I am new to this website, but was referred to come here. I have a schizo-affective disorder and joined this site for people with mental illness but they are crazy and I can't handle talking to them anymore. I am gay, live with my boyfriend and am even letting a guy I know crash on our couch for a while. For a while I was interested in taking a herbal treatment instead of my medications for schizophrenia, but am stuck with the pills. I always like hearing ideas of what herbs to take besides marijuana because I am sure that would give my head a bad feeling with the amount of hallucinations I have already. I was into it a lot when in college in California but I am totally sober now and I think that is the way to go, to be in control. I am a high functioning person and that last forum was giving me the creeps because I would say things and get reported for expressing my opinion and was told I don't understand the lesbians on the site, that also have mental illness. I am tired of walking on egg shells with internet activity, and have a lot going on right now. I am not really callous but these medications I have to take make me kindof numb to having feelings. I am dealing with a lot of crap but I don't care, I will get through it and don't need to ask for sympathy, like some of the people on the other site. I am into the computer a lot, but my in person life has taken new forms, and I am quitting cigarettes for good in five days so thank God because I am sick of them. My roommate is going along with me and probably has more self control then me. I will probably have to call the cessation specialists every day the first week, to avoid relapse. It is really important to me cause I live off disability and I could really use the money for something else. I just got attacked by Jehova's witnesses at my door and I am too damn nice. They want me to read these stupid magazines and tell them what I think about it next week. I am Christian but I think Jesus had different things in mind when He spoke then these churches. I have all kinds of services and live in a fricken conservative state but I can't move yet anyhow. I am into pets and have a parrot, but my roommate got a dog and it's attached to me now. I am the mother figure to animals and people in our lives. My roommate always wants to smoke marijuana but I have to get his mind off of it, because he is unstable and it's hard to deal with. He is too attached to me and I am trying to get him to be more independent but I ain't ditching him to the streets. He came a long way, and I support people that want to be supported. Thanks for listening. I hope this site is more interesting to read than psych central cause I am fed up with their sensitivities. Grithnir
Welcome! Good luck with the cigarettes. My boyfriend and I quit just over a month ago. A feat I thought impossible myself, but the hipforums keeps me distracted. There are some rude assed bitches on this site, so don't let them frighten you off. For the most part, though, everyone is super nice and there's some great discussion here. Be well!
