i wanna die

I think after reading the synth drug forum for awhile now that DPT sounds like what you're looking for. it sounds like what you're looking for, but prolly not what you're looking for considering your hesitation with acid. i mean...its just acid. if you do acid i would venture you're experience won't be as intense as shroomies...
The DPT reports on there mention "being reborn" though..maybe check it out.

 

DPT will do that for you, but you won't realize what you've asked of it until it's too late.

be like an arrow in flight to a target, rather than someone seeking to be reborn, with doubts and conditions and ifs and buts.

 

not my self no, i wouldnt go so far,
my 2 mates did, couple of years back, after tripping, i think it was 2-3 days 1 ended up in hospital, hes slightly retarded now, the other was ok after a couple of weeks, was telling me how they were walking threw the streets and time was frozen/slowed down so it seemed like everyone around them wasnt moving, would of loved to it/them while it was happening.

also if i remember correctly he said thier were tiny men jumping out of people heads, trying to kill them.

 

you can't become a new person without enduring the difficult thoughts you have..to be reborn you'll have to face all of that..with or without our dear friend.