Guys, I'm dying in Babylon. I want stories about what those of us stuck are going through. All I need are people to be interested and I'll share everything. Trust me, there's a lot, and just say you like the idea, and I'll go first. Then feel free to share yourselves. If this goes far enough, I'll write this all up, and maybe we can make a record of it for our kids, those of us (cancer) who can still have them. So, if you want a manifesto thread, if you want to talk about what it's like about being gorilla glued onto a beam you would not have placed...if you just wish Jerry was still around and don't know why, except it seemed like the thing to do at the time...let's talk about it here. lay down, my dear brothers... lay down and take your rest... won't you lay your weary head upon your savior's breast i love you but (redacted) loves you the best and i bid you good night a good night a goooooooooooood night stephen, but not the saint
ok, one person liked the idea, and i have stories, but i'll have to get to them tomorrow, sadly, i'm very sick today. low-grade blood poisoning from an abscess. once i deal with it i'll feel better, so look tomorrow. i usually have a window of ten good days to three bad, so, i think i can manage after a good night's sleep and some vit-C.
being as i've made some kind of anti-fan of a mod on this site...apparently i'm all ego and no community, i can't see me being here much longer. i wanted stories about how people cope with a system they can't believe in, and to share mine. we'll see how far this goes until i'm erased from communal memory by someone with an agenda. in 07, as my dad was dying of multiple myaloma, i realized that even if i had to be back in society, if only for him, i couldn't agree with it. to get around this, i've been doing all kinds of crazy things from then until now to achieve some kind of moral balance. in 07, i decided to live one year without electricity. i actually made it 14 months, through learning to accept cold showers, raw veggies, and candlelight. i read over 200 books in that time, and i found that they were more important to me when i had to work to read them, and in the end, i think i enjoyed them more. obviously, i'm not without electricity now, but i have given up driving and am working my way towards ovo-lacto-vegetarianism. some habits (damn you, bacon) are hard to break. stuff like that, and if it gets deeper, so can we, right? i don't want to set any bar, so people can jump as high as they like. i'll always try to reciprocate. love, because it's my favorite four letter word...
Cope with a system I don't believe in ... the system is what it is. What can I say? If I really disliked it I'd be in the woods. I might end up there someday, who is to know? In the meantime it's a 9-5 grind, and work is work, so that's what I do. Freedom is created, so I'm working towards creating my freedom. You don't have to be of the world simply because you are in the world. Spirit exists and inspires. The light inside keeps the weight of babylon at bay. I dance across the stage, and then change the stage I dance on.
I too have gone a long period of time without electricity, I now am wanting to leave, to join the rainbow family with their travels, and to continue my own, it's the way it should be..
I am also struggling with the system. I don't understand this "keeping up with the jones" concept. Three years ago I bought a house way in the middle on nowhere. Hoping to leave it all behind but I think it's pretty impossible. You still have to enter sometimes. I still have to work in the city sometimes, (i got the hell out of the 9-5 grudge) but I still find it hard when you are surrounded by "the system" . I don't feel free until I am home. Being with like minded individuals helps a lot. Judgement from others is an issue i deal with, also. What i do think is we can't escape the world we live in, otherwise things will get worse. we need to stay strong and band together, people in numbers are stronger!
i say the Babylon is already fallen ... ok , and it's going down easy so that people don't mass self-destruct from stupid insecurity . maybe like me you got the vision of the whole world being one rainbow gathering simple and close to the earth - that comes slow , too . big changes that happen too fast are trouble . i've had a dreamy winter , kinda lonesome , and so i gotta dream of crazy family . somehow all my sickness gets healed by miracle . i really do hold to earth and sky - this i have been taught and this has proven true and in this i trust . also , it does change the world . and being the angel of that change can feel so bittersweet lingering inside but what the hell , just do it , cuz you see the flower opening .
