As soon as you are feeling better you will be back here pretending that nothing bothers you and that you are immune to shit.
If you go first...as in if you die first. If your card is stamped first. If the grim reaper brushes past you first. I doubt the HF will be around anything more than 10 years...but if you log off before I do...I will miss you.
i'm sorry in advance, i'm too fucking lazy to log out and then back in as acid burn as i'm on a different computer anywho.... killing myself orison although a beautiful suggestion would be totally the opposite of what i intended in this thread impacting people's lives is important, being remembered after your gone...having changed someone, for the better or worse if you don't have a role in other people's lives than what is the point of socializing? of being human? if all there is to it is you live and then you die, why go out of the house? why go to school? why work? why drink with friends? play sports? play music? you live and then you die that's fine, but i want to have changed people, to have made a difference however small but to have even one person mourn me, and take my memory with them throughout their life so until i do that i will avoid death at any chance i want to be remembered for making a difference it's that simple really and you are right face, "as soon as i'm feeling better" or less drunk.... i will pretend like nothing effects me even though i am human just like anyone else and i do have ....um what are those things humans have?.... em....emotions?
This has nothing to do with you. When you leave a place, it stays the same. Then you come back, and while lots of things have happened in your life, not a lot happened in the place you left. Your departure didn't really affect a lot of lives, so why should your return? I've been through this exact same thing. Unless it's there, right in front of them, most people don't give a shit. As for who will mourn me.. if I went today, my siblings, my mother, a few friends I'd like to think, and possibly even a girl I know. But I don't measure myself by who, or how many people, will mourn me. The truth is, we're all insignificant to most others, but we are infinitely important to ourselves. Because life is beautiful, and doings things is fun. Like you said, you're just going to die, might as well have some fun while you're at it.
I really wonder. My boyfriend, maybe, if he's not busy(I wish I was joking), my cousins, and like maybe two friends.