls the clouds created and they were infused with an orange glow that at times caused me to question if they were in my mind or the atmosphere. Looking up at the moon I thought to myself "What wondrous stories she could tell" That bluish white orb has been witness to all of mankind's triumphs and defeats, all the while silently bearing witness to the play being carried out by these arrogant little beings known as "humans". If I could only get a glimmer of her wisdom and knowledge, although I'm certain such an experience would leave me crushed at my own insignificance and ashamed of the chest thumping and arrogance we possess as we proclaim ourselves to be "Kings" of our small domain called Earth. After what seemed an infinite eternity I decided to go back inside. It was now about 1 AM and 5 hours into flight. It was time to lay in bed with some music. Donning my ear buds and turning on my mp3 player I started off with The Moody Blues "On the Threshold of a Dream", As I listened my thoughts meandered around and I found myself thinking of my father. I would love to share this with him. We have always had a very estranged relationship and I know he has always been a little out of sorts in his own skin. He often said he felt as if he were an alien just here as an observer. I wondered if he would get some answers if he were to meet Lucy. Then my thoughts turned to how could any person or government legislate and determine how I choose to perceive this world. It is an affront to my sensibilities as a free human being that another would dare to dictate to me or anyone how or what is reality. HOW DARE THEY! I thought of how I would present the idea to my father. "Hey, the worst that could ever happen is you die, and is that really such a horrible thing?" "Your an intelligent man, how could you not be intrigued by what others say about psychedelics, see yourself with no restraint, have an experience of the divine and sublime that is ever present." As I ran the dialog through my mind, I truly wondered how anybody with any type of questioning spirit could NOT be intrigued and compelled to investigate these substances and experiences. Because it's illegal? PLEASE! Nobody should be given the right to dictate to another how they want to experience this miracle of existence. For someone to bypass an experience such as this simply because of some legal scribblings that are as new as yesterday but want to control that which is timeless is an insult and affront to the human spirit of discovery. I then proceeded to listen to some Phish and then some of Dan Gibson, Secrets of the Jungle. Very nice with Lucy in accompaniment. I finished up the night and flight by listening to one of my favorites, "Days of the Future Passed, Moody Blues. Listening to the vibrant and emotive vibrations of the string instruments I was struck with the awe and beauty that only LSD can impart. Why would anybody ever deny themselves such a joy as this was my final thought as as I wrestled with sleep. That was my first journey with Lucy in over a decade and only half a hit! I am going to experience the remaining 1.5 hits in the near future when setting is more conducive to an in depth journey through the universe of my soul. As has been said before, if you come across these TAKE ONE FIRST! Don't just pop 4-5 in your mug thinking they are like what has been around, unless of course you want to leave this world behind as but a distant glimmer as you hurtle through inner space. You have been warned. We're living in a land of make believe And trying no to let it show Maybe in that land of make believe Heartaches can turn into joy We're breathing in the smoke of high and low We're taking up a lot of room Somewhere in the dark and silent night Our prayer will be heard Make it soon So fly little bird Up into the clear blue sky And carry the word Love's the only reason why Open all the shutters on your windows Unlock all the locks upon your doors Brush away the cobwebs from your day-dreams No secrets come between us anymore Oh, say it's true Only love can see you through You know our love can't hurt you We're living in a land of make believe And trying no to let it show... Maybe in that land of make believe Heartaches can turn into joy We're breathing in the smoke of high and low We're taking up a lot of room Somewhere in the dark and lonely night Our prayer will be heard Make it soon So fly little bird Up into the clear blue sky And carry the word Love's the only reason why... Open all the shutters on your windows Unlock all the locks upon your doors Brush away the cobwebs from your day-dreams No secrets come between us anymore Oh, say it's true Only love can see you through You know our love can't hurt you
Great trip report pb smith, I found the glimpse of a male parenting perspective particularly interesting. These shiva hits certainly sound like the real deal which is encouraging to know because while I find many of the rc phens and tryptamine drugs like mushrooms quite worthwile and profound in their own right, there is some intangible of LSD that for me puts it in a class all its own.
Hell yeah! Torchlight is so fun. It must be nice tripping , the graphics are so cool. :_) jesus fucking christ that is the best TR i have ever read. It's mindblowing that you had an experience this profound, that you haven't done this in over ten years, and that this kind of thing is even possible, at all, biochemically. Oh absofuckinglutely if its the same shivas they are pure space paper. Eat 4 and enjoy your intergalactic tour; a comprehensive overlook of all that you are from your atoms to your dreams to your health to your function as an atom within this galaxy to your function as a social entity, a spiritual entity, all facets of your inner jewel bursting with inescapable detail. I can't wait to take a bigger dose :drool5:
Thanks for the kind words. Yes I will say that being a parent and watching my girls grow into young women definitely does change the course of a journey with Lucy. So much more than just myself enters into the equation. Knowing what unconditional love of another is in reality rather than just concept is a wholly different experience when considered through psychedelic eyes. I look forward to another sojourn soon and shall of course give an account of my journey.
why wouldn't it be possible. his brain receptors are still intact. you've taken just the one so far right?
Yeah, so far just the HALf of one. Still have 1 and a half left. Will be taking a more in depth journey soon when I have the house to myself and can be more "free" to explore. I think Mr. Writer is referring to any of us being able to experience such profound and transcendent beauty from such seemingly simple molecules.
Well coming from you, that is a big compliment I feel that a "trip report" should relay and reveal more of what is going on inside rather than outside. After all any of the things we do while tripping can be done sober, it's what is taking place inside our minds and souls that is the real thing to report on. I love that even after all these years it is like coming home after a long journey, familiar and welcoming. Like I said, glad to see she's still the same girl I fell in love with over 30 years ago. Same here.
I'm happy lucy welcomed you home. (I also went of a hiatus from all psychedelics for over a decade, and I've been having the time of my life with them since I came back a few years ago. I don't know why I stopped...err, well, I kind of do.)
When's your next one? I also, knowing it's been 10 years (or 5?) or longer since you last tripped, want you to make this one count!! Like you said, take the next when you've got it all to yourself.
I agree it was necessary and the time is right. One other thing I noticed as I gazed into the LSD mirror is how much of a self important dickhead I have allowed myself to become in these forums. I apologize to any and all I have offended as of late. Nothing like the humbling honesty of Lucy looking' ya in the eye and revealing the motives and intentions behind our actions. My current sig quote kind of sums it up.
Nice trip,PB. It's been 15 years since I've seen that sweet lady. I'm thinking about her------just maybe
Do it scratcho. Have a damn good trip. PB, ya the shivas are mercilessly humbling they inspire great awe for the power of the molecule
