In the last few months, I've been journaling my dreams. I have found that I have had lots and lots of dreams where I am being rejected by people. In one dream, someone who used to be a good friend of my own is now living in a mansion with a large personal theater. He invites me to the mansion to watch a movie, and he forces me to sit way up in the last row while he sits far down in front. My seat is OK, but could be much better and there are literally hundreds--if not thousands--of empty seats. In another dream, I am walking on a country road and find a burgundy building with no windows or doors. There are a number of young girls standing around outside. They are all dressed in burgundy. It isn't a uniform because they are all wearing different clothes, but all the clothes are burgundy--burgundy skirts, burgundy sweaters, burgundy blazers, burgundy berets, and on and on. As I pass closer, the girls all turn to face my general direction and quietly stare. One girl screams at me: "We don't want to have anything to do with you. Get out of here!"
I had a dream like this last night, I was driving around with the the man I love, and all of a sudden he stops the car, and says get out it's over, in the dream I find out he had been cheating on me for a few weeks with another women. I tried to ask for advice from friends via thecomputer during the dream and none of my friends would help me, and come to find out they all knew about the affair. I also had another dream a few weeks ago were he was hanging out with another girl right in front of me. I think these dreams are just from being scared of rejection, because he is my first love. I was married to a guy who I didn't love for 7 years.
