Depressed for no particular reason.

Or if there is one, I can't figure out what it is. This happens all the time even after I finally moved past my severe depression that lasted 4-5 years. And it fucking sucks.

I have good days with my friends on the weekends and then I come home for a shitty night like this.

 

How often does it happen?

What are your symptoms usually?

 

It happens two or three times a week. Usually when I feel it coming I rush to distract myself to avoid a night like this. Can't always though.

I'm bored, uninterested and in a shitty mood. That about sums it up. For a long time my depression was paralyzing. I could barely motivate myself to move unless it was for the purpose of self mutilation. How I feel now is a far cry from that. However, I still feel like nothing is entertaining or interesting. I'm just passing the time until I get tired and fall asleep. Obviously I'm sad, and because there's no reason I end up finding various reasons by thinking about actual problems in my life, so its self-perpetuating.

 

how is your diet? And do you do any kind of drung regularly?

 

how do you know that you really got over it? maybe its still around, lingering....

 

Yeah, self-perpetuating is right.

Generalized Anxiety Disorder does that like a mother fucker (and mine comes with depression, yay!)

I find that the best thing you can do is find one hobby, one movie, one game, one craft, one person, one memory etc. etc. that you can use to cheer you up and keep you entertained for awhile.

My girlfriend really helped me, and now that I've been with her for three years and she's boring, I got the Batman game I've been making, or shooting games on the Wii.
Shooting games are so undemanding and entertaining (even if leisurely so) that there is no mood that I can not use them in emergency situations, so they work good for me.

Also, I notice that when I do eat fruits and vegetables enough - my moods are a lot more controllable. But I can't fucking afford those things =/

 

My diet is pretty irregular because I stay out of the house as much as I possibly can, so I end up not eating dinner or even lunch and making up for it by eating late at night or just not eating much at all. Sometimes I'll get something for a dollar or two at a fast food place around town if I have any money on me. I eat standard school lunch stuff during the week and pretty much the same kind of stuff for dinner. Not too interesting.

I smoke cigarettes most days of the week. It started off with one or two a day and has progressed to eight a day sometimes, but I'm starting to slow down again. It relieves stress; makes me feel good even if for a few minutes. That's it for drugs though.

 

Dude, I just quit Black and Milds like 11 days ago, and my mood instantly increased.
I'd watch the smoking, while you still can.
It's one of those things that feels like it makes you feel better, but really makes you feel worse.
Like a shitty relationship.

Oh wait, 12 days now =D

 

Thinks that's what it might be?

Yea, my ex helped me a lot too. She pulled me out of my depression. Then a lot of things happened and she ended up using me as an emotional punching bag. It ruined me because she was the only thing in the world I cared about and it took me a long time to recover. I never lost feelings for her. Today I realized it's been ten months since I broke up with her. She's on her fourth boyfriend since me or some shit. I'm still missing her, after ten fucking months, and the best part is I'm the one that wanted to break up. I don't regret it but it sure hasn't been as good for me as I thought.

I keep trying to find things to focus on but it feels like just that, a distraction. I prefer to just sit her and listen to music. Looks like some part of me wants to wallow in this feeling.

 

I'm convinced that by changing our diet, we can completely change our lives. it sounds like you're not eating right, which does not help your moods! When I don't eat for a long time, I get really grouchy, irritable, and depressed. Ten or fifteen minutes after eating a good meal, I feel SOOOOO much better! Your body needs nutrients to function correctly and fast food places are not places to get the nutrients you need! The fats and sugars in processed foods, especially at fast food joints, block the synapses in your brain, so they can't fire, or just fire improperly. Eat lots of fruits and vegetables...and a moderate amount of fish. I can almost promise you that your moods will improve.

 

That's what I started with. I prefer cigs now though. The problem is I'm an escapist in an extreme sense of the word. Throughout my depression I was constantly finding ways to pretend the real world didn't exist. I'd sit in front of my pc playing games for 12 hours a day, and as soon as I turned it off I was like "Fuck this..." and either turned it back on or went to sleep because I felt so shitty. Cigs are the new videogames for me. Games don't hold my interest as well anymore.

Congrats on quitting by the way.

 

Hmm, the wallowing thing is a hard one.

Sometimes you need to a little, but it's not usually good to do too much, but I can't think of anyway of really controlling that, except trudging through with what you gotta do.

The problem is, sometimes there's just not enough to do.

 

blame it on the weather

 

This has turned into two conversations at once =P

My friend went from Black and Milds to cigs and smokes nonstop. He's a mechanic though, it'd be near impossible not to smoke, cause they all do it.
I dunno, I was a lot like that in highschool, I guess.
I spent most of it daydreaming because life was so boring.

Games don't hold my interest much anymore either, that's why the Wii is so perfect - it has a lot of games that you can just pick up and play and toss aside.

Wii reminds me of flash games with awesome controllers =D Plus, I have Super Mario Bros. 3 on it!!


Again, I think you really just gotta find something. You creative at all?
Writing is what really got me through high school, until I got a job - having a job helped a lot too, but I hate recommending that =P

 

Haha yea, it has.

Life in high school is pretty boring, especially in a fairly small town like mine. My friends and I cure our boredom getting into trouble around town and in the city about 40 minutes away. By some miracle we have yet to be arrested have the shit beaten out of us.

We have a Wii but not many good games on it. To be honest though games that you can pick up and throw away like that don't really interest me. If I play a game I sit down to play for at least a half hour and really get into it. That's probably because half the appeal of games to me is the immersion and forgetting about the real world. I wish we would get the new Super Smash Brothers though. I still play the one on N64, haha.

I agree, I have to find something. Like I said it used to be games but they don't do it for me as much anymore. I'm really not the creative type at all. I'm very into philosophy. I've spent hours before pacing around my house just thinking, and gaining new perspectives on things. I'm a weird kid I guess.

Getting a job around here is near impossible. It's gotten to the point that people don't quit their jobs for summer break anymore because they know there's no way they'll get it back. It sucks. Luckily I'm probably too lazy for a job anyway.

 

You hit the nail on the head with the fruits and vegetables part. I really don't get much of those. I'll try to make an effort to get more. Gives me an excuse to devour more salsa than I already do, haha.

The fastfood is inevitable when I stay out from 10 AM until 1 AM, but I really do try to make that more of a snack than an actual meal.

 

Depression has been one of my problems for a long period of time. It seems that there are no particular posts except for this one dealing with the issue.
Depression and anxiety that I have now might be explained to a certain degree by my upbringing and genealogy. I agree that diet has much to do with this, too, but changing it seems hardly possible to me in my current financial status. Marijuana, although it is considered to be a depressant, has helped me in many cases.

 

I get depressed

then I go to the gym. It helps process thoughts and you feel like you have accomplished something every time, every time you go.

But that's just what I do. It sucks, but life goes on


The fruit and vegetable idea is a good one. I eat a lot of that sort of stuff and it makes you feel better. You are what you eat.

 

:grouphug:

 

I have a 6 pronged attack for depression

running
music
playing games
coffee
chocolate
and a few special people.