im in love with a girl that isnt in my life or anywhere near me

ok first off before i start this is a serous thread. i seriously need help.

ok. to start im 17 years old and i live all the way in northern indiana. i met a girl about a year and a half ago, and once i finally asked her out it went amazingly. i love her to death and she is the first girl i ever really loved. we both lost our virginity to each other and she is just ... idk, she was my absolute best friend. she got me off drugs (only the bad ones lol) and just made my life sooo much better.

k, almost 10 months into our relationship, we found out that her mom is moving to florida and her dad is making her go. we both balled our absolute eyes out for about 9 hours on the phone. we broke up the night she left just because at 16, long distance is crazy.

once she left, we got closer than ever. talking on the phone 6 and 7 hours a day, txting constantly when we werent on the phone. so after about 2 months of her leaving and just starting to get used to her new home, we both decided to give long distance a whirl, the only difference would be that we could say i love you and actually be in a relationship. it worked for about a month month and a half then we started to think that it was just not a good idea at 16. and really it isnt. we decided to just stick to being friends and later in life we could be together. we ended up getting into a huge fight about pretty much nothing and not talking for 3 months and actually ended up missing the two weeks she came up to visit her dad and all her friends. i ended up sucking up being mad and went to see her and we just stoped being stupid and started being friends again. and we got to be just like it was right after she left. just constant communication.

now its been almost 8 months since she left and i mean i havent even looked at another girl and could say that "like them" i mean i hooked up a couple times and i no she had to but nothing at all serious. but a girl and her boyfriend broke up and we had kind of been looking at each other alittle and just kind of knwon there was a vibe there for awhile. we ended up kissing. not once but a couple times and it got to kind be like a friends with benefits kind of thing. i kind of like her but there is nothing compared to what i felt for the other. i finally told the "1st girl" about the other girl and that was there first time that either of us had talked about anyhting even remotly serious with another person, since she left. it was hard but she seemed ok. but then we stopped talking no fight or anything. i new that she didnt like me hooking up with this other girl.

now were in the preasent, and me and this "2nd" girl have kind of fizzled out our little thing, and ive realized that i am miserable with "1st girl" (this is hard without saying names lol). i mean we had tlked about me after graduating putting off college and moving down there to be with her. i dont no what to do. i dont sleep i dont eat. ive considered doing pills again (i was off them for over a 1. she got me off them. i was killing myself.), and i dont have anyone to talk to about this, these to girls are the normal ppl i talk to about my problems. i just need some help, advise words of encouragement something. i love her soooooooo much i would flat out die for her, anf i no that she nos that i love her. idk if she realizes how much. and this isnt a matter of which one to pick, there is no comparison between them, and both girls no that. i just idk... need help, need to type it all down to colect my thoughts idk.. hust yea. i wanna what ppl have to say about this.

 

Sounds like me and my ex. He just broke up with me because he didn't know if it was "love or lust" (after 7 months pfft) and with it being long distance, he just didn't wanna hurt me. But he promised me that if in a few years after college neither of us found anyone, he'd literally take a flight and come down to beg me for another chance. Yes I love him still, and I have no doubt he'll want to get back with me in less then a a few years, but I've decided it's better to not get back with him. Long distance is hard and if you move there for her, if things don't work out, then you've lost love and you're in a place completely unfamiliar to you. Try talking with her about it. I know it's cliche to say that but seriously talking will make things easier. You don't want to make any hasty decisions but you also don't wanna lose her.

 

I'd say get together with that girl no matter what it takes. If you don't you'll regret it the rest of your life. Love like that is precious and rare and if you blow it you blow it. Be like her knight in shining armor and slay all the dragons it takes to get her back. It will be worth the struggle and in the end you have the best thing there is which is true love.

 

Is there a good college anywhere near where she lives?

 

she just came up for 3 weeks for a vist. holy shit. best time of my life. we worked everything oout and idk our relationshiop now is soooo amazing. i was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited the first time we hung out when she got here!!!!! this is def the girl im supposed to end up with. i hope it pans out so that we have a chance to make that happen

 

Yeah, man. You're almost out of college. You guys can make it work! I'm so happy to read a good love story!

 

hunger is the best sauce.

 

arnt we all??

 

amen.

 

Nope.

 

I know this is a little late but to me this seems kind of like the fairy tale type deal. The guy and the girl are forced to overcome a problem and n the end they will find the happiness they always wanted. Go for her man. You are her Romeo and she's your Juliet. Don't do what they did though. That ending definitely could have been better.

 

Get over it and move on. There's lots o fish in the sea.