I'm looking for a reason to kill myself

oh not another one....people are not going to change no matter how much we try ! so just be happy and stop stressing about things that are not attainable!

 

I was tempted to bring that up. When people start discovering the teachings of the Buddha on their own, they are ready to learn more.

 

It's true. I wasn't sure whether to mention it or not either for the same reason but I thought I would since it was a shift in perceptions that helped me tremendously. Those books didn't teach me anything I hadn't read before but they inspired me to 'do' and that was the biggest difference for me.

 

I always thought really wanting to be dead was a working reason.

 

You can't find a good reason because killing yourself contradicts the purpose of your body's inherited function. Suicide - it's the end-all, everything you know, you only know because you are. When you aren't, then what? Your mind can't even comprehend much being alive, so what is the case when dead?

Don't worry about dumping problems on people. Lets recap what exactly is the generic thing everybody says when the person finally commits suicide? "OMG, I WISH THEY KNEW THEY COULD HAVE TALKED TO ME ABOUT ANYTHING". Explain your level of seriousness, and if they're any a real friend, they're level of seriousness should correspond. Assure them you are far from kidding.

Lol, I know it's not exactly where you are coming from, but technically, you do have something to live for, you don't live without the everything else you make a part of. My advice is let go of your cherished memories, they are more than likely stopping you from cherishing something new. "Oh woe is me for nothing can be as good as it was December 19th, 1984!" Just drop it man, it's petty.

You see this as realizing how useless the world is, I see somebody stumbling upon some heavy wisdom early. It's called the impermanence of all things. As they say with the catch ends the thrill of the chase. The point is, so what do you do? Do you turn yourself into a victim of this so-called cruel world, or do you want to express and maintain your God given right that promises equality? Happiness? Everybody shit's on each other time and time again. Everybody is the good guy one moment and the bad guy the next.

Why do you think callous things are what's worth being talked about? How can you say what matters on any absolute scale? You might hate certain foods. Yet another man might find his love and passion in the act of cooking them. He might not ever stop being able to speak of it, and yet you might not even be able to place one word on the subject.

Everybody has to live under the same laws and facts that come about with this very mysterious place, it's, what do you do?, and what do you make of your time here? What is the quality, what is the character behind your every action and every move?

If you are ACTUALLY at this point where you simply do not care and see the pointlessness in things already established, why not try something called saying what you actually want to say. It's quite godlike. If you're ready to jump off the bandwagon and plunge the knife, then it might not hurt if you try something entirely new and see if it works before hand.

That's what happens when you let other people tell you what you want and need.

Hmm you can borrow my idea for a suicide note,

"Had fun, was so-so, see you soon, or maybe not LOL!"

Best of luck.

 

Looking for a reason to kill yourself? lol You seem bored with yourself. Seriously dude. Get out and enjoy nature. Sometimes you live for you and nothing else. Hell. I wanted to end it all because I was bored and depressed with myself. Things looked up though, and it can for you if you let love in and accept it.

My prayers to you.

 

No... I think I was bored with myself before, but now I just hate myself. I try to connect with people, but I don't feel anything... like there's nothing inside of them, and nothing inside of me either.

I'm so fucking weak it makes me sick... there's absolutely no reason for me to be here, making other people miserable with my own stupid shit.

Seriously, we live in a world where the weakest among us are allowed to thrive because they will have other people helping them... but these other people don't even think about why they're helping these weak people-- they just do it.

If we hadn't built all of this stuff-- all of this 'civilization', then people like me probably wouldn't be alive. There's no reason for it, it's just the way it is... and nobody does anything about it. We all say 'saving human lives is important', and say things like 'if it saves lives, then it's a good thing'-- but just think of what those lives entail.

A lot of selfish living, fake entitlement, reproducing, and banality. Sooner or later, everyone abandons their hopes and dreams, or realizes that they aren't what they originally thought they would be. It's been repeated so often that it's lost all meaning, but human life is not good for anything-- except more human life.

Sometimes it seems like the only reason anyone has not to remove themselves from it all is because they're scared. Everything we do is selfish-- everything. And we envy each other for being selfish-- for happiness we probably don't deserve, experiences we have at the expense of others, and things we want because other people have them as well, or because we're told to want them.

Seriously, life is totally fucked up and it's just getting more and more fucked up. The older I get, the more fucked up it all becomes.

 

I just hope your family dont go to news and say people was trolling you.. calling you pussy and stuff.. DO IT..

 

This is complete and total bullshit. People say things like this because they THINK that they wanted to hear it-- and because they feel guilty, but they really didn't.

Nobody wants to hear it. Nobody wants to have to deal with someone like that, or be dragged down like that. I don't think I could take someone going on and on about their stupid shit... I would tune out, not listen. I would tell them to get over it-- not because I care, but because I don't want it to bother me anymore. I can't really expect anyone else not to do the same.

 

how is a drag down differ than a drag up?? Honestly I could give a fuck less that someone won the hockey game and is all happy, im much happier not knowing..

 

I COULD....

Whats More, I Would Be Happy To Sit Down With Them Over A Glass Of

Wine, And Discuss The're Problems....

I Have Lost Too Many Friends To Suicide Over The Years, Not To....



Cheers Glen.

 

Have you tried violence or criminal behavior? If your going to off yourself you might aswell try something. Whos knows maybe youll love arson or something. Just dont seriously injure anyone.

 

WOW great advice dude....

 

Everyone has a right to kill themselves. It almost defines free will and it causes a lot of hurt to the people around you. If a friend of mine did it, or I found out someone close to me was going to do it, I would understand.

Every human being has the right to act in this selfish way. Life is, at times, complete torture and an easy way out is definitely considered. How would I do it though? I don't want to tie a noose, and I definitely don't wanna get shot anywhere but the head. I don't own a gun though, I don't even know how to fire it or load the damn thing so even when I got it, I would feel so clueless, that thought alone would probably talk me out of it. I just wish I could hit a button and make it happen instantly, just hit a button and see the other side instantly.

But is it really so much better over there? I'm sick of leaps of faith, at least you know that it cant get much worse here on earth, I'm comforted by the same mentality.

 

Dead is a very long time,friend. What you said about this world is true. One has to observe,think,adjust and move on to some kind of meaningfull life. Any thinking person goes thru this unless brain dead. One thing for sure--none of us get out alive. If you wish to rot in the grave prematurely,none of us can stop you,but realize that in a few years no one will remember that you were even here. Sad ,but true. I'd like to point that there are countless abused and sometimes tortured children that could use someone to give them a little love--maybe to take them someplace fun.There are countless old people sitting in seclusion in "rest homes"with no one ever visiting them or even aknowledging their existance much.These people,young and old need a hero--maybe even someone whose soul has become sick. I can't think of a better way to heal a soul quicker than giving much to those that need little but get nothing. Could you be that hero-or are you already dead?

 

LOL. Or he might end up with a string of injuries, a criminal record and still not be willing to go through with it. Life would suck more!

 

Just because you can't find a purpose doesn't mean you don't have one. You more than likely have relatives that adore you and something so stupid would kill them.

It's a selfish attitude to assume you can just switch the lights off because you feel 'you aren't a typical' fit. Heck, we all have problems, just be content with being who you are, and perhaps not who you aren't.

I know it's always said, but there are starving kids all over the world, poorer people, disfigured people- and many of these people try to still keep smiling.

I do hope you find some peace of mind, you sound like a talent.

 

Eventually, no one will remember that anyone was ever here. Nothing is forever, not even memories. I have no idea what my great grandmother was like, and I definitely don't know what her mother was like. Their lives are as meaningless as my own... and probably just as meaningless as the poor sick children's lives, or the old peoples' lives.

And anyway, there are too many people in the world as it is... human beings have managed to get themselves to the point where they live too long, move too fast, and reproduce too easily. If the only thing we really have in this life is trying to convince each other that we deserve to be happy when we probably shouldn't be, then isn't it just more honest to just end it now?

 

It's so weird how perfectly this describes my thoughts when I'm in more depressive states. Like, perfect. One of the only people to give me such a feeling of similarity of mind frame is Philip K Dick - and that's an impressive mind to be in any category with (I guess except sanity, but eh overrated).
Anyways, total fucking deja vu.
I was reading this and laughing to my girlfriend, and she didn't seem to get it, but everything you said is just so true to me at times, that it was hilarious to hear in words.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3JOqJXJ0dDE"]I recommend this song to you.

At least look up the lyrics, but the tone is emphasized in the song, so listen to the song.
This song is probably what made me most realize, that life really is all perspective. But it isn't all black and white, sad and happy - hell, I'm not even sure if I'm giving you pairs of antonyms or synonyms - it's just perspective.
The perspectives we've rationalized (such as those) seem to only make things more confusing.

You have life. That is what is. You have life and billions of objects big, small, and tiny (mostly tiny) all around you at this very moment do not.
You have life.

Enjoy it or don't.

With death, you probably won't even get that choice.

 

Instead of looking for a reason to kill yourself, why don't you search just as hard for a reason to live?