Psychic experiences?

Ask and you shall receive. That which you discover is directly proportionate to your desire to know.
There was a time when I had begun to see and understand things, that time, the time when I realized that I had never witnessed a real thing my whole life. I had heard this story how if you were ready your teacher would appear.
Well I felt sure I was ready and the question who or where my guide was, and that question involved my whole thought for several days running.
Then I had what I refer to as a lucid dream. The term lucid dream usually means simply that you are conscious that you are dreaming, but this dream is of an entirely different ilk. This dream, even thought a dream, was so real as to be unable to distinguish it as a dream.
I found myself in this amazing edifice. It seemed to be like some giant corporate organization and there was a man there that I only identify as the boss. He was dressed casually, in a red Hawaiian print shirt, loose and relaxed, however obviously totally in control. He said there is someone I would like you to meet. The door to the room we were in opened and this line of people began to emerge. as they came in one after another he would tell me their names and described their function in the community. Each person I was introduced to seemed genuinely glad that I was there. I felt very welcome. I remember one guy he introduced he said was the designer of the building we were in. For some reason I asked him if solar power was incorporated in the construction and he said the whole thing was made of light and I felt I had asked a totally stupid question. At any rate after he said this I looked out into the hallway and saw that the string or individuals seemed to extend forever, I couldn't see the end of the line and I suddenly realized that my guide was every single person I met. I woke up and this has proved to be true once I recognized it.

 

"Well not what you might have expected that’s for sure. He was about 30, wearing a pair of jeans and a "hobgoblin" tee shirt. Definitely casual. Looked like he could have been a social worker or perhaps a programmer like myself."
I just pulled this quote from a link provided by intellectually curious in a thread called "conversation with god".
Note the term casual in the description.

 

Of course dope, it's true that "everybody" is your spirit guide. And frankly, I started to realize very shortly after I posted my spirit guide description above that I should have added: Your results may vary.

The experience I got was apparently what I needed in some way, for whatever reason. I would say that I don't entirely understand every reason, however I do know that I became immersed in my current mode of experience immediately after I told the universe two things, with deep conviction: (1) I want to shed the facade that I present to the world for social acceptability, and be my true self, whatever that may be, and (2) I want to have some psychic experiences and write about them. Seen in this light, a lot of my experiences make sense.

Shedding the facade requires two things: (1) Knowing myself well, and (2) having the courage to be myself, even in the face of opposition. Thus I was plunged into a situation in which having the courage (audacity?) to show my true self put me into a social/psychological prison in which I was socially isolated and subjected to extreme ill treatment including accusations of insanity and criminality.

This situation also became part of my second request. It's one thing to have some fun and pleasant psychic experiences that you can list as anecdotes - but to sell a book, you need a story filled with trials and adversity and a plot of some sort.

So the bottom line is that I got what I asked for, but was unprepared for the consequences of that. And the spirit guide nature of humanity at large became concentrated into the personalities of a trio of particular women who became the embodiment of the powerful, all-knowing psychic/spiritual witch/goddess.

Life IS very much what we make it - to a degree that can be astonishing and full of "miracles."

 

I might add: Dope, you yourself are filling a spirit guide role in my life by helping me answer some questions that have been plaguing me. It wasn't long ago that I asked the universe to help me understand some things, and then you showed up.

Yesterday I was telling my spirit guide Deanna telepathically, "You need to give me some incentive if you want me to keep doing this shit. How about an experience of what it's like to achieve the state of mind you have? After all, my spirit guide Mia used to be able to manipulate my awareness and moods. Are her powers superior to yours?" This morning as I sat in bed sipping my coffee and trying to wake up, it suddenly dawned on me that my state of awareness had changed. I felt a strange (to me) inner peace that I had never felt before. I felt in some way disconnected from the world, and yet in another way more engaged with the world than ever before in my life. I felt I could act from a true, deeply felt volition rather than be subject to the fleeting whims of superficial desires and attachments. And a few things that had been puzzling me suddenly seemed much clearer.

I told Deanna telepathically, "What the hell happened?" She just laughed and laughed. I said, "God, this is nice, but weird - it's going to take some getting used to," and she laughed again.

That state of awareness has dissipated a bit as the day has worn on, but it definitely did give me a stronger vision of where I'm going. And it's another reminder of how the universe responds to our requests.

 

We have specific relationships because in the temporal order, on a practical level, we cannot physically engage with every individual. Each and every specific relationship is an archetype of all relationships of that order. For example, You may through marriage and divorce, have many wives in our lifetime. Although the names and faces change, the core relationship remains the same, my spouse.

 

Yes...I had questioned Deanna in my mind about why SHE couldn't engage me as you do to help me find the answers I'm looking for. But I realize, as I told her in an email yesterday morning, she needs to jerk me around until my ego comes loose. That role is incompatible with the role of holding Socratic dialogues with me. And as a witch/goddess, she took over the basic role from my previous spirit guide, but with the addition of a face-to-face relationship that would have been incompatible with the previous woman's other roles in her life.

And you know, this entire conversation with you is proving enlightening to me...

Safehearts came here asking about people's experiences with psychics, and what she's getting is in-depth lessons on the nature of life and spiritual reality...but maybe that's what she was really looking for all along.

 

if i may be so bold by stepping in and giving my two cents worth .....

when we feel ready to ask for a spirit guide, with it comes accepting responsibility for our actions, thoughts and energies we place into this world (and planes beyond); with this, comes a sort of "karmic leveling" - if we've generated alot of negative karma before this acceptance, it will return to us at this time fullforce, hence the shit hitting the fan

psychic, side kick? ....i prefer to call myself Psy-chick!

 

I THOUGHT I felt you hangin' around watching, goddess, and I was wondering when you'd get around to throwing in your two cents.

Yeah, I have definitely wondered sometimes what my karmic story has been like to generate the experience of this lifetime. I musta bin one bad-ass mo fo! NOW of course, I'm as gentle as a stinkin' lamb - except when I'm not. This weekend when I was in a black-as-hell mood and giving Deanna telepathic hell, I heard her tell someone else in my mind, "Nobody else was this bad." I guess I win the prize! However I told her in an email yesterday that I had a vision of her doing the same thing earlier in her life - the petite and lovely Deanna, painted and primped like a delicate china doll, thrashing in her padded cell and spewing satanic venom that would have burned a sailor's ears - and she wrote back and told me I was right. So I guess she's getting a little karmic leveling herself from this relationship.

Hmmm...that must make me a psy-dick! LOL

 

Your two cents are invaluable Chicky bod.
This "karmic leveling" appears to me as if I had lived in dimness all my life. Eyes accustomed to darkness, strain in the sudden illumination. The immediate impulse can be to retreat to comfort. However, the revelation of light makes darkness no longer satisfactory and the only way to satisfaction is to become accustomed to the light. It can never be a juggling act because continuous and strenuous effort is required to remain perched between two stools. When you become too tired to hold yourself up, you simply fall down. You cannot be comfortable. Woe to him who puts his hand to the plow and then turns back.

 

There just AIN'T no turning back, dope. How can there be? I've considered it sometimes, and realized there's just no way I could possibly be the way I was after having my eyes opened. I would always know the reality is there, and I'm just trying to avoid it. And besides, Deanna would never let me be - I've tried ignoring her in my mind. It's like trying to ignore a screeching crow that's perched on your head.

 

Right, there is no turning back but people do try, as in the allegory of Lots wife who looked back and turned into a pillar of stone.

 

Obviously there IS that temptation sometimes, you're right. Often, in fact... Another point along these lines is that the universe is pushing us to live our karma, and if we resist it pushes harder. Before I accepted the idea of a spirit guide in my head, I used to experience strangers making remarks out loud about my unspoken thoughts as I passed them on the street. After I started my relationship with my first spirit guide, those experiences just faded away. It was all designed to get me to do what I needed to do in this lifetime.

 

You are never being, "coerced". The friction we experience is rope burn, jumping of a cliff but still cling to a rope, not yet entirely convinced you can fly.

 

Yup, that's me all righty, holding onto that rope.

A couple days ago Deanna wrote me a note telling me it's time to spread my wings and fly. Of course, I just tell her to eat my shorts. LOL

 

But it does seem like I've been doing a little flittering lately - no loop-the-loops yet, mind you, but I seem to be loosening up.

 

We are. As I am healed we are all healed.

 

Others clarity corresponds to our own?

 

Can you comprehend the unintelligible? If I am speaking gobblety gook, does it make sense? The light in one mind lights up the whole mind, being one mind.

 

I would have to assume no, though I may be able to see why it is, as far as where it's coming from

No, by the fact that Gobblety-gook is the complete opposite of sense.

I think I see. Though, why is it that A's light may light up B, but A's light may not light up C, was A's light not really light to begin with then? And what about darkness in this instance? Could A's light not penetrate C's darkness while being sufficient enough to penetrate B's?

 

I can see why you do the abc thing, it is that insidious sesame street conditioning.
This is like the ego question. The light you see, the darkness that you think is there, is your own reflection.