what the fuck is wrong with me?

For some reason i wont go anywhere . i wont step out of my yard unless its to get on drugs. I cant even go into a supermarket or a shopping mall. I get heaps worried and nervous when i go to public places and i cant stop twitching n i get heaps tense and i think everybody is looking at me and thinking the worst of me , Its really affecting my life and stopping me from doing alot of things. Its getting worser and worser. Also i never talk infront of anyone only people who im really really really close too, Same thing happens i get really nervous , tense twitch..ect. I know that people think im weird because ive had some things to said to me even by my own mother. No matter how hard to try to ttalk or not act nevous when going places its just dosnt same to matter. What is wrong with me and what do i do?

 

It sounds like agoraphobia
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Agoraphobia
In this I share your pain.

 

yes.. sounds like agoraphobia...

seek out some professional help if you can.

a lot of times mental health issues will stop.. once the drugs stop..

 

Sounds like you need to do less drugs.

 

agoraphobia sounds right... it's definitely some sort of anxiety.

may i ask what drugs you're stepping out to get?

 

ecstasy, lsd and weed

 

those probably aren't helping.

does this change when you're on those drugs?

 

Weed will do this. Weed in tandem with those other drugs will probably do it worse. but I'm gonna say that this is probably largely due to the weed. Smoking weed daily will make you an anxious person. You'll find yourself becoming afraid to do anything in public, even if there isn't any particular scenario you're afraid of.

 

Yes, When im on drugs im completley different, all my problems go away Accept for when i smoke weed. I get more paranoid twitch..ect. I also shake everytime when i smoke weed. But i do feel happier when smoking it. When im on lsd and ecstasy thoe I talk heaps and you wouldnt even know that i have any 'problems' what so ever.

 

So if i stop smoking weed it will go away? I also have depression and a eating disorder Just to top it off. Everthing i go to do is such big deal even driving in car with people or just pretty much anything to do with people. I try to go down the street But i always ending up feeling uncomfortable, Id rather be sitting at home then feeling that uncomfortable.

 

sounds like a brain tumor if you ask me

 

of course the ecstacy will do nothing but make you feel wonderful... acids nice... but i dont think you should do it often.. only on occasion or when youre truly lost in your life and have come to a breakdown point... or even if you are trying to break an addiction.. acid can change your whole wiring... but you direct.. your mind directs how it is that you will be changed.. you are the wirer.. as goofy as that sounds... however.. if its acid you're actually addicted to... you might be making yourself crazy. also ecstacy is nice except for the fact that it takes away all of your seratonin and black monday IS a real thing... might explain the depression..... my advice is deep meditation and to lay off the drugs... you dont know the answer, but it doesnt mean you dont have the answer......... after all.. all we have is everything, and everything is now.

 

Agoraphobia is a deep rooted anxiety disorder, the blame of which cannot be placed at the door step of cannabis.
Sure, perhaps doing drugs is worsening your condition, who can really say, but it will take more than just quitting smoking to fully cure this.

 

It sounds like the drugs probably aren't the underlying problem, and when people are so quick place all blame on drugs it causes a lot of frustration for everybody.

 

neodude and shermin have a point.

drugs aren't causing this. if it were the drugs, everyone who smoked weed, rolled, and tripped would be in the same place as you. but obviously they're not.

however, everyones brain is different. some people can handle doing drugs more than others.

what seems to be going on here is that you have a severe complication relating to anxiety, and you probably have a few things standing in the way of you working on this, one of which may be drugs. they may not be very related, but your best bet, based on what we know at this point, is to stop doing drugs at least temporarily, as well as finding a therapist or someone because not only should you take it easy with drugs, but you have a lot of work to do if you want to make this better.

cutting out the drugs won't make you okay, but it may help give your mind a break. there's still work to be done, with or without drugs in the picture.

i think part of the problem is that a lot of people start taking drugs around the same time that these other problems would come up anyway (mental disorders, etc). It's easy to make the connection, but don't think that a possible relationship means that one causes the other.

 

well drugs must have something to do with it because my depression was no where neer as bad as it is now, And i could go places, do things..ect and actually talk to people i didnt know and be able to leave my yard for not just the reason of doing drugs. You cant blame it on my bodys response because without the drugs being in my body in the first place there would be no response. So the answer to this is i cant handle drugs? And so your saying if i keep on doing drugs it wont make it worser?

 

You can't handle drugs right now mabey because they make you think in ways that your'e not used to. If you just start smoking every day and try to fix your own personal issues on your own then you can be happy with drugs and no worries.

 

honestly what i'm saying is that it's impossible to know for sure.

why don't you stop doing drugs and see how you feel?

obviously, whether you keep on doing drugs or not, it's important to address this issue. a therapist (not psychiatrist, there's a difference) can actually be some great help in getting some perspective on the situation, and suggesting some practices to help get your mind in gear.

 

I am also a frequent weed smoker and I do experience anxiety about going outside of my house sometimes...personally over the years I've found that weed will help calm me down instead of upping my anxiety, however everyone is different in their reaction to cannabis. Do you have any idea about what type of weed you're smoking (sativa or indica)? Each strain will bring out different physical and emotional responses.
I would suggest that you quit the E and LSD for a little while, although both those are being found to help people with ptsd and depression, they still alter your brain chemistry even after the high has worn off and you're done feeling the good feelings they make.
What exactly makes you nervous about going outside?
For me, it was the fear that I would have a panic attack and no one would be around to help me, or irrational fears that someone would try to assault, rape, or rob me, or other stuff that I've now realize don't happen ALL the time, otherwise I would have been the victim of those crimes about twenty thousand times already.
Also, at your age of 20, your brain is still developing itself and drugs can really affect how you come to see yourself, your surroundings, and the people around you.

 

Its like when your at the movies, you eat some popcorn, and you get thirsty for soda, then you want some candy, and then you need some popcorn again to even things out. For you, mabey if you smoked too much weed, you need to do some drugs that make you more sociable like beer, mdma, and low doses of LSD. Then weed is for when you don't give a fuck about bein social anymore because you know that it's not an issue, so go back to bein high as fuck again. Lol thats how i do it works great