In the sense that when I was younger I realized that 95% of the people I've ever known have been complete retards and that intelligence only leads to misery? Yes.
Hey man, you learn to love your maturity. It was depressing at first for me, but then I began to appreciate just how active my mind was. I wouldn't trade that for anything.
I'm only 23 but to be able to recall a memory that doesn't seem that long ago, but then realize that it was 15+ years ago, makes me feel old as hell. I feel old physically too. It's weird. People tell me I look 19 but I feel more like I"m 35 what with all the aches and slowly diminishing sleep and an imagination that just keeps running further and further away no matter how much I beg it to come back.
wow, what everyone has said so far i can relate too. at a very early age i can recall "realizing" i was more logical then my parents, noticing that things they were teaching me were bullshit. ive always felt that my mind is running faster then most people i associate with, and that as i grow older (and intake more psychedelics) it just gets worse. at the end of a trip i feel that although only 12 hours have past, that it really felt like 2 weeks mentally. it makes me feel like a human bullshit detector, where if im reading the news, or out in public, or in a social situation, i can notice everything that seems fake or unnatural, and its to the point where i have trouble socializing or going out. thats when the lonely part hits me, and i get real depressed.
oh man i think that psychedelics had a lot to do with my maturity level. i have no idea what i would be like if i never did any.
i know, right? and its when you get back from a trip and look back at everything that happened, and take note to everything you witnessed and experienced, thats when all those thought patterns stick with you, and you build up that conciousness. instead of just taking it and thinking "oh man i saw crazy colors and was really high", thats when its just a way to get fucked up and you dont learn anything from it. thats just my look on it though.
"oh man i saw crazy colors and was really high" it seems thats what a lot of people my age think of tripping as..(17) at least the people i know in my area
I did not think people would relate haha but everythin described here is exactly what i meant. getting high def is more an expanding your mind drug then a go out n get fucked up drug
finally. people who feel the same way as i do. im just glad there are others out there who have to put up with the same idiots as i do regularly.
You guys are talking about the early stages of true maturity. I promise you are in for much more of the same. You will learn to embrace this feeling and the perspective that it brings.
i have felt the same way that many of you have described, always feeling like i have been more mature than other my age, it has caused me to not have as many lasting relationships with some people, but i have learned to live happily with a more expansive knowledge than most. and i feel that some of it did come with tripping, and that i see past alot of the shit everyday society puts on us all.
