edging with the help of a fetal heart listener

A year or so ago I bought a heart listener that pregnant women use to listen to the hearts of their unborn children. I wanted to listen to my own heart during self pleasuring.

For the past few years I've know that my heart goes into an alternate beat pattern just before I orgasm. I don't pass out when it does this but it does feel a bit strange and slightly scary. But since I'm not dead yet I guess I'm ok. And my last heart stress test with dye injected went fine.

With the help of the heart listener I can hear when my heart is going into the alternate pattern and when that happens I know I'm getting close. The alternate pattern doesn't happen every time but it's more often likely to happen when I'm standing up.

Today I did some experimenting and have had some good success at edging while standing up and with the monitor pressed against my chest. I came close three times and went over on the fourth. For the three close times my heart went into the alternate pattern. For the final time it didn't for the most part but instead it just went faster.

There's something freaky about being on the edge. You may want to hold back but if you hang out there long enough something else will take over. Maybe it's another part of the brain saying "to hell with this edging stuff we're taking over now and we're going to do it." Maybe that happens in part because if our ancestors hadn't come we wouldn't be here. Holding out forever keeps the babies from coming.

Anyway the experience with the alternate beat pattern thing can be fun, slightly scary, and interesting. It's cool to be able to use it to tell when my body is getting close even though the stronger pre-orgasm feelings aren't quite there yet. Usually about a minute or two after the alternate beat pattern starts is when things start to tighten up, the skin on my penis gets much more sensitive and I can feel things start to feel "really good."

For those who aren't blessed or cursed with an alternate heart beat patten during sexual activity thing you can at the very least use a heart listener to hear your heart speed up before orgasm. For me hearing what's going on is a turn on.

Self pleasuring has given me a greater appreciation for the value of sex, of being keyed into the primal forces or creation and of being alive, and it's helped drive me to want to share this key part of life with a woman.