Change

When you think back just five years ago, how have you changed?

 

my post count has increased dramatically.

 

I think less and am less tortured as a result.

 

i have more cuffs

 

I spend too much time on this damn computer

 

Things were good-things got bad-things got better... Best I can explain it.

 

i'm waayyy more grown up. and spend more time on the computer lol.

 

I'm fatter, I stand up to my parents about what I want for myself as far as future ambitions and goals....ummm I'm single again....I don't think I was around this time five years ago...though I do tend to dump guys around my birthday. Umm I'm no longer in school, but I don't have the degree I thought I would have. I'm more bitter but at the same time I now have an inner calm that I used to not have....if that even makes sense. I believe in myself more, I care about my future more...I no longer fear being alone. Fuck it, I like myself more than I like other people. I've grown up, dreams were shattered, and I've recovered. I've lost quite a few people, some I still haven't stopped grieving. I fucked up a great friendship, became more insecure, but I'm getting over that. Hmm...there's more but I don't feel like typing it all out.

 

Im a little bit wiser, a bit calmer but mostly i now have rocket launchers for arms

 

Well I was 12, awkward, still a virgin, afraid to cross the street.
You know, that normal middle schooler stuff.

 

Afraid to cross the St?

 

you're substantially younger than i thought. i may have unknowingly hit on you when you were 15...

 

For me it wasn't crossing the ST that was tough it was the UV that came afterwards

 

Yeah, I was hormonal. Thinking everyone was staring at me making fun.
Hahah

Ohhh those days.

 

Sadly, I've become more jaded.

 

I was less capable, more naive, less adept at wending my way through intricacies.

I would only want those five years back if I could take them as I am now. and grow through them in addition to the growth I have gained.

 

the more years you have the less big of a deal each of them is, because the more of them there is, the smaller a percentage of all of them each of them is.

 

I was thirteen.. My parents were in the process of breaking up, I was confused, upset, a little over the top.. Just starting highschool.

Now I'm in uni, much happier, more mature, I can take a joke better, don't get as embarrassed, and I think I "get" people more now.

5 years is a long time.

 

i was pretty immature. i was 20 going on 21. i was more youthful and more fun to be around. i was thinner. i didn't have a kid or a husband. i wasn't even in a relationship. i was more insecure about myself than i am today. although i still have insecurities. i was still a virgin. very very naive. i was excited about the future. i was also very bitter about my past and towards my parents for some shit. now, i've gotten past it.

 

the same core traits that make me who i am still exist, they're just more refined and controlled now...

i've grown up a lot, become less judgmental yet more opinionated

i can laugh at myself now, i understand other people better and I've learned to trust my intuition...