Okay, so first off, let me just point out that I'm only 14, almost 15, and the guy in question is just a few months older than me. We went out for just under 2 months last year, from earlyish September till the end of October. He was my first boyfriend...first kiss, first person I ever did anything sexual with (although we didn't do much), first boy to ever tell me he loved me (though that was probably a lie). He was also the first boy I ever met in person that I liked, which was more or less totally superficial as we got together the same day we met. He's kind of like a little boy, a real kid...he's totally naive and, to be honest, REALLY dumb, but I thought it was kinda cute...it was weird though, his personality didn't seem to have any...substance if you get what I mean? Towards the end of our relationship he started talking to a mate of mine and he liked her and she liked him. They didn't end up getting together but were going to after I broke up with him. I broke up with him because I was insecure and paranoid and he was always saying that I was always in a mood with him and he wanted to spend less time with me, etc. I was heartbroken for months. Anyhow, even now, I still can't get over him properly. I really don't understand why. Every time I see a picture of him or hear something about him, I want him back...I kinda like a guy friend at the moment but even he doesn't even come close to comparing to my ex, even though he's much sweeter and much more genuine. What's the matter with me?
But surely I didn't actually love him? I mean, it was 2 months and...well you know what I mean...it just seems impossible to love someone I didn't even know that well.
I didn't properly love my first boyfriend, in fact looking back on it he was a terror! But, like you said he was the first person you did a lot with, so it means a lot and probably always will. First kisses and boyfriends and anything sexual, will always stay with you, because they will always be the first.
I still think about my first to this day. Not because i was in love with her or anything just because we shared a part in time together.
First love? That was my neighborer's daughter. I was stupid enough to start a fight with her old man. He was a cop. I still remember the moment that he shut the door behind me, that was really heart breaking.
This is very true. I alluded to something similar earlier on. You wont shake the feeling off, because he is the first. I had the same feeling, I still have a weird feeling for my first. I would never go back to her, had I the chance, but she holds a special place in my heart.
