Like anyone trying to convince themselves otherwise, you will try to believe that you are "bi-curious" or just "confused." Then you will say you are "bisexual" but that you could only love a woman, not a man because the idea of two men kissing and lowing each other sounds gross in your head. Then you will accept you prefer men, and actually only like men. Then you will realize being gay is a trait - something you can never change, and that it's nothing to be ashamed of. I don't feel the least bit of shame in it. I have many straight male friends and people accept me for who I am. But first you will adamantly deny you could ever love a man. You'll try to imagine all the times you "thought" you felt attracted to a girl. You'll think of that one girl you thought you were (or maybe still feel) in love with. This is a very traversed path.