Permanent alterations in consciousness

I was thinking that this might be a really nice resource for people interested in trying LSD but afraid of what it might do. I know that when I signed up for this trip I had a loose idea that it might do some funny things in the long term but wasn't really sure what they were (fortunately, I happened to like them). How has your experience of consciousness changed since trying LSD? What kind of flashbacks do you get? How often? How much LSD have you done?

My ego is more... transparent than it was before. It's hard to describe what that feels like, but it's as though before ever dropping reality was in a 90% fish eye lens, where I was tunnel visioned on whatever I was focusing on at the time. This ego tunnel vision effect has lessened, and my awareness is now more calmly aware of my surroundings without having to be "on alert" towards specific things within said surroundings.

I don't get flashbacks too often (they pretty much all stopped when I stopped being a pothead) but when I do I'll look at something and it will look all... "swimmy" for a few moments before it stops.

There is one other thing... a permanent (but fortunately very faint) retinal burn directly in the center of my vision. Don't look at the sun on lsd kids.

I've done LSD 8 times, greatly varying dosages each time.

 

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I now feel total unity

 

my ability to function has gone up quite significantly. I lost 40 pounds and enrolled back in school and made lots of other very significant and very positive life changes in the months following my last trip. it changed everything, including my mental world.

 

I owe everything to Life for mixing me up with lucy. She introduced me to spirituality and has become a very powerful sadhana practice.


As for perceptual alterations that you spoke of, give it time and you will always come down. Sometimes, depending on dosages and intervals naturally, it can take several if not multiple years to come down from some trips. Of course you have your initial comedown from the experience but it still resides in you for some time and is enhanced by feeding more into the experience.

 

very rich subject. I always had mild visions as a kid when I'd look into a snowy screen on tv or smthg, and Lucy supercharged them so that I can always close my eyes and see a divinely orchestrated "show" for lack of better words. What I see in the CEV's has stunning cosmic relevance, perfection and symmetry and don't seem to be random discharges but have a consistency. They are more beyond words than anything else I've seen. Pot or other drugs will amplify them, but they're there regardless.

Since a trip last october (presumably between 600-900 mics), I've also received an open-eye alteration. Everything is as it was before but with an incredible clarity and depth, like that trip wiped my eyes clean. I don't know if it's related, but my optometrist said the vision in my left eye improved a bit. It just seems like the borders between me and everything else have permanently thinned. It's easier to restore my emotions just by watching the world. I guess I see there's more to "me" than just what's encased in my ego.

I also have a great ability to freak myself out. On acid it's easier to remember that I just need to chill, but IRL I forget that I have that much power over how I perceive things. I thought I was coming down with a flu and convinced myself it was swine flu then I felt very real symptoms and my face in the mirror was totally pale and I knew I had swine flu. Turns out I was just really tired and trippin myself out. That's not even the most ridiculous, I can get pretty neurotic but I remember it's just my imagination. Life is just MORE of everything, but I have control of what I'm getting more of.

 

This topic is sort of complicated for me. LSD brought a lot of my subconscious to the surface. After ingesting, and after the come-up, I experienced an immediate shift in my worldview, it was like I was a changed person within a matter of 5 minutes, and the rest of the trip was just me enjoying this new person.
What led after that night would probably seem very negative in the eyes of others, but inside, they were things I always knew I needed to do. I broke up with my girlfriend of 2 years after that night, because I had finally faced the fact that I didn't want to, that I was only with her for physical reasons now, and any mental or spiritual connection that we used to share had died long ago. I haven't dated anyone sense her either, but this is because of another thing acid showed me. I had it brutally shoved in front of my face that my entire life had been built around pleasing other people important to me, and that I rarely got to live for myself - this was due in large part to the nature of my upbringing and a very negative childhood. So, after that trip, I've been very focused on my internal world and to hell with what goes on outside. I guess the decisions this leads me to do could be seen as negative by others, but the way I see it is that I'm making up for lost ground. I dropped out of university after acid, because I realized that I wasn't even there for myself, but was there because that was what was expected of me. I eventually do plan on going back, but it will be on my own terms.
But on terms of immediately positivity, my mental clarity went up, I actually feel that I am a more intelligent person now. My moods are generally much more stabilized, and even when I am feeling out of character, I don't immediately personify it, like I used to. I went from having an ethnocentric worldview (identification with one's "group" or tribe or nation) which is actually very selfish, to a worldcentric worldview.
All in all, LSD has been for the benefit of me and the people around me.

 

I didn't start taking 'till I was 28 ,and at that time I was an alcoholic, ridiculously rowdy and dangerous to myself and others when drinking and quiet and somewhat shy when not.Ego was very fragile due to a difficult childhood and I can relate to the tunnel vision mentioned.As we've all seen,many(most?) people stay somewhat limited in their view of the world and react in predictable ways to situations and other people encountered and I was certainly like that.My first time blew me away--I quit drinking that very night (for over 20 years) and began to see that a spiritual side of life existed. I started to understand what my hippy friends meant when talking about loss of ego,when before I almost thought they were speaking in a foreign language.I began to be able to read people immediately upon meeting them and I think I can still see almost exactly what people are like at their core. The world opened up for me-- I was no longer tied to my past as much and was able (after several more trips)to work thru all the past bullshit in my earlier life that kept me from being self-realized.I have always felt that once you take L,if it's good and not rip-off bs,it's like stepping thru a door,turning around and seeing the door disappear ,never to return.I took probably 100 hits over the 6 years I lived in Hawaii from 67' to 75,some for learning and some for --well --fun,but I think it should be used for helping people to SEE what they and the world are about.Window pane was pure then and I don't know what passes for L nowadays,but the theory--"the bad always drives out the good"is a valid one-- I hope not, for those who indulge now.------------I have seen some un-balanced people take it and as far as I could tell--were damaged badly.

 

Forgot to mention that I have been left with a beautifull,swirling mostly green but sometimes purple and sometimes multi-colored light that appears behind my eyelids occasionly when in bed.Moneys' worth,I figure.

 

dude scratcho you seem pretty messed...don't know whether or not to believe you...
i see multi-coloured light, and always have when closing my eyes.
sometimes its a lot other times it's not there. i always found it normal...

since taking lsd i believe i've gained a lot of mind power. my tricks are over the top sometimes... i'll make myself believe things that are so deep...they could only be in my worst nightmares / greatest dreams.

i've become a more culturally aware person.
i've also become a bit of an egocentric dickwad at times. ( a bit too judgmental and friend-obsessed / group obsessed )

it's all in the name of exploration, though. i like that as we progress we find out more about each other. hopefully soon, lsd will be seen in a greater light, not one just seen as a consciousness altering substance banned by the government.

 

lsd made me appreciate everything around me more.

lsd opened my mind(good thing!!!)

i used to have slight OCD......lsd literally cured it. no joke.

 

Jeez--I didn't realize I was messed up!Although after reading some of my own posts ,your suspician may be correct!.I do never lie tho.Ever.

 

my consciousness is always altering.

 

a lot of people think i'm pretty fried

sometimes i feel pretty fried/nuts, not because of any chemicals, but because of the society around me. everybody is just a cartoon/video game/movie character nowadays. direct effect of all that shit. probably comes from living in LA my whole life too.

scratcho said a lot of things i can relate with.

 

how would living in a city have to do anything with it? lol

 

city people crazy as fuck

and in LA everybody is acting all the time,
it's just a crazy weird place
has been for the last 100 years

 

nah man not in ny...Here whenever i was downtowd it was mostly whack jobs and maniacs, however when i went to midtown it was more civilized and social...Uptown is just straight gangster lol

 

Well thats the difference between La and Ny then

 

television video games internet porn facebook mainstream movies and drugs have made everybody fucking insane


bottom line no matter where you are

 

My life keeps changing... wonderful!

But you know life has always been changing so it is hard to say exactly what was caused by lsd and what was caused by actual mental development. In order to distinguish these, I look at people who trip and those who have never (but not much point taking into consideration people who have tried acid with their friends a couple of times or somethin). It is very hard to see the 'englightenment' in the trippers.. so I have given up on the idea that LSD will enlighten you. But at the same time, some of the trippers trully are special people who I can rely on to be open to life and ideas and creativity. So I think it takes a certain person to learn from certain types of experiences.

When I started trying drugs at around 16, my concept of reality has been changing. It mostly has to do with what parts of my experience i can actually recognise, consider, manipulate, etc. But over the past few years I have also studied lots of psychology and neuroscience, as well as growing from 16-21, during which the brain is still undergoing major changes.

But I cant pick out any changes in consciousness and say 'THAT was never there before acid'.

oh actually

thats a lie

since my trips I discovered what it meant for something to invoke an entity in consciousness, and now I spend a lot of my time practicing 'object/body manipulation'. essentially this involves my newfound interests in dancing, fire twirling/glow toys, martial arts, and any other thing involving the use of the body in a specific way. I have become rather engrossed in developing the muscle coordination that results in perceptual ilusions. For many examples, look at wanker ravers doing convoluted things that look 'cool'. But when you imagine me doing it, imagine that I am more approachable, humble, and explorative in my wanking

but id like to note that this is not from 'trippin' in general but after a specific trip during which I spent time moving in front of the mirror.. wow I had never seen my body that way before.. it feels now (after subsequent trips and practice and play and all related activities and thoughts) that I have totally grown an extra part of my brain that was lying dormant. I used to dislike sports and thought i was the least physical person in the world. now I am honestly (im serious) convinced that I can win an olympic medal if I can find the time to build more strength (my strength training has been put to the side lately...)