done LSD in about 4-5 months now, and it feels like i'm back to normal. This is a bad thing, because after i took all that lsd (i was on quite a streak from doing it up to 4 times a week to once every 3-4 weeks for like 5 months straight) I felt like a new amazing person that i never knew a person could possibly feel like (i felt like god) and then i stopped taking it, because i started to notice i would always feel like i was tripping. It made things alot more intense/confusing/awesome. Tbh, i thought i was going to feel like that for the rest of my life, and it was so amazing thinking that i was the happiest. But now, since like 2 months ago, i'm starting to feel the same boringness in life that i had before LSD. Although, it is possible that i just have gotten too used to the new way of thinking. I don't think that's it though because when i was in that phase everything was the best situation ever no matter what i was doing. I know i think differently now then i did before lsd, but the best thinking that happens is during the months that you do it. I think now, i have to get some more and do tiny medicinal doses, so that i can get that sexy spark out of life again that gives every second meaning to it. I LOVE LSD I know that it changes your brain chemistry, thats what sucks i don't want to change anymore i love who i am now, i feel like i know everything possible about my mind, i just love how i think when i'm on it. A few days ago, i was playing one of my favorite video games, and all the colors gave me somewhat of a real flashback (got me to think how i think on lsd) but it was only for a few seconds. That triggered how much i love dear lucy and how much i forgot about her.
What do you mean by felt like you were tripping all the time? Like constant visuals? Or the fact that if you were dosing 4 times a week... you were tripping all the time... I think the most important thing is take remember that whatever was going on inside of you... was going on inside of you. And its the attitude that you had, that you have to try to remind yourself of. How would you feel if you could never do it again? If that would be a serious SERIOUS problem then it sounds like you've developed a dependency... Be careful where you go from here... She is not an escape, but a teacher, and one day the teacher may not be there, you need to take the lessons and learn from them! good luck!
Yeah I haven't seen her for one year now, and I notice a return of some cognitive behaviors which I had thought were permanently wiped out. Nothing serious, maybe like a "20%" return to previous asshattery, but there is a definite advantage to regularly dosing. There are facets that you can hold on to forever with just awareness however, and perhaps even all facets are potentially permanent for the sufficiently mature being, hell, some people take acid and note no significant change in awareness, since they are like that naturally. So don't fall into the trap of writing off this phenomenon as the LSD "wearing off", instead continually ask yourself "what is it exactly that is wearing off?" keep trying to see if you aren't just tricking yourself into believing you NEED the LSD to be where you want to be. I've come to realize I don't *need* it (especially when im swimming in tryptamines ) but it's a hell of an ally to have.
Third one experiencing the same phenomenon Just remember, practice makes perfect, all skills need to be practiced often and sometimes refreshed... There is a reason meditation is practiced so frequently, if you don't maintain what you have you will get something else.
Yeah i know exactly what you guys are saying, this is what i was thinking of during that phase i just kept thinking " wow this really is how i should be thinking, i need to keep thinking like this" then for the next few months, i was thinking like that even though i had stopped taking it, and i kept that wonderful frame of mind acid gave me and loved it, i guess i diddn't put in much effort to "keeping" it that way, because like i said, i thought i was going to stay that way for the rest of my life. So i guess what it comes down to, is i have a really hard time "training" my brain to think, it just doesn't calculate in my mind, because no matter what i do, my brain thinks the way it thinks, and works the way it works. I can give my brain opinions, and i can tell it what to do in terms of actions and information, it just blows my mind when i even think about teaching my brain how to think. It's like my brain are goggles, and i can see through the goggles but i can't change them. I have practiced meditating, i understand how it can be very helpful and amazing IF you have a flexible mind that you control it's thought patterns. However whenever i try it, no matter how long i try it for, i can't stop thinking to myself subconsously that it's not working, and that i feel like i am not going to achieve any new "state of mind" so it just feels pointless. I just think about how i can think about ANYTHING i want anyways, even changing thought patterns and that no matter what i think of, i can't change my original source. When i think of all the time i had on lsd, it's nothing but a very very wonderful memory that i can remember how amazing it was, but i can't feel how it was conscously. Like that flashback i was talking about, it seriously feels like that's as close as i can get, and it was barely anything. If i could never do lsd again, then it would be like not experiencing heaven again. I have no problem going on without heaven, but why would I? I think the answer to this is that i have to take little medicinal doses once every week or two for a long period (like 1/10 of a hit) Thats actually what i was doing for some parts of my phase, except i would do like 1/10 of a hit daily, and that really made it hard to forget what thinking the awesome way was like. Then i just have to keep "training" my mind to stay that way whether i succeed or not. I don't know if i should give up medititation but it feels like it just wastes time for me, i really wish it would work but it seems like it doesn't work for me. Oh yeah one other issue, the guy i got it from hasn't had any for a long time (i think) and the last time i tried to get some it was bunk. I can wait for it though, i'm sure i'll come across good cid again in my life.
yeah after my trip all i did was sit in my computer room playing guitar but soon after i returned to my normal state of mind which i knew was going to happen all i do is watch hollywood videos, tonight is deep impact and lord of the rings....Afterwards i was so excited about the mirculous things in life, how mystical it really is, the true realization of what space really is, what problems face earth, the ecomony, wars and all other stuff....Now i concentrate on what i need to do to suceed in life, before it was all a big misunderstanding lol...:cheers2: to fresh dacre
Yeah that's how drugs are, fleeting. I heard schizophrenia makes people feel quite God like though. Try upping your dose to a sheet or two for long lasting results.
feeling like God can be taken many different ways. there's the Judeo-christian god, which if you acted like you might be taken as a petulant and emotionally stunted jerk, interested in arousing obedience and conquering people. there's other god-personalities that I wouldn't find anything immoral in exhibiting like contentment, patience, generosity, feeling as if the same essential being as others. I haven't really felt all-powerful with cid, more like a more powerful human. One god-trait I've felt is the feeling of being in heaven and that I'm not missing anything or anyone.
Yeah don't take being god so seriously, it just seemed like the best way to describe it, i just felt better than anything, like everything finally had meaning to it like when you are little except better. Before LSD everything kinda started feeling stale and repetitive in comparison.
I feel like i could retreat myself to monkism and play my guitar all day long while doing charitable deeds, its really like some kind of miracle drug in my opinion...But how does God feel?Neodude brought up a good point the other day in the chat room thing, he was saying something about how reality is fucked up...Now at first i didnt understand what he was saying, it kind of slipped passed me...But after some thinking on it i noticed that in some aspects reality is fucked up, for instance, the wars, the rapage, the hunger, the fires, the naturel disasters that have occured throughout history....So how do you too think God feels?Fair? If the buddhists are right about reincarnation i would say fair.
