according to my friendsand family i am losing weight, which is no bad thing in my book, but i think i am getting bigger, i feel bigger and even though my clothes are looser i see myself bigger in the mirror. does any one else have this problem???????? peace morna
be careful, this summer my sister was loosing tons and tons of weight and yet kept commenting that she was fat, she then was diagnosed with a "borderline eating disorder".. shes alright now, it never got extreemly horrible.. just be careful!
I feel like that all of the time. I've had problems with eating disorders for 17 years and it's definitely not fun. I would love to be "normal" and see myself as others do, and love myself for who I am and not be so obsessed with my physical appearance. I've had many past years of therapy, but it never did any good. No one can make me see the real me, I see something different when I look in the mirror, and I will usually squint at my reflection so that I don't really have to look at myself for too long. At least I'm not like I used to be and starve myself, binge and purge, or take diet pills and laxatives. I don't do anything like that anymore, and haven't for about 4 years. So that's a positive thing, but I am forever down on myself. Just yesterday I was hysterical telling my husband that I couldn't leave the house because I had nothing to wear, that everything made me look fat. He grows weary of telling me that I'm not fat, and sometimes he gets irritated with me because I am so hard on myself. I wish I wasn't that way, believe me! Be careful, and pay attention to your feelings. If you continuously feel the way you are feeling, you might want to talk to your doctor about it. You are much better off to reconize a potential problem now than to go years and years suffereing in silence. Much peace.
i appreciate your comments. i am in therapy at the minute for other things, but this "self-hatred" is something that crops up time and time again. when i visit my doctor specifically about this all i am told is to eat sensibly and take care of myself. what i really need is some help to learn how to like myself as i am. until then i don't think i will get anywhere. thank-you for your advice, peace and love morna
umm I could completely be off the line, but are you pregnant? if not, if you have a lot of self hatred, an eating disorder or heading towards one seems viable, keep with the therapy, there going to be able 2 have a qualified answer for you.
if your clothes are looser, yet you feel larger, it might be the beginnings of anorexia. If your current counsellor type person isn't being helpful, maybe see someone who specializes in body image issues? It's sounding pretty scary. I mean, I have body issues too, but I do recognize when I lose weight and when I gain it (by clothing fittings usually)
I also have a distorted self image. I am not anorexic, I enjoy eating too much for that... But, I do see myself as larger than I am. But its funny, because I think that sometimes I think I look better than I really do, as well. I have learned to pretty much stop judging myself, by my own eyes. I go by what others tell me. Because I can't see myself, the way I really am...
