Hey guys.. its been awhile since i have posted around here. and I'm looking for some advice or just kind words. I feel like such a confused individual... I just dropped out of university mostly because if the fact its bullshit, for now anyways, and im looking to find myself, but i feel so darn loney. all of my friends are in relationships, in fact im going to be apart of a wedding this weekend... i just wish that someone was swept off there feet by me, but maybe im to wacky... how am i supposed to find or understand my part in the universe if i desire to be close with another individual? if you guys have significant others, how did you guys find each other... i understand i just have to do what i enjoy, but that means soon im going to have to leave this town and the ones i love and have become close with. I have been close with a fellow in the town that i am living, he is amazing. We get along so well, but he doesnt feel the same way about me than i do about him, and im so affraid to leave and lose all that we have created. I have been offered an opportunity to go to arizona for 3 months in the winter, and i want to take it, but im so nervous... mostly because of this reason. I love the way i feel when im around him... but i dont want to rely on others to think im happy, when i know it comes from the self. maybe i should just go and let the universe take care of it? ahhh... any insights?
things seem to fall into place as they should. just give the situation time, it's all you can do. make sure the decisions you make are made because YOU want them, do not let others influence you to choose them. you're young, and you will have plenty of new opportunities in your lifetime. if meeting people and getting new perspectives on things is what you want to do, i suggest that you go on the trip. maybe you'll be able to clear your head and think alone for awhile. sounds like you just need time to sort things out
You can't have much to lose if you say he doesn't feel the same about you as you do about him. Use the opportunity that has arisen to get away and think about things and get them in perspective. Let you're instincts lead you.Time is on your side
heres my two cents ---if he doesn't like you, i'm not sure if it would be the greatest thing for you to keep sticking around him and falling more for him. it could lead to even more confusion. its up to you, just don't hurt yourself. Some people just dont work together. but! i'm positive someones out there for you. heck, judging on what you wrote here, i already like you. hahah. i feel a bit young for you though. and a bit far...just sayin though =] ---- If you have the chance to go to arizona...you should take it! its gorgeous! it could bring all sorts of new excitement back into your life. if you go, go to the sedona/red rocks area. keep away from the touristy crap though. hahah. hang out in some organic food stores/restaurants. your bound to run into some cool people there. --best of luck to you. i love you.
Don't let anybody hold you back from where you want to go or what you want to do. YOU need to make yourself happy, and do whatever you feel will make you feel that way. Go to Arizona, keep in touch with him while you're gone, and pick up where you left off when you get back. From what I hear you have a good friendship with the dude even though he doesn't feel the same way about you, relationship-wise. Good luck
The pursuit of academic achievement isn't for everyone. It's an opportunity to gain credentials that some feel they can do without, at least "for now". But the decision to drop out is one that many learn to regret later on in life, when credentials would come in handy in certain cases. But academics is a chore. It's more fun to just live life. You have to WANT a structured environment, with the reward of a credentialed outcome, to succeed in school.
life love and laughter and all thats in between stay true to yourself and dont comprimise no one has the answer except for themselves. look inward go with your gut never give up Peace
