Cold and evil

Wow. Last night was my most scary/intense moment of my life. It was fucked up. It was fucked up. I thought I would be completely traumatized for life. I thought I was going to be retarded for now on as well.
Ok well, we got mushroom chocolate, and I ate my peice, we weren't sure what to watch, then somebody was picking out a really scary movie, and the other kids were like hmm, Im not sure about this, lets watch something less scary, I was like wow you guys are pussys lol so I was awesome enough to convince them to watch it. It was like based off a true story or something too. I can't remember what the name was. But as it started to get to the end of the movie, we were all feeling very very weird of course. Everything was just a chill shroom trip, I think they were getting scared by the movie, but I felt fine about it I could only sense their fear lol. I just started noticing shit like the closet door started to open by itself and move, and it just felt like something was in there. I would start to see the girls face morphing, this was all the shit I expected out of a shroom trip, it just felt expected.

Then we decided since it was 4:20, that we should go outside on his deck to take bong hits. This is the part that gives me chills to even start talking about. I feel a tear come to my eye even thinking about this. I know before I said I really don't cry like ever, but last night was different, I was feeling the most intense fear I have ever felt. Yes, it was much much scarier than salvia even though salvia is absurd.
So me and this kid I just met Jack, and my old skool friend jason, were taking bong hits, and I was just feeling great vibes between all of them, we were all really on the same level about everything. The only thing is they were smoking cigs and I wasn't. But us three were not even talking, when we were watching the movie we just were talking in our minds, it was amazing.

But then my homie had this lighter that was just the most evil thing I have ever sensed. It said "DEATH" on it and had a picture of a grim reaper. I didn't think of it at the time, but when he showed me it and I was holding it, I was getting the coldest feeling in the world, just like pure evil energy I could feel flowing through my body coming from the lighter. I have never ever felt this feeling before, it was pure evil. So about like 10 minutes after I saw the lighter, I don't even remember if I was still holding that lighter or what but I just know that I could still sense it very well, that it was still somewhere VERY closeby. I started randomly noticing something wrong with my tooth. I could feel one of my teeth were broken, I knew I hadn't been brushing as much lately, but this was weird I had no idea what I did to break my tooth. I could feel it hanging, but I kept on checking to see which tooth over and over again, and I could feel one of my teeth broken, but I just could not for the life of me figure out where it was lol. So I kept fuckin with my teeth, and this is where I feel the traumatizing shit. I started to only feel my teeth, and that bad vibe from the lighter just overtook me, and everything turned black like a huge blood rush came to my head or something, and my body started to disappear. I was simply turning into a skull. I felt like my body literally disappeared, and that all I was was my brain in my skull. I thought I was fading from existance, I thought everything was over. I didn;t know why. As that was happening, I was trying to talk to my friend. Literally as I was talking to him, I was saying "dude something is really really wrong" I was trying to touch him and he just faded away. My two friends literally just faded away, and I was on the deck all by myself. I panicked, I put my hands and arms an legs where my friends were, but they literally were vanished. Let me mention that all of what I am saying was completely REAL and VIVID to me. I am an expert at telling dreams from reality.

So as I was on the deck by myself, I immediately started to feel some evil evil spirit take me over. I felt it in my heart. Just the most cold, fearful feeling I have ever felt, and it was overcoming my thoughts and everything, everything just turned dark and fuzzy, and where jason was standing, he disappeared and there was only one other entity with me on the deck. He was directly in front of me, standing there facing me, and all it was was a black hoody, and inside the black hoody it was completely hollow where the head was supposed to be. It was so vivid, that I could actually feel inside his hood, and my hand would immediately touch the other side of the hood. It didn't make him mad or anything, he was just calm. all of this was happening in like 10 or 15 seconds. The grim reaper then told me, "Myname, you are dead" is there anything you would like to know? Somewhere in this time my friend jason came back into deaths face, and he was just taking me away like I was being arrested. That is one of the things I hated the most, so it felt like it was just all my fears coming from my subconcious. I just felt everything ending. I just asked "what??" what did I do wrong? I don't understand I just want to know why!!" "So God is really real??" Then death was like "ok, follow me man" And he was like yeah God is real, and you are a pretty good person so he likes you. Don't worry God has a plan for you just like he has a plan for everybody. So death was taking me into his house, I knew it was still jason's house right when we walked into his house death turned back into Jason again. He started to tell me that he was here for me and stuff, and started asking me if I was ok and shit. I finally snap out of it, and everything that I just saw just hit me like a ton of bricks. I finally feel all my emotions kick into hard drive, and I just snap harder than I have ever ever snapped before. I just look at my friend with the gnarliest face, giving him the expression that summed up everything I had just experienced. It was the most horrifying look, I could tell as I made that look I scared the hell out of jason. I just started freaking out hardcore at this point. Just was like yellling in my voice "WHATT??" WHAT? WHAT??? WHAT?? WHAT?? I just said that extremely loud just crying just not believing anything that happened. Just kept saying that too WHAT HAPPENED? WHATT?? WHY ME?? WHY?? WHAT DID I DO WRONG?? and I was crying so much just 100% sure that I was going to die because thats what the grim reaper just told me straight up.

This was no dream, or anything, everything was just so real, thats the whole point thats why I just like wtf it was so much more "real" than salvia was, it was like it was a datura trip even. I just started flipping, I couldn't even control myself at this point, I was just batshit crazy. I just started running around his house knocking shit over, and then he was like dude your fuckin up my house, so I got a hold of myself and I was like shit my bad. So I was still crazy, and jason was like the only one there I had to talk to. He kept on trying to make me feel comfortable and stuff, he is in fact a christian, when he reassured me with everything it felt like he was the only hope I had from this evil spirit, I just felt like everything was ok he was just saving me, we used to be really good friends but he showed me that we were still really good friends and I didn't even realize it. He is the one that told me that everything was going to be ok, and that I wasn't going to die. I kept asking him over and over again how he was going to kill me. I just completely believed that he was just waiting for a good time to go outside to chop my head off. I kept on noticing him saying things trying to hide the fact that he was going to kill me. At this point, I was seeing things in a perspective that was like tunnel vision, I kept switching perspective, and it was like I was stuck in this limbo where I couldn't control ANYTHING. I was transforming into crazy crazy ass shit.

It is beyond beyond hard to explain my perspective on this part, its like I would switch from having 4 legs, and being two places at the same exact time, as I was in the past I was actually in the future at the same exact time, time would go backwards and forwards throughout two little points in time, and I would try saying exactly what I was thinking, but I would have to think of what I was thinking of in the future at the same time as the present, and at this point when I said some stuff I was completely satisfied that I was able to say what I really wanted, but I said it twice because time was actually looping, like as real as that could be, time happened in instant replay, I just remember trying to tell these kids "SOMETHING IS NOT OK!!! SOMETHING IS NOT OK ITS NOT OK ITS NOT OK" and I remember even though I said that all just one time a bunch, that whole entire time frame kept looping and looping, and I still was in two places at the same time, and in two different time points at the same time as well. I was 100% convinced at that point, that the mushrooms made me retarded and that I was going to be a weird ass person that got raped by shrooms for the rest of my life. Thats why I was so depressed at that point, I honestly thought my brain was fucked. It was a "REAL" glitch in the system of time. WHat makes it all even crazier as fuck, is that in the morning, Jack was talking about that same exact moment, and he discribed it exactly the way that it happened. We BOTH were experiencing the fucked up time fart, at the SAME moments. It was like the time actually was doing that for us two. I can't believe it still. I was talking about how my body would be a bunch of entities at the same time, it kept doing that and it was the scariest thing ever. I could see my future, and I saw everything that my future was doing, I just had to do what I was going to do. The thing that I saw myself doing in the future was hugging my friend jason, I just saw like 3 or 4 of my bodies, and the one that was in the future, which I kind of used as a map, I knew that that was the only thing I could do was hug my friend. Usually I am too manly to do stuff like that, but I just saw it as my only choice, I just had to fight the demon that was in me with love, and that was my only weapon. I saw like 3 of his bodies, and all three of us were hugging at the same time (three different times but I was experiencing them all simoultaniously ) I still felt very very "trapped" in all three or four of these "times" and kept asking him how I get out of this sick sick puzzle. Because thats what the whole thing felt like. I thought it was one huge puzzle I was stuck in limbo to determine my death.

So with these three times I was in at the same time, I heard this entity (death) telling me that I had no choice and that I was going to die. I was just crying, going WHY, WHY WHY WHY IS THIS SUCH A SICK TWISTED PUZZLE, THE MOST FUCKED UP SEQUENCE THING ITS LIKE THEY WERE PLAYING A SICK SICK JOKE ON ME. Thats all I could think that death was just completely fucking with me, playing a game on me. He told me and kept hinting that he had complete control over what my body was doing, because I was just helpless I would be aware as the first body, and look at my future body (which was connected to my body like a mutant or something) and just watch my future self do things that I could not stop myself from doing. The entity made me walk around, I felt like I was 100% controlled by a demon. The demon made me do things that I didn't want to do, just took full control of me, and told me I didn't have a choice and that is when some other force besides my own soul actually made me shriek lounder than I have ever shrieked before, and I felt another entity take 100% control of my body, and I started to get very very violent. I felt like I had to kill somebody, because that is what the spirit in me was needing to do. I got into the most epic battle mode, and stretched out my arms like I was SERIOUSLY about to fuck shit up. I could just feel my whole body doing all these things, like I was concious, but I couldn't control anything, my body was just doing this shit. I was very scared I have always been used to 100% control.
As I was getting prepared to beat the fucking shit out of the innocent kid sleeping, I was just trying to come to my senses but I had no control. I was holding him like by the shirt, and whatever was possessing me was DEAD serious about wanting to hurt my friend. I just kept naturally thinking, and thank the lord I didn't hurt anyone. I just came to my senses and slowley got control over my body again.
Yeah I completely believe I got posessed

 

o wow man that is a crazy story man

take a break for a long while and find the meaning of the trip before going back

 

Thanks, yeah I already know that just watching the movie, and the lighter he had especially, just invited a very evil spirit into our trip. We just "welcomed" it pretty much. I didn't see it as a big deal at first, I just wanted a good time with my friends, but now I believe in God, and I believe in spirits.

 

but you don't believe in paragraphs. now that's more absurd than salvia

 

Hey man, there are paragraphs!! They just aren't indented lol. anyway sounds like a very scary experience, man, at least the possession and vanishing friends does. the time loops multiple time perceptions multiple entities part doesn't sound scary at all lol I've experienced very similar things on mushrooms and loved it... mushrooms destroy my ego so much that I see tons of demons but I recognize them all as myself... no fear at all... no judgement...

anyway that still sounds scary, I know personally you can't fuck with dark shit, you gotta learn where to say yes and say no... you can't deny something's existence, or deny it love or a place within yourself (as everything really is a part of you) but you can deny it to rule you or control you, and you can deny it access to this moment... there is a difference between these things... I feel Love is the real solution here...

 

lol sorry. Yeah the scariest thing in the world was when my friends vanished in thin air, and then death appeared in front of me. After death brought me back in, I honestly thought I had already died. Thats why the multiple entity time loop thing just fucked with me even harder. I just kept thinking, "OK so I am dead, so I am caught in this bs limbo for the rest of my existance now?? I really did think that my soul was just caught in some absurd limbo, and I just remember yelling a whole bunch "THIS IS BULLSHIT, THIS IS BULLSHIT, and the entities that were fucking with me were laughing when I said that.

I was just like I WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE. Because when I was two/three different beings at the same time, I was completely aware of it, and I couldn't do anything I was just stuck and it really really did feel like limbo. I even felt my arm de attach from itself, and my friend jack actually saw it. Even though time was looping backwards and forwards it was hard to communicate, but we got across the point "DID YOU SEE THAT?? MY ARM JUST CAME OFF AND SHIT!!" and he was dead serious like I was and was like "YEAH I SAW EVERYTHING THIS IS THE WEIRDEST SHIT IN THE WORL"RRRRRRRAPAJDLA"AH I SAW EVERYTHING THIS IS WEIRD ASS"RRAAPR"YEAH but this would loop a couple of times as well It creeped me out, not only because it happened just after the truely terrifying part so I was still convinced I was dead, but my arm was deattatching and I could not comprehend anything, I just felt pure terror the whole time. I could not do anything, except for say what I wanted. Even that was kinda hard. I don't like shrooms.

 

Thought loops and worm holes. Not particularly unusual mushroom fair. But look, you have been overwhelmed before but you enjoy it then, whenever you get woody.

 

well he does believe in G_d now and thats all that matters...

 

so what was really learned? for what reasons did this happen? what to do with this darkness you feel? what kind of heart must you carry now?
this one sounds like its going to need time to resolve.
thanks for sharing fresh.

 

sounds like mad fun to me

 

Id say go easy on the Voodoo and just chill. I had something like that happen before to me except i smoked pot for the like fourth time and my friend packed a punch on it so i wasnt expecting what occured. I couldnt move my body,completely paralyzed on my couch for easily 12 maybe 15 minutes until i layed down and passed out. I swore id never smoke that stuff again, a few years here iam in love with that. Your experinced bro and thats that. Everybody panicks sometimes dude, its not abnormal.

:cheers2: Great story.

LOL funnnay

 

Funniest part about that minture psychotic breakdown i had is when i stared at my friend repeating "i dont want to be high" in like a holy fuck voice. Really scary man.......I gave in to peer pressure and i think the road i took turned out to be a good decision because the other roads i dont know about. lol

 

Are you ok bro?

 

Yes, I learned that posessions are real. I don't know if I should believe in God now, but I know God is what get me through this nightmare.
I just talked to my friend on the phone (jason) and he helped me understand a lot more about that night. When we were outside when all of it started first happening, I really wanted to know what happened when they disappeared. He told me that I was not looking ok, like I was freaking out , so he tried giving me a hug or something. I was being arrested by him is what I was seeing/feeling.
He told me that it wasn't me that night, he could see in my eyes that something else was in my eyes not me, and that he could feel something starting to take him over as well when I was latching on to him (involutarily on my part) He said that he just overcame it, and tried to do whatever he could to make me better. Turns out not only jack saw the weird time warps, and the multiple entity thing, and the deattatching arm, but jason was with us too, and he just told me that he saw everything too and knows exactly what we are talking about. I just feel like us 3 experienced something truely paranormal. (especially me since I was the one that got posessed.)
Jack was telling me the next morning he thought I was getting abducted by aliens lol. We all are just so confused, especially me. It was alot to process, but my mind is way more open now than it was before of course just like anyone else would be with an experience like this.

But yeah he was just telling me today, that he has always had kind of an evil spirit in his house, I used to sleep over there when I was little, and we could even sense it then. But he was telling me today that the people who lived it that house before, did like crazy rituals and stuff, so that is why there are spirits there. He told me just now that the next day, a bunch of weird things happened in his house, like the toaster got pushed down and heated up for too long, something happened with his stove, and some lights were flickering. He just said a bunch of weird things were happening that day.

Neodude, salvia is fun because it is scary.
Being posessed and having death tell you you are dead is not fun imo. I don't like death. And it was just torture after that part, not being able to control myself, thinking I was in limbo, having no idea what would happen next. It was all the worst night of my life, but I admit, it was interesting and I got kinda cool story out of it. It wasn't just a shroom trip, but the shroom trip and the scary movie and the lighter and the haunted house all just invited the demon in to use my body.

I felt like I would be horribly traumatized, but I feel somewhat ok now. I still feel like somebody told me I was dead, and I feel amazed that I am alive right now after something that truely divine/evil happened.

Feel free to move this to weird bizzare and mysterious forum mods, It is more that then it was a shroom trip. The shroom trip is how the spirit used me though, if it wasn't for the shrooms I wouldn't have been posessed.

 

Dude this was no panic attack it was a posession.

 

i would really recommend meditation
if you never have meditated then start out with quieting the mind(just focus on breathe) then when you are good at sitting still for a while start analytical meditation by going over what happened step by step, finding out what it means and also how to go about changing yourself for the better.
remember all trips good, bad, or in this case horrifying, can be helpful, you just have to figure out how

 

Thanks, I have not really ever been able to meditate with all my ADD that I have lol. I am not sure how seriously I am being taken though, the visions that happened were not from the shrooms I took, but was from the evil spirit that got in me. It just used the "shrooms" as a gateway into my body. Jason kept telling me, when he looked into my eyes it wasn't me. We have known each other for a long time, so I think one of us could recognize if the other was being posessed.

 

there is somthing strange about mushrooms here. iv seen people get that look in their eyes. its actually one of the reasons iv told myself im not going to eat mushrooms with other people anymore (i may again, i havent since). last time i did was about 4 years ago, i was tripping with a freind in the forest outside of a festival. he completely lost it, was unresponsive for awhile, then babbling and acting weird, then getting violent and trying to fight me for being near him. its was a strange trip for me, i definatly remeber the glazed over look in his eyes, he himself was not there and i did get the sence that he was possesed by something.

i think theres been a few threads like this before.

 

Thanks Archemetis

Check this article I found.

http://jah-rastafari.com/forum/message-view.asp?message_group=576

 

We ourselves are possessed by atavistic moods, this is not foreign possession.