how to cure weed anxiety?

I have alot of Anxiety when Im curing my weed.. I wanna smoke it.. get fucking high. But I know I must let it sit for a while and not smoking.. I cant do it.. I go crazy... There is only one way for me to do it.. Have enough to smoke and cure at the same time. Either grow enough .. or buy a QP while curing..:willy_nilly:.. when will the madness end?? ...

 

anxiety.. another gift from you to me...

 

i just wanna say i can relate to you in so many ways it's like i'm reading my journal.. i'm working on a pm to send to you. haha hope it helps eace:

 

i never understood the whole journal thing.. i tried starting one.. and well.. it didn't get far.. i've tried it a couple times.. maybe my life is just too boring to write about

 

this is thy journal..

 

indeed

 

TL;DR: It's mind over matter, let's stop being pussies and beat this shit.

I also felt like I was reading my own thoughts while reading this topic, so it's very pleasing to know that I'm not alone. Not only has weed created some intense social anxiety, but when I'm alone it also allowed me to reflect on me as a person and examine my subconscious and realise this anxiety is not created by the weed, but me as a person. As such, I tried my best to change when I'm sober and realise that anxiety is simply irrational thoughts in my head and can be conquered by persistent positive thinking, therefore creating new cognitive processes.

Unfortunately it does get a bit hard, and sometimes you just can't use logic against your emotions; the more high you are, the more hard it becomes. The only time I felt my anxiety was becoming obsolete, was just like you, my tolerance was building up as I began smoking the majority of the week. I feel weed brings out everyone's true personalities and subconscious, and a lot of my friends are dominant extroverted personalities while sober, so it just strengthens while high. It's like it brings down the mask you wear while sober, allowing the subconscious to prosper.

I've had some great epiphanies and creative thoughts while high, and I've had some very anxious and paranoid thinking run fast through my head. Therefore I have a love-hate relationship with the plant. When smoking alone too much a couple of months ago, I began to have racing worried about my future and how I'm doomed to failure with a mere Bachelor of Arts degree. I've also thought I've had schizophrenia, depersonalization disorder, ADHD, bipolar and OCD. But I was just high. What I've realised form being sober (haven't smoked properly for over a month) is that any negative thoughts aren't permanent, and it's merely all in the mind. It's always been me convincing myself. I also get very anxious when smoking with a specific friend who has the same personality type as me (INFP), sometimes it feels like when high we are battling to whom can produce the best quality of writing and the best quality of conversation.

But, just like you, I become a hermit when I'm not comfortable, and the longer I'm smoking for, the more uncomfortable I feel in most situations. First I had to stop smoking in front of sober people, then I had to stop smoking with people unless I can trust them, and then I felt I couldn't smoke with any of my friends (I haven't for over a month now). Conversely, I can talk to strangers if need be, but it's just the ones that I'm having an actual conversation with I feel are judging me.

I've also felt when leaving a room, my friends all start gossiping about me and are relieved I've left because my silence has made them feel on edge. But now in hindsight, I realise these are just paranoid thoughts and in the future I'm best to know them as such.

As I've probably mentioned previously, I like to write when high. I worked out when high that the sound of the voice in my head is vaguely different to the voice I actually speak, and because the voice in my head becomes so prominent when high, it sounds weird when I talk (monotone etc) and it comes out differently to what I was thinking, thereby making me self-conscious and paranoid.

Let it be known that because I like to write when I'm high, I get a tad self conscious about writing and then feel guilt if I let an idea, feeling or memory slip away from writing it. What I have written though in social situations does point towards major social anxiety.


One thing I want to ask, do you feel this way from joints or pipes? From history, joints relax me more if anything. When I'm drinking with friends at a pub, sometimes we have gone into the toilets to light up a couple of joints and it just makes the night better and I can talk to anyone while high. So I know I'm capable of being sociable. And a few months ago I had a big blunt with my friend at a festival and was socially fine. It seems to be the bongs that do it.

It would also be interesting to note what MBTI personality type you are? There are numerous tests on the internet. I personally, am INFP (Introverted-iNtuition-Feelings-Perceiving). The friend that I smoke with, who I feel I'm often reading his mind when high, and he feels the same with me, and often it turns out he says what I'm thinking which freaks me out, is INFP. We also both tend to be anxious in similar situations.

In mid September I'm going to buy a quarter of weed (it will be two months of not smoking then), and it's going to be my last try for along time. If after months of self-therapy and realizations and working out the workings and origins of my anxiety (stemming back from my childhood), I'm still not able to beat it, then I think I'm going to quit weed.

I found my social anxiety got worse when sober too when I began to think about the last nights events, and then after self-therapy trying consciously to be not anxious, in the end it made me more anxious. If that makes sense?

Here's just some things I need to tell myself:
1. Go into smoking remembering all the other awesome feelings it gives you, and remember the times when first smoking of laughter.
2. Smoke only when happy with yourself and have accomplished things throughout the day.
3. Smoke only when you want to.
4. You aren't the center of the world and the friends aren't judging you or constantly thinking about, rather focused on their own thoughts and conversation, and perhaps even their own insecurities.
5. Nobody can read your thoughts, and no matter how hard you believe, you can't read other peoples thoughts, no matter how hard you feel. If you feel you are reading others thoughts, consciously make it they think positively of you.
6. If feeling anxious, it's just the high. Remember all the epiphanies, realisations you've made in the past and that you've always been mildly anxious - weed just strengthens the senses.
7. Keep your mind active and be confident in other aspects that isn't socially dependent or focusing on the psyche; such as writing, watching a movie, drawing or whatever appeals to you.
8. Just keep telling yourself that don't give a shit about what anyone else thinks, and be confident with yourself as doing otherwise is a waste of thought and not doing anyone any harm.

Maybe I'm being blindly optimistic as I haven't smoked in over a month, and the longer I smoke the more simpler it becomes? Either way, I'll update this topic in mid September after I've smoked a few times in social situations and tell you how I go. If it still doesn't work, then my love affair with weed will be off for an extended period of time.

Peace and love to you all.
x.

"All that we are is the result of what we have thought. If a man speaks or acts with an evil thought, pain follows him. If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows him, like a shadow that never leaves him."
-Buddha

 

I smoked a cone last night of pure green (in Australia we mix it with tobacco), and after not smoking for over a month of just pure green. Good god! It was very intense. It always feels like the subconscious has a more prominent voice, and whatever logic you have when sober, it's almost impossible to argue with the true subconscious.

I love how weed makes me appreciate the wonders of the world and see the truth in things, but if it's going to make my anxiety increase tenfold whether alone or together, I don't think weed is right for me anymore..

 

I have some pretty bad public anxiety and weed has always helped that!

 

since other people seem to be mentioning using other substances, to counter-act this, might as well bring up this:

Using LSD to overcome/gain confidence/kill insecurity?

saw that thread over on the LSD forum, interesting if nothing else. if i were to try to overcome that anxiety using another substance, i would make it one that i could take just once to gain some insight as to how to beat your problem. this way its not something you can become dependent on, but one experience that could (maybe) give the tools you need to make some progress in your situation.

i just figured i'd bring it up cause i happened to be looking at it shortly before reading this. not saying its right for you necessarily, and obviously very highly experimental though, its definitely something that could go horribly wrong if your not ready for it.

 

I havent smoked with somebody else in awhile.I was going through kinda the where id just turn silent and stare into shit along with some anxiety Lol.Ive been becoming better though the last time i smoked with somebody else that i trustted i had a great time, laughed alot except i keep gettting distracted by the thought i exist.I smoked last night and the panic attacks i usually recieved settled down and i was way more relaxed oddly.Laughed alot lol.Just smoke by yourself,walk it off and get ahold of your mind Lol.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CU6AVtQethw"]YouTube- Cop Eats Pot Brownies, Calls 911

My friend showed me this video awhile ago...Hilarity....I love how shes like "Brownie Wise" lol

 

for those of you who have nervousness, anxiety, paranoia, maybe try herbal valerian root extract vitamins there all natural my sister takes them she said they help I have never tried them but you can get them at the whole foods market (health foods stores) just take it before you decide to smoke it will help you relax
peace

 

Just dont care lol

 

woah i already posted here, fucking crazy. lol

 

I wouldn’t be so quick to reach that conclusion


Boston Police seize one ton of marijuana at a Dorchester residence
on Tuesday (June 1, 2010)

I mean wouldn’t you suffer from anxiety even If you didn’t smoke the shit; only sold it



Hotwater

 

very true but at the same time he can just get high by himself.

 

I'm not really sure how to suggest getting over this problem. The first two times I got high, I wasn't really quiet, &, in fact, since I was surrounded by cool people each time, especially for the second time, that contributed to me not being quiet. Usually I only keep quiet around my brother & mother unless I'm joking so they can't tell I'm high, but other than that, I've become very social while I'm high.

Just take small steps, & try socializing with more & more people overtime. I know you may be worried about saying something stupid, but we all do from time to time, so don't worry about it. Stop thinking about it & just do it.

Good luck, man!

 

just lace up your space boots.

 

when you send me that qp. hahaha nah thatll probably cause more madness

 

I had some nasty anxiety from weed that was triggered by a panic attack I had while high (I was on something else too which made my heart rate very high). After that night whenever I smoked I'd get the racing heart sensation and think I was having a heart attack or something. I got rid of it by continuing to smoke and telling myself I'm being irrational, no one ever dies from weed. It took a few weeks, but slowly the anxiety went away.

If you're feeling awkward is social situations while high I suggest you do the same thing I did. Keep smoking and telling yourself there's nothing wrong with you. You'll get over it eventually.