Horrific first trip on LSD.

So I tripped by myself on Halloween.. and walked around campus. I was also in a depressive state about not knowing what life is. Now about two weeks later I'm slowly immersing myself back into this world and realizing that my body has more control over my mind in this world. Has anybody had a super horrendous trip where they didn't feel pain and felt completely disassociated from their body? I'm doing better now, but I smoked weed about 3 times after the trip and I got flashbacks.. I thought that people were all against me and it was all so bizarre and I didn't understand why people looked a certain way and stuff like that.. So now I'm staying away from LSD, Weed.. Cigarettes or anything else that can alter my emotions and mood. I want to know how you got yourself back into reality.. It's getting better though, if you want to look at my initial post I was extremely scared and flustered. I kept asking people if they had ever felt depressed over this bizarre situation, have any of you guys?

Thank you for your help, I just want to be able to relate to someone else about the trip you know.. it's weird. Not very many people have tripped so introspectively as I did.. and gotten so scared or have you? If you could take the time out of your day to tell me how your bad trip went it would be much appreciated. Thank you.

 

sounds like you've had your first bad trip alright

you will ALWAYS come down just give it a few more days, i remember after my first bad trip i thought i was fucked up for life but after about a week i started getting back into reality.

when you think people are out to get you, such as thinking your friends are making fun of you, or people are always staring at you, just remember that its ALL in your head and its not for real. Your tripping LSD and you can achieve ego death if you allow yourself to be completely dissociated with your body. I have yet to do it because i still cant let go to the point where alot of posters on here have.

dont worry bro everything will be fine just take a break. smoke weed (you wont flashback everytime only after you have recently comedown of the drug)

 

It's always better to trip with someone that has experience taking it.I,having taken my first at 28,was able to remind folks that I tripped with when they got "lost"---that it's the acid--just calm down and flow with it. I tripped with people with and without being stoned and I got contact highs,but was at the ready if someone went off on a tangent.I think you need someone with you that can maintain and change what you are focusing on,if you do it again and start to get bummed.Hope this made sense for you. Everyone has a bad trip now and again.

 

stop. why would you even think about tripping acid. im sorry you had a bad trip..but what did you expect?

no friends to trip with? depressive state of mind? going into an acid trip??

i trip when im in a good mood, comfortable setting...all im saying

 

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No go and be depressed no more!

 

haha thanks Hawaiian, you know how to cheer people up

 

This is correct.

Though psychedelics really pulled me out of some major depression that I struggled with for years, I would never take them in the midst of such a episode. Especially alone. There's no way that could turn out well.

 

that's awful man. i really hope you feel better soon and things go well for you.

 

i think EVErRYBODY trips introspectively i think the difference between your trip and the various "good" trips you read/hear about is not having a trip partner to relate to what you were going through.

that isnt to say that you cant have a bad trip having someone there because you certainly can, however having that person on the level with you puts you at little more at ease with the ebb and flow of the trip.

i honestly dont believe in "bad" trips, there is something to be gained from ALL trips, sometimes you just dont see it right away.

I can relate to your "bad" trip as i had one with mushrooms of all things, and it really shook me up for quite awhile, eventually though i saw why i had a bad trip and that had to do with my state of mind and blocks in my chakra at the time....it inspired me to meditate and work on healing various wounds of my past and i got back to trippen again full force after i came to terms with that.

i hope youre feeling better soon and can figure out and make sense of what happened on your trip....try to find a way to be inspired by it, if even on the most twisted of levels.

 

Yeah, I think the reason why I'm so mistrusting of everyone is because I had an experience of the unknown by myself. It was like was facing all of my fears alone. The only thing that convinced me not to commit suicide was one of my friend's random friends who told me that it's tough being a good guy and because of this I shouldn't do it. Thank you all for taking the time to answer my question. I realize that my existentialist depression has been brought upon by my immature and impulsive actions. I'm staying away from weed and other psychadelics for a very long time in an effort to immerse myself into reality once again. Trying to relate with people who haven't tripped on Acid doesn't work anymore. I feel like I can relate to you all and that you understand what I went through. If only my two buddies who had initially wanted to trip with me hadn't bailed on me.. Things would have been different. But I suppose this can also be turned into something positive. Any of you have an idea of how I can twist this into a positive realization?

 

that is a road you must walk alone my friend, i would suggest starting with your personal insecurities though and how your view of the world was before you did the acid- how it is after you did the acid and try to find some truth somewhere between those!?

 

Couple of things I have learned about psychedelics over the years;

1: They are a mirror and a brutally honest one at that. If there are aspects of yourself that you are not comfortable with, we all have something, keep in mind there is a good chance you will be confronted with that during your journey. The higher the dose the more likely it is to happen.

2: All the "content" of your experience on a psychedelic substance originates from within you. All your thoughts, memories, life situation and emotions are what comprise the building blocks of a psychedelic journey. Sometimes that is very apparent, others it isn't. But if you keep in mind that YOU are providing the content of the experience, it can be much, much easier to deal with and integrate.
A friend of mine who was a very adept yoga and martial arts practitioner told me something once that has always aided me. He started training at three years old from his father who was one of those guys you could bury in a box for a week and he would come out with no ill effects. Anyway he told me that during meditation, dreams and psychedelic experiences that no matter what you encounter make it your friend. Make peace with it no matter how evil or vicious it seems because it was a part of yourself and to fight with or be afraid of yourself was an unhealthy and unwise thing to do.

3: THC can often elicit a paranoid reaction in people, often seasoned users can have a bad time with weed. Often if you are having a difficult time on a psychedelic smoking weed can make it much worse. This doesn't happen for everyone, but enough people to make it a concern when tripping.

Go and try to make peace with the elements of your experience that troubled you, and look inside yourself to resolve them. Much easier said than done I know from experience, but only by facing our demons can we hope to make them our allies.

These are just a few basic ideas I have developed based on what I've read and experienced, make of it what you will.
:cheers2:

 

good response! :cheers2: Agree with everything except #2. I think setting and external stimuli play an important role in the the trip. be it good or bad.

 

Yeah I did forget that didn't I
But it is an interplay between the internal and external for sure. Most "bad trips" in my experience have had more to do with whats going on internally rather than externally. But bad surroundings can definitly be the catalyst for a bad time.

I guess what I really meant to say is that as opposed to evil demons tormenting a person from outside, the demons usually originate from within.
I guess maybe because for decades I have preferred to journey solo and so have much more control over setting then if I was with others. Most of my trips in the last twenty years when I've been able get a ticket have been headphones on, lights out, eyes closed.
Although I do love the occasional excursion into nature as well.

 

Words just don't make sense to me anymore I guess.. like allies, good, bad, positive, negative. Nothing makes sense. How do I make them make sense again? I can't associate words with anything.

 

Then maybe it's time to seek professional help rather than in these forums. I know I'm not qualified to say any more than I already have, and most likely neither is anyone else here.

 

you just did!

 

Take as much time as you need, but I wouldn't rule it off all together, because I don't think it's like you have a mental disposition to react badly or whatever, it was just a bad way to do your first trip. You should trip again when you feel ready.

 

Halloween is wierd day for hallucinogens

 

Good answers.I know I lost my fun loving,joking personality for a while after my first trip.I got serious and was hung up trying to figure out what "IT" all meant.You should give yourself some time until you are on a more even keel.I imagine something similiar,if not exactly like what I went thru, happens to most of us when first tripping.It's a powerfull experience and we've all been right there with you in one way or another. Have patience and hang in.The weirdness will fade and you'll be able to make sense of what you need to make sense of.