I've been drinking, not telling my girlfriend about it because I feel like she wont let me do what I want but I love this girl more than anything and eveyrthing in this fuckin universe..... I smoke a bit... I have a great job, I have a new motorcycle, I have NO PAYMENTS, I live rent free, I'm disease free, I make 1200$ at 18y/o and like I said I have no payments.... But I'm not content with my life... I wanna runaway.... I wanna be free but I feel so trapt... I know I haven't been around for awhile (like anyone cares) but I work 6 days a week and do everything humanly possible to help everyone around me... I have no me time.... it's just...i'm trap... I dont know why I'm rambling, I'm just drinkin a little but man, I'm lonely and I dont know why... My friends have abandoned me, I dont know why and I don't see my family much (not my fault). Just suppose I'm ranting and saying hey..so hey guys...
well, lets see, your friends probably abandoned you because you work so much. How many times have they called wanting to hang out and you gotta turn em down cause you gotta go to work? or because the little time you have, you want to spend with your girl or by yourself? I understand the need for making money and providing fot the lifestyle you want to live. Kudos to you for being on your shit. Advice, Yeah? Work your ass off, save some money, quit job, travel, chill with your buds, be frugal with your time and money, and go have some fun. Sounds like you deserve it. Life is not a rat race.
hey buddy. sorry times are rough right now try to reach out to someone if you can, glad you came here there's a saying, the light of the end of the tunnel is not the illusion, the tunnel is the illusion. you can feel free where you are, in the moment. why do you want to run away? try to explore those feelings and where you feel like running towards. when i feel lonely i try to reach out to someone nearby who will comfort me. if you don't have someone, try to be your own best friend right now. what would you say to someone you love/care about if they were in your shoes? how would you cheer them up and be there for them? try to do that for yourself things will improve, try to keep your chin up just some ideas, i hope it helps somehow :grouphug:
thank you so much guys... hearing all that has brought me up already... and I don't know why I drink, suppose I come from a long line of drunks, if anything though it helps me think... it wont last, it has to stop somewhere... I don't know what I'm going to do but all I know is that I don't wanna fuck this up and guess what, I'm probably gonna fuck something up but hey, scars make good storys right? again, thanks everyone
no prob, take it easy with the drinking if you can. i struggled with that during my low points so can relate. hang in there
yeah, yer tellin me. My girlfriend would kill me if she knew... I think I'm just going to tell her... She deserves to know and I feel horrible so I suppose it isn't helping. been with this girlfriend for almost a year and a half so she knows something is up, but what can ya do? Our relationship is suffering because I rarely find the time to talk to her and be with her like I was before but its for good reasons. I'm saving up for us a place. I'm tryna be successful but who knows!
Drinking and drugs should only be recreational.... if you have problems... best to deal with them stone sober. Find a hobby that makes you feel fulfilled, accomplished. Take charge of your life instead of just being a victim of it. Success and happiness are not defined by an amount of money or house/possessions... gearing yourself up to amass wealth can be as enslaving as any addiction. Take time now to find happiness in whatever circumstance you're in. Time can be as good an investment as anything... sacrifice a bit on your savings balance and show your girlfriend that she's as important as a house. Do something together... don't just tell her she's important... show it. Be happy she's not 6 or 7 hours away.
This, and then... this. Hope you feel better. Remember how lucky you are to be alive. Human life is a particularly absurd privilege, so enjoy it and make good use of it while you can.
i think it's a great idea to tell her you're struggling with things and leaning on alcohol. sometimes we could use the support of others to help us pull through, ya know? i don't know if you're interested in this idea but if you could use another friend to help you stay accountable with staying sober, feel free to pm me anytime. i haven't had a drink since the end of march, and having people to talk to about it has really helped me. so i'm here if you could use some support because it could help you, too
