Nothing is interesting or exciting... help!

A while ago, I have listened to a binaural recording "Sacred Ground" by Kelly Howell, as well as a few others by the same author... I have experienced all kinds of weird effects, including a severe loss of concentration, lightweightedness, "flow of god", dreaminess, being able to move significantly faster (or so it seemed), as well as a few other impossible / delusional ones such as for example it seemed that some people have changed the color / thickness of their skin, or that the sky became lower, etc.

This lasted for a couple of months, with the effects continuing, and it became very difficult to focus on schoolwork or do anything else because of excessive dreaminess. I thought I would fail the last semester in college, but somehow miraculously I didn't and even managed to get good grades.

Towards the end of these few months, I had all kinds of weird ideas about being in a video game, someone controlling me from a computer, people playing power / control games with each other, etc.

Eventually, I saw a psychiatrist and was given a medication. The effects soon went away completely and my focus and clarity of thought returned back to normal.

However, before everything happened I was very much into a lot of things, including major ones like programming, philosophy, cooking, running and cycling. Now I am not into anything, furthermore I am apathetic towards all things and there is not anything that I want to do or have in my life.

I was told by the psychiatrist that the latter problem is due to depression, and was given an anti-depressant. However, I don't feel depressed. More importantly, it's been a while and my lack of interest in things does not budge at all. I try to read, watch movies, listen to music, go outside, but nothing can hold my attention or spark an interest. Anyone experienced anything similar and has any suggestions for me?

 

what did your psychiatrist diagnose you with, or hint at a diagnosis for? i'm just curious... and what medication are you taking?

antiepileptic medications that are given for some temporal lobe disorders can cause complete flatlining of emotion. i took them for depression and was devastated at the results. however, it's part of the process, or so i was told. usually antiepileptics are given first and then once the right dose is reached antidepressants are given as well to "re-spark" the interests.

i stopped taking them because of this, and i'm considering starting them again because my depression is pretty bad. i didn't get to take an antidepressant along with them, so really i'm not sure, but that's how i was told that they work together.

how long have you been taking the antidepressant? it can take a while to work, especially both meds at once. make sure you tell your doctor if you're taking any herbal supplements, vitamins, etc. because some supplements can have a direct effect on medication.

i would suggest... smoking some weed in the meantime?

 

He did not diagnose me with anything particular... His motto is that he "wants me to get better, and it does not matter too much what the exact problem is because these types of problems are caused by similar things and have the same healing methods".

I don't know if my medication is antiepileptic or not. I don't know anything about that. The medication is called "Abilify" and before that one I was on "Risperidone".

I've been taking the antidepressant for about a month, and I was told it would start working after two weeks. I don't feel any major effects from the antidepressant.

Thanks for the suggestion about smoking weed, but that's kind of not something I would do. Listening to binaural beats was a mistake, the effects were bad, and I don't want to go through it again.

You said you have a depression that's pretty bad, and I'm just curious, what's it like? What are you experiencing?

 

Abilify is a mood stabilizer, for the most part it is a good med aside from the price. Most times Abilify is prescribed for Bipolar, which makes me think that it is odd you were not given a diagnosis. Seems the doc is not being upfront with what you have going on and I would suggest finding a new doc.

 

Abilify was originally a schizophrenia medication.

I can't prove this but I honestly believe that the pharmeceutical company that manufactures it decided it wanted to make more money off the of drug so it started marketing it for different purposes as well. Obviously there is only a very small percentage of the general population that has any use for a drug intended to treat schizophrenia. But market it as a treatment for a bullshit blanket disorder like depression and the dollars start rolling in.

Thats how the pharmeceutical industry functions. Antidepressants are similar. Studies only show the ever-popular SSRI antidepressants to be a few percentage points more effective than placebo at treating depression. They even tell you in the commercials that these drugs may increase thoughts and risk of suicide! Who in their right mind would try to treat their depression with something that often makes its users want to kill themselves?

And that is why you shouldn't waste your time with psychiatrists. All they will do is prescribe drugs for you that the companies that manufacture them claim will treat the symptoms you describe to your psychiatrist. The psychatrist is a drug dealer pretending to be a doctor - the only difference is that the drugs he gets you to buy usually aren't fun to take.

By the way, Abilify mainly works as a dopamine receptor antagonist. The idea of using something that reduces dopamine receptor activity to treat depression is asanine. To be fair, it is also a seratonin receptor agonist, but the notion that depression is caused by a lack of seratonin is entirely theoretical to begin with - and yet there is an entire industry that claims to cure depression based on it.

Don't waste your time talking to psychiatrists. The entire profession is essentially a scam. Talking to a therapist will be much better for your mental and physical health.

 

Abilify will make you into a zombie and dull your interest in anything, I am not adovcating stopping your meds because the delusions you describe do sound serious enough that you would want to stick with something. But Your problem is not depression if you do not feel depressed, its the med.

 

Your medications are causing you to lose interest in things but you have to be careful because if you decide to go off of them you will have to do it gradually by gradually reducing the dose over time, if you quit immediately you risk your mind becoming very disoriented by being deprived of something right away. Gradually reducing is called tapering off.

You also have to be careful because if you decide to quit your psychiatrist might try to force you to keep taking them. If you quit your meds he or she might even try to have you sent to a mental institution so I am not sure what you should do. If you would like to discuss this further then message me.