Addicts who quit and now use occasionally?

I love using opiates occasionally, it just adds to the awesomeness of life. I have never been addicted, but i do coke occasionally too and honestle coke is soo much more addicting. I become aware of the toll on my body of hard drugs so i feel guilty if i do them day after day.

 

^^^True dat, Moe. QFT!

Here's another part of the equation that you'd never be able to reconcile. Addiction/substance abuse is not matter of how often you use or how much you consume when you do use. It's about what happens to you both on the inside(your head) and out(out as in your behavior)..when you DO use. For instance, If an alcoholic can manage to get through the day by cutting down to only two beers whereas before he was pounding back a 12-pack every day...believe me, he is no less of a drunk than he ever was. In fact, I'd go so far as to say he'd very likely be a worse drunk than he was before. Why? I'm guessing that tossing a whole new layer of denial and guilt and self-loathing into the mix = a cure worse than the disease.

As my father used to say "either shit or get off the pot."

 

Not true for me. Coke I can binge and quit and do occasionally and not crave. With opiates.. I crave them constantly. I will quit for a while and then get some and work my way up to taking them all the time. then I have to quit again and start all over.

 

my sister believes she's an ex-addict who uses occasionally, but really she quit for two weeks and went right back to using as often as her wallet allowed. only she can say that her reward for going without is to get a pill lol i found it funny because i shared that reward pill with her. if only to avoid her doing it all and "getting addicted" again. lol there i go, lying again.

 

ahhh but there's the rub. that feeling of "i just want to be able to take it again someday" is the addictive mechanism itself. the ideal state one could get to would be "if i get to it would be nice, but if not i dont really care".
its pretty much impossible to balance out a drug like opiates and eliminate an already existing addiction while still using. i know, a lot of ex users stay clean for years, counting the days and all along waiting for their chance to use. often times, this abstinence followed by indulgence leads to a full on relapse. so my advice is, be SMART. know your limits and ur body. if you don't want to get sick, dont use every day. take a week off. and the biggest thing to avoid is giving into that fiend. the sudden urge to do any and everything possible to obtain the drug, right now. calling all ur guys etc.
for me these days, its like this - if someone puts it in front of me, i'll probably take it. i kno its not good for me,but it feels good and if i dont i'll just think about it all day. im trying to fill up my time doing other things than drug related (that includes all drugs) activities, such as yoga, biking, working on my music. when i indulge now, i compare it to when im sober. and all tho it feels good and is incredibly satisfying, i realize i like myself better when im not high. people like me better. downers really do just slow me down and its not always worth that 1-2 hours of warm, irritable undifferentiated bliss.

the key is to learn that we are not supermen, not yet. keeping our addictions in check with concious control, we realize they are a huge element of human nature and our personalities. but they do not have to control us, we can control them. sometimes it takes one to replace old negative mental habits with new, positive ones. any sort of excersize is a perfect example

 

Addicts who quit and only use occasionally are called relapsed addicts. There's a reason why alcoholics who quit drinking try to stay dry, once you whet your appetite with it you want more.