iiiiiii fucked up

me and my friend branden have been getting to know each other for about 4 months now. he really liked me the first day he met me. i told him i wasnt in the position to gt into any serious and i was in my "all guys are the same" stage, still am. but he assured me he was different. so i went ahead, well axtually dragged ahead

i start liking him, but really on his ass about talking to other women, and feeling insecure. I was still liking this guy brad so i wwasnt paying my full attention on him. well december 1st, i got beaten up by brad. so yeah im pretty pissed and want nothing to do with men. but branden is still around for comfort.

my emotions are all fucked up now. I start acting like a real bitch to him. he takes it in the ass. until last night. i start talking about sex jokingly and he added in, me thinking hes serious, i go off on him saying i wasnt his booty calll and shit like that.

told me he got annoyed with me and slandering him and he simply stopped talking.

I feel like shit now. all i wanna do is drink because i feel like a complete ass. I never meant to say that. just i want nothing to do with men. seriously. i hate every aspect of them. when they mention sex, when they think their hot shit.

this is only guys who "want to date me" btw. Im just soooo not in the position. but i do feel like an asshole. I just want him back

 

I'm not an expert on relationships - but I am a guy and I have been listening to females rants for a long time. Here's my advice --
Everything that pops up in your mind doesn't need to pop out of your mouth! Think!!! Guys are not verbal and will just take that sh** but we remember.
2) Apoligize to the guy - it won't kill you - tell him the truth - that you were in a bad frame of mind and didn't mean to pop off at him. Believe me - admitting you are wrong will go a long way.
3) If you like him - show him some affection - if you like him enough, sleep with him.
4) Throw a few man complements at him - guys love that.

Mostly just watch you friggin mouth - NO guy like to be put down - that's a chick thing.

 

lol i know and im seriously not like this but i did send him a message since hes not answering his phone saying sorry and explaining myself. hopefully he'll forgive

 

Just remember - you're beautiful. That's all you need know.

 

Yes, she is beautiful, but thats not a reason to treat a good guy bad. There are shit guys out there. But there are good guys out there too. Just dont confuse them. Ddoright made some great points. Just relax and take lots of deep breaths. You will survive and will have a great guy someday.

 

lol thank you and i agree with wonder. I try my best not to treat good guys badly. I actually like good guys but you're just a litle blind at first for the good guys until you lose them. I said what I needed to say. its up to him now. I know myself pretty well and WILL catch myself if i start running my mouth again. which prolly wont happen

I party with him and a group and others said that just relax, he'll come back around in no time but he'll view you differently. im still sad about that but ill gain that trust back.

 

My advice to you then, is...stop seeing them. Or, at least in that capacity. Just fuck them and leave, if that's what you need.

It's not rocket science.

 

no...thats not. what i need is to get my point across, telling him my heads not right in the dating department and be good friends again.

personally id take someone back if they were apologizing this much. but hes still not answering. only possible reason for this is because theres another girl he wants

 

Maybe - but don't through in the towel. You may have wounded his sexual ego - which takes time to get over. Insult a guy any way you want but when make him feel sexually inadequate or less than a desireable male it cuts to the quick. It might take some time.

 

Right, I see what you're saying. and I have a feeling it'll take some time, Im just throwing in the towel for texting him and explaining myself. and Im almost certain he'll come back around.

 

If you want him this bad, then you've found a man who doesn't make you sick.

 

Or, it may never heal. Let's not pretend this very real possibility is not there.

Of course, we could go on and brag about Lulu's healing capabilities of attraction, which I'm sure are pretty good...But, in my honest opinion, a man of self-respect doesn't give a second chance in something of this magnitude. It doesn't matter how fly the girl is or isn't.

That being said, he PUT himself in the situation of sexual underdog, so he may not have the backbone to cut her off completely.

 

but now that i think about it. i never hurt his sexual ego. i basically said if he wanted sex, go look somewhere else because im not ready yet. contradicting myself to him, by just hinting sexually to him 10 mins ago, he got annoyed by it and bailed. him thinking that i think all he wants is sex

basically i fucked up, and i feel shitty about it, still do. i cant deal with guys right now and he knows it. he just needs a little time

 

yeah thats why i want him back. he was a good guy. made me smile and laugh and his realistic views got me. he flirted with no other than me, and he wasnt out to get sexual with anyone. he was holding back for me and i didnt see it. too ignorant to. because i think "all men want sex" because im in a bad frame of mind

 

Maybe, you need a little time.

Anyway, you're describing him now as a man of respect. That in-itself is a beautiful thing...

The most important thing I would get out of this is that there are men like him around.

Don't pretend to have any power over his reactions because that is just a continuation of treating men like manipulative, sex-starved, little puppies.

Say you're sorry, and wait in case he decides to contact you. Otherwise, you've learned a great lesson, and you'll have other opportunities to meet respect-worthy men, I'm sure.

You're deserving.

 

I do need a little time. or a lot. Im on his ass about everything.

Well the other night, I was over at liz house for a little get together and he calls her explaining her that a few nights ago, his phone burnt out (hence why he wasnt answering me back) I let out a relief cause he didn=t get any texts i sent to him.

liz says i have a call from branden..worried talking to him he asks if we're cool with everything talks to me for a while and says hes coming over.

So we're all chillin, have a great time, he stays sober for some reason, i get a little buzz but i get sober eventually. We start making out and stuff in the living room. We go back and fourth on doing the whole shabang. With my horny self, Im all up for it while he says we're stopping. we go to the bedroom and cuddle and talk for a good while

and then it happened..shortly..he never gets to have sex..i understand lol. right after it, guy bust thro the door freaking out yelling for him for help (drama downstairs) I get a little mad but what ever.

the next day, they wanna party again. Im tempted so i stay. We are all chillin..again. when I find out this chick emily is coming through. Emily and branden had a one time thing a few months back and she likes/want to date him but hes not interested. Shes a 17 yr old mom who acts black after she slept with him...lol yeah.

She gets all over him, sitting on his lap, literally talking like a slut. i walked out to play cards. I came back and shes still on his lap. I noticed that he kept his hands to himself or crossed and had this annoyed look on his face. he looks at me, and i cut him a look. walked away. liz tells emily that he likes me and we had sex the night before. So now she knows, but the drunker she gets, the worse. Hes still pretty sober, and quiet most of the night, knowing im mad at him for not chilling with me

We finally hang out playing cards with a couple friends. first smile i see the whole night. we're on our 2nd game when her drunk ass comes in and yells at him on why hes not there watching her play BP. he mumbles "you're retarded" when she stumbles over something. but leaves to create no drama.

Im pissed off as hell. dude has no balls to stand up to her. I go to sleep early. next morning, we dont speak a word to each other and he leaves without saying bye to everyone.

uggh im confused. we talked about dating last night and i told him to give me a break first and he says i gave you a 6day break! hes rushing me a bit. but im wondering about emily. shes def getting inbetween us and hurting us a lot

 

Wayyyyy to much drama for me!! Are you really 19? You gotta get a grip!!

 

lol the only drama created is by this chick

 

Eliminate the chick and you've eliminated the problem [ ... insert evil laugh here ..]

 

thats what im saying lol. Everyone doesnt like her. idk why she comes around