on the nature of the mind for my mystical thought and practice class. im pretty convinced eating some of this stuff will help me as it aids me in the experiential aspect of it all. now my guy has molly i could get .12 gram or get a roll that i know is also good. now guys i will admit i enjoy dirty rolls, always have, can't explain it. I like molly, but a 10th is never ever enough. and the guy only has .12 left. my most life changing experiences have come from dirtry rolls, well i call em dirty cuz they were pressed pills which makes me assume, well you know usually when people seek advice they already know what they are going to do, likewise i think i can anticipate the responses you guys are going to give me. in spite of this what would you guys suggest i do? take into consideration my past... also i havent eaten molly or rolls since january, and it was a 10th of molly anyone ever try write while rolling other than just for fun? (this question is on the side, but im curious)
1/10 might be a perfect dose if you're going to go down that road. if you're rolling hard you'll probably find it hard to concentrate and won't really be in the mood to write a paper. taking a smallish dose of pure molly might be that extra boost that would help you get some things going but won't be very distracting. but obviously you know better than i do how you feel on various doses. i did some work on a thesis paper on .8 grams on mushrooms, and i found that to be a perfect dose, i came out with a lot of good stuff. any more and i don't think the session would have been as productive. of course that was mush and you're talking about molly, but i think it's a similar concept.
ok so i was pretty much set on getting the roll, then he told me the molly was from san francisco and it was some of the cleanest shit he has ever had. i didnt have all the cash but he was just like take it. he even gave me the roll. i plan on paying him next time when i get more. but yeah i have both but ate the molly i went and brainstormed the ideas that i need to contemplate for like 3 hours so now i know what i need to reflect on by the way has anyone seen the fuckn moon?!?
well the full moon is tonight, not last night...i knew that all along but it was close enough so after an hour after ingesting the molly i am still not feeling it...and i start contemplating eating the star shaped roll. After a minute of contemplating I went with it and chewed up its nasty ass. i then got in bed. I was on the phone and wasn't feeling anything then a minute or two after I got in my bed i was just breathing so hard and making sexual sounds as i moved my legs every which way sliding them on my freshly cleaned sheets. The person was like are you ok, and I was INCREDIBLE!!! I couldn't stop the sounds I was making and my body just was enjoying the contact of my soft sheets and my amazing body pillows. I am not quite talkative at this point but am feeling things that were reminiscant of past phenomenal rolls. I remember my paper, say a few things about that, which make sense but are so brain knotting....my head understood it, but the mental processes were working far too fast to contemplate this at that point. This weekend was amazing and had a great set up for the roll. When I first started rolling I was realizng who I was, and making new friends who were in the same boat as me. I came back from India (after two and half years of school) completely changed and kind of withdrew from a lot of people. All the people I have been close to moved away to various parts of the country and even the world. It's been a pretty lame semester, though i have been getting a fuck ton of work done and learning a lot, which I am proud of. Anyway there are these two chicks that i went to school with (my first two years) one got kicked out another dropped out but they are both in my city studying elsewhere (even though they are both from out of state). Anyway we were close at one point, but drama and bullshit kinda separated us. Friday night was amazing. We went out to hear a friend of a friend play guitar at a restruant/bar then went out to this other bar. We usually meet the most interesting people, this time the three of us kept to ourselves. We shared spiritual stories and opened up like I have not done with anyone since I came back from India. For the first time in almost 2 years I felt connected to people who are near me. Anyway so this weekend after starting to find my nich, standing up for myself in other ways (stories do not need to be mentioned) I knew rolling was the best way to write this paper. Although I had been contemplating this idea for about a month, I was now certain I wanted to do it. I made a call to a guy who usually had them, he was out. I called an ex who moved pills all summer; he had none. So I didn't give up (molly is like lucy for me, comes when i believe it will). im at the store when i get the call i have both. fast forward im in bed going nuts in ecstasy, talking my friends ear off about things that I felt I had kept hidden but really needed to be shared. the molly was laid back and smooth, heaven. my friend asked have you felt the roll kick in. I kept saying I didn't know I was rolling face too hard to know, i was feeling something or both, and was loving every millisecond of it. Sometime later I was like, "Ok the Roll just kicked in" everything was still incredible, but I became more speedy, my stories probably wandered a bit more. I kept felt like I was boring em but apparently I wasn't haha. I've had rolls that make my jaw jittery, but nothing like this. I could not stop my jaw from spasming....literally opening and closing without any control. My friend couldn't hear it, but my right side was going click, click, click, click, click as my teeth came together. I put my finger in my mouth and chewed my finger, not chewed but let my teeth click my finger rather than each other. I listened to some Moody Blues towards the end of the trip, and the last two hours as I laid in my bed i had darkside of the moon playing in the background. so no paper got written, but i did do a lot of brainstorming before the roll, the paper should be slightly easier after this experience i hope...
agreed this experience reminds me that you can definitely have incredible rolls even if you've tripped tons of times. give your body a break i kinda wish i had stuck with molly only, but since i could tell when the other came on it was pretty cool and for the first time in like a year and a half i am ready to graduate, and feel somewhat accomplished in the world...now its time for me to help make some minute changes in the world as i continue to grow into me...though for my paper there is no me only the nature of the mind, the nature of the mind is the mind's own lack of any true nature....so my ego will be growing, maybe one day I will again work towards understanding the true nature of my mind. I am not quite ready for that. I have been before, and I am sure I will be again
hahaa while rolling?? im pretty sure i wud just throw down my pen and sing my thoughts out loud down on the street. cool tho goodvibes, let us know how it is. your papers gonna be really positive lol
You are mad cool and I love the way you write. I love your story. If it were me, I think I'd try just talking into a tape recorder, then sorting through it after I got everything out. I get bogged down by correcting my grammar, re-choosing words, and perfecting my sentences as I go along when I write & lose track of my ideas and thoughts. You'll probably pull patterns out of it that you didn't see at first that way, too. I think I'm going to do that for an essay I have to write now .
Lmao I rolled sunday night in plans of writing my college admissions essay. It was on 2 people I admire so I figured it'd be a breeze. I wrote a small introduction but everything I thought seemed to radical and abstract and linear thought was way too hard.
