Its probably been a year now that I've been using yet I've lost sooo much: I'm soooo far in debt, I'm about thiiiiiis close to losing my education, I've lost trust and respect - from family members, from friends, mentors even - sold guitars I thought I'd die with, I've scammed cheated and stolen to get a fucking high, I've lost a cousin to a heroin OD, and I just seriously canot STAND this shit any more - yet all I want is one last nod. What the FUCK is wrong with this picture? I have got to get off this shit. Anyone else out there that feels this way? I get paid next wednesday and I'm either going to drive right past my dealers house with a nice fat wad of cash in my pocket or I'm gonna knock on his door and score enough to put myself out of this misery. If anyone else feels like this and feels like they could use someone to help keep them out of trouble and give them some motivation, let me know, maybe we can communicate (via email or something) and try and keep either straight. I'm here, b
Google ibogaine. So far it's been pretty helpfull to allot of folks in similar circumstance's to yours.
Sorry to hear about your troubles bro. But, the one good thing that I read out of what you wrote is that you're not at bottom yet. You may be close, but you aren't there. I've never been there, so my advice is just my 2 cents, but try to stay away from people that make you wanna use. Maybe get a gym membership and find a friend to workout with. Sorry just trying to help. Wish you the best man!
Digdug,I was just in the same situation-bills being late pawning,selling my 1000$ ibanez guitar I also though would never leave my hands.I been clean for 18 days now with the help of my doctor and home detox methods which CAN work if you want them to.It's all up to you when your sick of all this shit-don't get me wrong I would love a hand full of opana's right now,but it's all mental it can be done if your a weak minded prson there's always gonna be bumps in the road.If your strong it can be done.My first week of wd's I used just ammodiumAD that's it, then got some Kpins for sleep the second week.I've have other vitamins I'm taking also which work--L-tyrosine which helps with the mental aspects.Feel free to pm me if you have any problems just remember it's all mental after the pain's gone.
When you get paid, don't drive anywhere near your dealer's house. If you can, find a good rehab place. Or a clinic where you can get Methadone or Suboxone. And there are support groups like NARCANON everywhere. Good luck, there is help available if you really want to quit.
no sympathy here...it wont help and no advice because you already ignore advice but pm me if you have any more guitars for sale...both of you
I have helped ppl get off of drugs, it may bee tough love but it works. I pretty much hand cuff them in my back room and feed, clothe and clean them for about 2-3 weeks. They get a puke bucket and a shit bucket with liners and a pillow and blanket on the floor. If you go to rehab and get drugs to get off drugs it's too easy. If you really go through the detox without them you will appreciate being clean again and wont ever want to go through detox again. Do you have any good friends with a place that will help you? I have family that are addicted to H and some to crack, they have stolen from my family and been disowned from us. You really don't want to loose your family and friends man. It's not worth it, I hope you make the right choice and not go to your dealers. I wish you the best of luck, truely.
PsychedelicLover, that's very noble of you, and really proves you to be an incredibly caring individual to be able to care for someone like that. I commend you with all my being. So far so good. Imodium seems to work suspiciously well at clearing up these w/d symptoms - from the obvious to the chills and flu like symptoms. I'm pleasantly surprised, and feeling great. Got a phone call today - "Hey man I got this script but I don't have the money to fill it, can you pay for it and I'll give you a handful?" Nope, I'm broke! So far so clean. The hardest thing for me is that my dealer lives right around the same area as my university, and although I commute to school, he's still just right there. I did delete him from my contact list on my cell phone so thats a step in the right direction.
Don't drive passed your dealer's house. Being around the people that fuel the addiction makes kicking the habit that much harder. Go to your family for help. Best of luck man, I've been in that situation myself and the best feeling in the world was not having a withdrawal but a normal fucking day.
I'm glad that you are making the right choice. Every day that you are addicted to something is killing you. Mind over matter. And remember to not delete numbers from your phone, put them on a Do Not Answer list. Then if they try to call you and you don't remember their number you don't pick up still, and anyone else that picks up your phone. And Happydude, it is hard core coming off of drugs. My way is a great learning experience. Every person that I have done it to haven't touched whatever drug they were addicted to so far, so it worked well.
