School depresses the shit out of me. I am truly happy during breaks, particularly summer break. Two months of no school is literally a spiritual experience for me. High school is so pointless and inefficient. I have absolutely no motivation to make any attempt at it other than my parents not shitting about grades, and being able to get into a decent college. I just exist during the school year. I get up at 6 in the morning, sit in classes for eight hours learning very few things that will ever benefit me in any way (if you want to call memorizing and forgetting a week later "learning"), and then go home with homework to do since wasting forty hours of my week is not enough for them. It's like I'm a robot. I just go through the routine every day, waiting for the weekend, so I can have two days of not having to get up before the sun is up and wasting my whole day in school. Then once that's over, it's another five days of being on autopilot while I wait for the weekend. When I try to explain this to people they're like "WELL WUT R U GOIN 2 DO WEN U HAV 2 GET A JOB HURR HURRRR." I'm going to have the motivation of getting fucking paid and doing something that will better myself, by my own free will, as opposed to being forced to go to an eight hour daycare. God dammit.
Sounds like me with work. Every year or two I end up having to take a long break or just outright quit so I can clear my head and get my life repositioned in a non wage-slave direction.
Ya know I completely agree with you. I really loved school in Elementary and middle, besides sometimes. And now I just dont like it. I feel there is no point of going, and the only reason I attempt getting good grades and not just sleeping the whole day is either 1. ROTC or 2. my phone. Plus I hate getting bitched at by my parents cause they do that enough already. I guess everyone just has to find the little motivation they can just to do it and get it over with. ROTC has been a motivation because its a leadership course, yes, I know I'm a hippie, if you wanna know why I'm in an Army/military program PM me. But they teach you discipline and respect not only for other people but yourself. And I feel like I am respecting myself by doing better than my dead beat family who aren't getting anywhere. I dont wanna be the failures that they are or work as hard as they do to get nothing in return. Plus they teach you to set goals to get where your going. And my friends are my life, thats where the phone comes in. But yeah. I guess you just have to find your motivations and stuff.
I'm right there with you and to make it even worse when i want to come home to a relaxin enviroment after a shitty day at school i come home to my extremely uptight parents that think life is all about school school school, work work work, i hate it.
I'd like to join a small commune or something after I get out of school. I'm not somebody who will cry themselves to sleep at night because I don't have a huge house and a ridiculously expensive car. I just want a place to sleep and a life that doesn't involve sucking dick as hard as I can until corporate big wigs pat me on the head in the form of a bonus or a promotion. Of course, my parents would shit on my chest if I suggested this to them. The parents of anybody I know would. I guess by the time you're 50 you've been conditioned so well that you actually enjoy the capitalist system of stomping on as many faces as you can to get higher on the career ladder, only to put that money back right back into the system, and spend what's left over on a nice tv or something you can enjoy in the few hours your boss/god permits you to have a life.
:smilielol5: :rofl: been in bootcamp, military school and, rotc. LIES! LIES! LIES! they taught me to use an m-16.... MANY, MANY, MANY, A TIME I WANTED TO USE IT ON THOSE BULLING MILITARY SHIT-ASSES! i won't do it though! i'm not throwing my life away on that military low life shit! welcome to mainstream society! they put you in a box and, now your trapped. you can break-free of the box and, you can own your own life. it takes work though. everything you "learned" is WRONG! they robbed you of your own greatness and power... THAT IS WHAT SCHOOL AND WORK ARE MENT TO DO! check out these two links below. they will give you the tools to re-educate yourself and to regain your own power. www.jobhuntersbible.com www.whywork.org
High school is typically not "education" but rather a place where very minimal academic requirements get fulfilled. The claim that it gets you prepared for college is also a bunch of bullcrap. For example, one of the final projects I was assigned in English class to do in my senior year was to make a poster about a book we were reading. The book for one was not very challenging or interesting. It was a newer novel called Cold Sassy Tree and it was about a kid growing up in the early part of the 20th century in some podunk town in the south and his teenage challenges. It was a snorefest of a book, but of course we had to read it. I thought it was very stupid to have to draw pictures for an English class. In no collegiate environment will you EVER be assigned to draw a picture in an English class. LAME. Academia is a mixed bag, and there's good and bad. I honestly find I enjoy college a lot more. It has its things I gripe about for sure, but you are largely in charge of the direction you take it. There are more possibilities and opportunities for personal growth as well as knowledge growth. There are still good and bad people around you, but in an adult environment it seems easier to connect with those of like mind who are with you. I was sort of forced into my first round of college by my parents basically saying you either go to school now and we pay, or nothing at all (they made enough money that I couldn't claim independent student status until the age of 24). I had a tumultuous personal life in my early 20's, and then ended up being a drop-out anyway. which is fine, because now I truly know more about myself and what I want out of life. Some people do well in trades schools, or tech schools. Some people do better in entry-level professions where they're trained on the job. Some people do better in restaurants and retail, even. College is not for everybody and I never make claims that it is, but if you are wanting to expand your education and can find funding, it's a good choice for many. The trick is finding one that fits your personality and needs. I am currently going to a technical college that offers liberal arts associates degrees. I'm going to earn an associate of science in liberal arts, with a concentration in mathematics and physical science. My academic history is not sparkling, so I figure if I finish that degree it can be a handy transfer tool. Then I'll be shopping around for universities where I can take it a bit further. I see myself ending up as a research scientist or even just a research assistant would be a happy place to end up in for me. You'll eventually figure out where your passions are, and hopefully there will be ways you can pursue them. As I said, college is not for everybody. I do recommend for those who don't think college is for them to try and pick up some trades skills, though, as they can come in very handy in the future for a variety of things, not just getting a job. If you survive the hellhole of high school, you'll have emerged a stronger person for it. Good luck with all you do in life!
The best part about all of this is replace the word "school" with the word "job", and you just described THE REST OF YOUR LIFE LOL there's no real motivation in working BTW, once you figure out that all of your money goes to bills
you just restated what i said in an earler post here. here is another link below from the rats network to help you drop out of society and take control of your own life. arty: www.school-survival.net
i was the same way. but i learned to be happy with whatever situation i'm in because we all learn something new everyday. when you embrace that, the days go by more pleasantly. and i found that ambitions is a funny thing because i noticed i've always seemed to think that if i drop out or w/e, it'll just be a fairytale. whether a fairytale happens or not, there is always going to be an everyday life which is harder to value rather than ambitions or what we project of ourselves. idk its hard to describe. know what i mean? i think it's more admirable to be water and seep in the cracks rather than boast as a rock.
