What did you learn your first time?

i did it for the first time tonight, and all i could say was

"why don't we feel like this all the time? there'd be a lot fewer wars and a lot more hugs and singing."

 

haha

well honestly what I learned from my real first roll that I can remember (3/4 bio-something 1/4 superman) is that Starbucks is amazing and colorful

 

I learned about Buddhism and how much sense it makes to not 'want'
I went on a religious trip
and started realizing that my life to that point was meaningless unless i was honest to myself about what i REALLY wanted in life.
which wasn't to gain anything really, but to receive things and respect things as they came because there's a time for everything.

idk i had the most depressing comedown.

 

My first time I did it with one of the top 3 people I connect most with in the world and it was absolutely the most beautiful thing ever! I just connected so much more with the world, and really got an understanding about why people act how they do. Felt compassion and love for what I didn't understand. The world really broke down into something so simple and wonderful. One of the biggest things I've learned from e (not my first time but that summer) was that I don't have to do anything I don't want to. When I'm around really negative people or in a situation I'm not comfortable with, I don't have to "just suck it up and cope." I don't have to deal with it, there is NOTHING keeping me there. I carried that so strongly into normal life, I don't know why I'd never realized it before but I am completely allowed to walk away and leave any situation I want!

I feel much stronger now about listening to myself and not putting up with something I can just walk away from

Oh! And also! My mantra for that whole summer- DON'T WASTE THE FEELING! If you're excited or happy or want to get out and do something, don't waste that! Get out and do something NOW, appreciate the emotion and take advantage of it. Absolutely.

 

Wow got to fnd me some of this.

 

i wish my 'goody-goody innocent' friends who lecture me everytime they find out i took xtc can read these posts.. hahaha

 

haahaahahh yeah same.:cheers2: