I have been on Methadone for about, damn, its gotta be 10 months or so i guess. I started off with the Perc's, then OC's, Morphine, Dilli's, and every other opiate i could get my hands on. I was a full on addict for maybe a year, then i realized i needed to get on Methadone. Being on Methadone has helped big time. I dont have to worry about getting sick, because i always have my dose. No more running around, getting pills, and finding ways to get more. Another HUGE plus is its completely covered here, i pay nothing. So i was doing great on Methadone, eventually getting down to 30mg from 65mg. So at this dose, Methadone doesnt quite have its FULL receptor blocking powers yet. (In my experience, 40-50mg is when the opioid receptors were blocked FULLY, so no other opiates could get me high.) So after being on 30mg for a while, i was starting to have severe cravings. Eventually i caved. I had never done H before, but decided my relapse would be with the next Opiate up. I had only been living in the city i am in now for about 6 months, so i had no connections. I went to a well known drug area, and managed to find an EXCELLENT connection. The guy was a homeless addict (not judging, im an addict too), but he was amazingly honest. He has never ripped me off, hes always on the corner, and always gives me great sizes. Plus the dope is from the Asians (best quality shit), and they run the H game here. The H didnt get me as high as it should have though, because i was still on 30mg of Methadone. So i helped the homeless guy out with quarters for the phone, food, smokes, etc. I never expected to make a friend on the relapse journey lol. So i didnt do the H for too long before getting my Methadone dose boosted back up again. The thing is, like i said before, i was on 30mg of Methadone during my relapse, that little bit prevented me from experiencing the FULL H euphoria. Now i am back on 65mg. Now all i think about is getting high. All day everyday. Because i know that when i started using H, i wasnt getting the full high i should have been getting, almost like i was robbed of it or something. So now my head is just filled with images and thoughts of getting on a lower dose of Methadone, and just getting high as fuck on H. I know its fucked up. I think im gonna start going to NA meetings or something. Scary thing is though, i am truly in love with Opiates. Thanks for reading, i felt like i needed to share.
Be safe man. Your already out of the gate and you have been. You've been doing good. Just remember that what you dream of now will not be what you dream when your back to being a full blown addict again. I'm not judging in anyway, I just want the best. Good luck brother. Peace and good vibes your way... BE SAFE
Hey im from b.c too and i am on the done also. I agree totally that it helps because you don't have to worry about finding your daily dose, free is great too. Im on 50mls. Just try and look forward to your done dose everyday and be happy with that.
Yeah thats exactly how i get by from day to day. These forums are also really helping me. By sharing stuff, and just reading and knowing theres other people out there that have gone through the same shit i have. Of course ive always known theres alot of addicts and recovering addicts out there, but now its good to be talking with them everyday.
either go up on done to reduce cravings or down to 20m or so and get high using the done to detox and avoid wds--whatever your on your way to a double habit--seen it b4 people hooked on done and H----i dont care what people say ive seen it--careful dude thats all the advice i can give----the double habit people were on 60 and 70 respectivly--sold there take homes for H and even if they kept the takehomes it didnt hold them and they got sick for those couple or few days--your playing with fire--good luck my brother
Like i said, i didnt do the H for long before getting my dose back up. Since getting my dose back up i havent touched the stuff. So its been 2-3 months give or take since then. I know what your saying though, i battled the double habit for that little while i relapsed. I managed to get out of it, now i just have the temptation i mentioned. What do you mean exactly?? Do you mean go up on done OR go down to 20mg and start using H again? Then just use the Methadone to prevent sickness and get through times without H??
I've kicked a few times...HAAAARD. Suboxone makes me even more sick for same crazy reason, at like 10 years old in the hospital I was given an IV of morphine/ demeral, which sent me into shock, so I was then diagnosed alergic to opiates. I still use them though, I wonder if methadone would have a weird reaction like suboxone does. Plus my opinion on methadone is if I'm gunna use somthing daily I might as well as join my ritual.
When I was heavily addicted to opiates I used to dream about them constantly when I was out, unfortunately everyone of those dreams right when I was about to get my fix and something happened and bam I awaken looking for all the shit I just had only to realize I was just dreaming and no I didn't have a jar full of 80's....I think the worst and most memorable one was I crushed two 80's up ready to snort myself into a coma when all the sudden bathroom door comes flyin into me knocking me into my shit and it all goin down the drain. I've yet to get high in a dream, been close many of times though.
sorry bro, i live in canada too and the methadone clinics are great, but honestly you have a better chance to wean off oxys through a doc with a script as opposed to getting off methadone. methadone is just too hard to wean off till the end. even if your doing like 5 80s a day, thats extreme imo, but you can wean off, it will take some time but its better then methadone. im at 3 80s a day and i am dying for methadone but i know ill never get off it, so im trying to wean off. honestly if your strong enough, once you bring it rlly low then your fine, just go through a bit of withdrawal and youll be off in a couple days to a week, depending on tolerance. but methadone, good luck stopping totally.
Ohhh yeahh i shit you not i just got a 100 mg morphine for free. One more awesome thing to so snowboarding!! I was thinking since i rarely get to do opiates and my tolerance is loww i should do half of it at a time?
If your tolerance is pretty low, you shouldnt do 50 mg. Try like 25 mg or less. See how that hits you, then go from there.
i was just parrotting what my clinic used to say---if your having cravings go up and the junkies whod say you need to get to 20 to get high again---as for kicking done i was at 120 a day--at first it was easy from 120-60 dropped 10mg a week---then got sick for 2 weeks and slowed way down to 2-3mg a week--with stops for a couple weeks here and there---got stuck at 20 for awhile---just couldnt seem to drop-finally just said fuck it and did 1mg at a time until i got to 2mg stayed there a month then jumped---total detox time was a year---with 3 years on it first--------
Thanks for sharing man. Im goin down 5 mg every week right now. Its a daily fucking struggle, but i put myself in this situation, so i have to fix it.
