I was diagnosed with schitzo-effective disorder when i was 20. I'll tell this story from both their point of view and mine: Mine: I was adopted when I was 4 and my adoptive parents were very overprotective and sheltering, because they were afraid my birth parents were gonna come and kidnap me back. when i turned 13, i started rebelling, and they had me on anti-deppressants and saw about 10 different therapists. when i was 20 i decided to go look for my real parents. i didn't tell my adoptive parents because i wanted to do this on my own. i met my mom, and she was very "witchy" looking...imagine walking into a gypsy's apartment. she asked if i wanted some tea, i said okay, and i don't remember much about that visit, but i know she showed me a book of photos of leslie, my younger sister, growing up, and of other family members. i asked her of my ancestry, she named off french, german, native american, and african american, and english...so pretty much she was more than vague with her information...as i was leaving, she ran out the door and told me to eat something. i was like, okay, whatever... well anyway, during the next month, my mind started wandering, i started writing weird things and symbols in my journal that i had no idea what they meant, and became very suspicious of my adoptive parents, in my head, i was realizing the 'real' reason they adopted me: they wanted me to be a part of they're 'cult.' and in my mind they had betrayed my family by taking me from them. this was my first bout of insomnia(still hasn't gone away) and i started obesessing over my adoption, looking for clues, on tv, in the paper and advertisements on what really happened and what was gonna happen. so needless to say i started freaking out, ended up in jail for tresspassing and resisting arrest, and when i got to jail, i ended up in the padded cell, and in my head, had honest to god thought i had gone to hell. there was shit and blood smeared all over the walls, and the police were cruel, taunting, and evil-natured. i couldn't believe they would treat a fellow human being like this...i spent a week in that cell not eating or sleeping, and from there they took me to the local mental hospital. i still think that place is where they send all the witches and warlocks, whether they know it or not. but anyway, i spent a month there, getting used to the drugs they were giving me and eating and sleeping and getting my soul back. to me, schitzo-ism is like being slipped 10 hits of acid. your perception of reality is on a totally different plane, so people outside of that plane view you as a sick person. when i had a daughter 4 years later, the state took her away because of my diagnosis. they said i was unfit to raise a child. my adoptive parents are raising her. their point of view: since both her birth parents are mentally ill, she is too, she suffers from delusions and accute paranoia. will need medication for the rest of her life.... ************************************************** ***** gotta love psychiatry! whoo! lmao
I work in mental health and have gotten to know a few people my age with schizo-affective disorder or schizophrenia. Everybody has a unique story and I definitely feel for you and I hope that regardless of your feelings towards your doctors, and even if they sometimes aren't listening that well, at least try to educate yourself about your diagnosis so that you don't feel so taken over by their psychiatry and medical know-how. I'm a huge supporter of developing your own knowledge and making educated choices about your life, even though sometimes it can definitely seem like there are other things in control of your path. Schizophrenia really can be like way too much acid in your brain, eating away at whatever you are left inside. But don't let your diagnosis define who you are.
i feel for you, good luck with all that bullshit the state is putting on you, i seriously cant see how they oculd treat someone like that, they're people to, dont they have any common sense on how the treat people? there doctors right, they should be treating right?
