can anybody here help me not want to kill?

i've been experiencing a year of torment brought on by a foolish, lying woman who broke my heart and twists the truth about our past relationship. i'm so hurt by this shit that i sometimes have suicidal and homocidal feelings. i'm a nice dude, and i hate it when people get hurt physically but all i can do to hide my pain is to express it outwardly toward the one who literally ruined my life and brought me back to square one. i just wish i could shut off the memory button so i would never have to think about them again. i tried yoga and meditating once a LONG time ago before i even meet this bitch and i was wondering if there are any specific methods to help a person's spirit forgive or move on. i really need some help because, with every passing day more and more rage is brewing inside the heart that she stole from me. i hate her some much.

 

wow man it seems as if this girl really gave you a hard time. Fot what my worthless opinion is worth, i would say you have to try and move on, when you get those feelings of overbearing negative emotions, try (i know its hard) to think positve. Me personally i use insightful (Buddhist) meditation, and its great for calming the mind, and also helps me to become one with myself. If you are interested go into a search engine and type in Insightful Meditation, or go to buddhanet.net it shouldnt be to hard to find things on it. Thats the meditation i use, i hope it can help you to overcome the low period you are going through, hope i helped, Conor.

Live Love Laugh

 

I have a hard time believing that it was all her fault. Men always present a woman leaving because of tehir behavior as 'the bitch who broke my heart'. Perhaos taking some reposnsibility will cure you of your anger.

 

wow man it seems as if this girl really gave you a hard time. Fot what my worthless opinion is worth, i would say you have to try and move on, when you get those feelings of overbearing negative emotions, try (i know its hard) to think positve. Me personally i use insightful (Buddhist) meditation, and its great for calming the mind, and also helps me to become one with myself. If you are interested go into a search engine and type in Insightful Meditation, or go to buddhanet.net it shouldnt be to hard to find things on it. Thats the meditation i use, i hope it can help you to overcome the low period you are going through, hope i helped, Conor.

Live Love Laugh

 

In time, you, as all the broken hearted and scorned, will realize that what you loved, since it came from your heart, was merely a reflection of yourself. In time, you'll see the qualities in yourself that you sought in the other. Give love time to heal. It's a good time to read the poetry of the ages and see how you fit into the larger picture of humanity. Look at paintings and listen to music. You'll see with these eyes the eternal longing of all artists.

The homocidal feelings must be transmuted. It sounds like you have alot of energy built up. I once copied every one of Shakespeares sonnets in my best hand and taped them on the wall. It took me six months. I was broken hearted for a year solid. I didn't know how I could live. But love comes again My Friend, just as spring after a winter which seems like it shall never thaw.

 

linsey, i didn't say that i was not at fault for anything in our relationship. she DID, however do lots of lying and backstabbing and mind bending. yes, my broken being is all her fault. no, i take that back. it was my fault for not seeing through her.

 

You know, if you're threatening to KILL her it's probably good that she left you.

You need a therapist.

 

get the fuck over it I hate men who think they have the right to threaten women and intimidate them into staying with them. You know exactly what you are doing as she is a poster here. It sounds like you need to get over yourself.

 

lynsey sure is a hateful bitch. i think she and i would have a great time together. =)

 

My blunt view:

If you're having homicidal tendencies it's likely that the issue is not getting over her but dealing with YOURSELF. Given the tone of your message I would say you need professional help to do so. Your general tone is one of apathy, hate and self-importance and it seems as if the underlying theme is you are seeking justification for your feelings. Well guess what, they ARN'T JUSTIFIED. Hate is undserstandable but NEVER justified.

Life is what we make of it, it's an internal journey based on our CHOICE of reaction to external circumstances. Untill you can aproach the situation with this mentality I would suggest meditation and yoga are about as useful to you as russion rollette.

 

wow lots of anger in the yoga forums. lynsey seems to be venting her anger too. I'm going to join you guys.

I fucking hate stupid ass shit like putting poison on food to grow it. FUCK!

i feel better. thanks guys.

Oh and if you want my advice. 3 months is a good idea. NO CALLS, NO VISITS. Listen to Michael, he knows what he's saying.

Oh, and i recommend a councelor or therapist to everyone thats human. Counceling doesn't mean theres something wrong with you.

There is nothing wrong with you. You are perfect, in the process of your own evolution. Never stop learning and growing.

~Namaste~

 

I suggest that you shed your ego. You are not this limited tortured being, trapped in the mind and body and burning in the fire of sorrow, tossed by the storms of the world. You are God incarnate, pure conciousness, you are above these petty problems.

While you are at it, try to recognise that the same god that dwells within you, dwells in all. Recognise the divinity of everything, especially yourself and those that hurt you. Then all that remaisn is love for all, all encompassing and desireless.

Desire is the root of all hurt. Expectation is an appointment with disappointment. Learn to enjoy and lvie in the moment and when the moment passes, grieve not, for the next is as beautiful as the last one. Sorrow, happiness, anger, jealousy, love (in its limited human form) are all just a play of th emind. You are the witness, observe, laugh at it, enjoy it all. Dont fall into the trap of identifying with the actor.

Breathe deep.

Om
Shanti
Shanti
Shantihi.