to think that my life might already be over. i am stuck in a time paradox maybe, myself not realizing i am dead. some things in my life seem almost like imminent signs of my death a while ago. maybe an old me died. but the worst life of all would be one where you go through endlessly, and come to your judgment, seeing that all your goals and all your aspirations were illusions, you died a long time, what you thought you completed was never really real. did i die a while ago? sometimes i am scared to find out the truth, will i have to wait longer?
If you were dead, you wouldn't be scared, right? About the word "aspiration": it means to breath in. Maybe you meant inspiration. If you think all your goals and inspirations were illusions, you're probably right.
and if you were dead i suppose all of us would be too right? how else would we have this conversation?
as·pi·ra·tion /ˌæspəˈreɪʃən/ Show Spelled[as-puh-rey-shuhn] Show IPA –noun1.strong desire, longing, or aim; ambition: intellectual aspirations. 2.a goal or objective desired: The presidency is the traditional aspiration of young American boys. 3.act of aspirating; breath. http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/aspiration
I think you know what Hunter Thompson did back in 2005. He checked out, on purpose. You don't want to do that, I hope.
I get what you're saying, sometimes I'll go through these stages in which I am firmly convinced that I'm going to die soon. (I haven't been right yet, though.) After these, something big usually happens, or I have an epiphany. No time paradoxes here.
the last video i saw with Hunter in it. Was shown by Conan Obrian one night. Conan went to Hunter and wanted to go do some shooting at the local range. Hunter had been drinking heavily in the video i saw. the saftey guy did atleast once take the whiskey away from Tompson. i could even see Conan with that look on his face oh god,what have i got myself into.I grew up hunting and fishing all around me. I never once saw any of my dads freinds drink while the guns were out of the safe. I know how important Hunter is to some people in their lives,but to be honest my take on this old man was he was just a lousy stinking drunk,but this is just my opinion
To be fair I don't know where Hunter S Thompson the man ends and the character begins. I think he had an astute mind and a don't give a fuck attitude that I will never have. He fascinates me. My sig is just some shit I wrote while I was baked, and it's not even supposed to be my thoughts. I was just ranting as a vaguely define character. I wrote it while I was bored in calculus.
DroneLore: That's good. It sounds to me like you don't want to put a handgun in your mouth and pull the trigger. Whether you realize it or not, you have a pet or some relatives or some friends who would be deeply hurt by that. Imagine what Anita Thompson and Mary Hemingway went through. At any rate, you're programmed to die soon enough, so you ought to just stay on the living trip and dig it. Climb a mountain, or get laid, or disprove Rolle's Theorem or something.
