What? Do I have a problem? I don't know.

I spent my entire semester, and I mean ENTIRE SEMESTER from Jan-May with this guy. We spent every waking moment and sometimes non waking moments together. I mean all the time.
The only thing is, we weren't dating. I'm straight, he's straight. You'd think that someone that you could spend all that time around, you'd eventually get with them if they were the gender you preferred? Right?
I was so scared to make a move. I'm sure he was, unless he truly did not see me in that way. And then it got to the point where we just couldn't. And now he's going to a different school, hours away. And we kinda left on a weird note, we were fine and everything, but I had just assumed that we would really never see each other much again, if ever. So I didn't want to dwell on what I'd never have again. We talk a lot on the phone still, but lately I've just not seen the point in it, because there's never anything to talk about, and I never enjoy the conversations.
Until tonight. I don't know what changed. I was completely over him, not even a thought of him in my mind. We just had an amazing conversation and it was just like how it always was. He was suddenly saying how he was going to all these nice things for me because "I deserved it." And he was being extremely sentimental. And I miss him so much right now. SO MUCH. Now it's killing me to know that things will never be like how they were earlier this year. I'm entirely sure of the point of this, I don't have a question, aside from my straight up confusion about my feelings and now I'm questioning why it never worked out in the first place. Like, what was I supposed to do? What am I supposed to do now? I mean we had such a strange relationship. People around campus referred to us as "the married couple". And that a lot like what it was. No sex. Just love for each other. Maybe I just want some sort of feedback on this, I don't know. God, if you read this though, I commend you for your efforts and I apologize for the length and how pathetic this is. Once again, I don't even know the point of it.

 

you're both straight but you love eachother? i don't think you're straight, man
why would you post this here? who are you?!
you had a good thing, if you don't have feelings for him anymore then you'll get over it and find somebody else

 

That's exactly what i was thinking.

 

No what I really think is that I didn't actually have feelings for him, I just assumed I should. I'm on a whirlwind right now.

He was a big asshole. And he had me tied around his little finger. And I just realized that he did it again, 500 miles away from me.

I'm gonna sound totally bi-polar now, but I think I just needed to write that thing out and read it to figure out that it was no good.

And no, I don't know why I posted that here. Probably because I'm stoned. Dammit.

 

don't have feelings for someone cause you think you should. they should come naturally. sounds like you're just friends if you don't have any other feelings for him, friends can hang out all the time. i hung out with two guys almost constantly at school too

 

We are glad to have helped then.

 

yeah fuck it man.
I'm seeing another guy anyways.

i just started taking the pill this week, so I think my body is getting used to the emotions right now. Yeah, I know tmi tmi tmi whatever. I watched beauty and the beast and fucking sobbed last night because i know i'll never be a kid again.

dude i'm fucking mental!

 

wtf dude! why did you say that you're straight? you're obviously not! are you transgender? what are these pills?

 

The pill? It might have helped if you'd said you were female actually.

 

i'm a girl? did you get that?
i'm taking THE PILL as in birth control?
as in estrogen up thaa whazoo as in uncontrollable irrational emotions.

 

i'm so confused

 

OP is a chick

 

haha i'm sorry i didn't mention that i was a girl. i'm not used to having to put that out there, but i guess it wasn't that obvious. sorry!

 

ok so in this case you can be friends with a guy and not like him in a romantic way. so, do you like him in that way or not?

 

oh i dont fucking know. at all.
i think i did have feelings for him that developed but a bigger part of me felt that it wouldnt work out so i just denied them. and then once i found out that he wasnt going to live anywhere near me anymore, i just completely shut everything out. but i think that we'll just be fantastic friends for life.
i don't know the word fantastic has been such a huge part of my vocabulary lately. faaaaantastic. whatever. ahh

 

i used to use the word fantastic all the time

 

i think everyone here was under the impression that the OP was a guy, and having coming-out type feelings for another guy.

i'm just throwing that out there, OP, maybe you should have made your story a little bit more clear and perhaps then we all wouldn't have been like "WTF!"

 

^ wow dave that was helpful haha

sounds like the only thing you can do is get over it. only time can heal this wound

 

i already apologized, dude.
i didn't mean to cause any trouble!

...fantastic.
it's fantastic.
i wonder what the origin of that word is..
i'm gonna look that up.

 

haha im always good with relationship help

i did have a similar situation but the other way around with me being the dude and her leaving. i hung out with her all the time and a lot of people in my school thought we were dating but she was with someone else and only saw me as a friend then she switched schools and moved back home(only like an hour away from me) but we dont really talk anymore