i lost myself, now i have returned

some of u may remember me. anyway i lost myself in a pretty terrible way.
but im back.

just dont overuse the acid.
u can get mighty lost in there, and it aint no fun.
its funny cause after all of what i did, im gonna try n go back to uni come july. so heres hope my brain isnt too fried.

 

good luck guy

 

thank you hmmm this place is quite warm and welcoming... iv turned to nootropics to help me out with exams, i orderd some stuff already, but i kinda want some dexamphetamines to do assignments, i hate to ask but any one have a good site? feel free to pm me.

to keep this post on topic, my last trip i regretably did a few months ago now, i remembering looking up into the sky and was as if the world was flying thro the universe. all the stars and everything shooting past. lsd pro <

lsd con>
lsd can make u more out of it on a constant basis. leading to reduced succesfull communication with family and friends. as well as leading to trouble coping with relationships.

 

Fuck, glad to hear you've come back down my friend.

I've been there as well; too much too fast leaves you with astral-plane dementia.

 

you see? the lsd teaches moderation. :cheers2:

 

yes... its true. but lsd moderation isnt 1-2 weeks... nor is it really once a month.
i think after what iv gone through, lsd moderation is years... more than 1 year for sure. 5-10 year lsd moderation is probably a good suggested lsd moderaton regime.
after the initial "attack dose" lol

but its funny cause just like alchole, you dont know your moderation untill you make a fool of yourself... or in the case of acid, fry yourself... oh well.

 

Ah welcome back man! You should tell everyone what you have gone through and where you have been all this time.

 

it's not so much that LSD's effects are bad as it is not being prepared for LSD's effects is bad.
you're either prepared for the other side or not. if you're not you should meditate more and practice love.

 

Welcome back Pete.

 

hmm where do i begin.

i think the real problem with lsd is if u overuse it. however saying that, looking back i can say lsd makes u a real dreamer, u can stop things u wish u didnt, and perhaps start things u wouldnt normally.
i realiseed yesterday while listening to a psytrance song, that the trippy notes are just that. they are tunes, but when ur in the lsd world, they are soooo much more.
but looking back its just all in ur head.
its amazing to take lsd, and to think how amazing all these things are, but really u live a life which is being sugar coated by your imagination.
take lsd away for a while, and u come down to the real world (hopefully)
its just you see people like that sugar coated life, so when their after glow wears off they redose, and walla back into that sugar coated dimension.

anyway, i thought acid was really addictive. psychologically. cause i had to keep having this sugar coated dimension. it was amazing. life was boring without it.
and what with making all the discoveries and all.

im on anti-depressants now. i feel alot better. i dont feel like i need that. i dont want that sprinkled magic over my eyes.

but anyway i cant take acid anymore anyway. i become up and down. i go up and down in a matter of minits. my mood. but thats controlled after no acid for a few months and anti-depressants.

so basically i have had the last 8 months of my life off, doing nothing. working maybe twice a week and hanging out with my gf. not takign drugs, cept for acid once, and pills once or twice. now i am attempting to go back to uni this july. so the only druigs i gonna take now are smart drugs. nootropics.

about a year and a bit ago i was a very lost soul. and it was no thanks to lsd. i heard voices that asked me who i was. at which point i had no idea, i was having flashbaks everyday. today, i am confident in who i am. i can remain the same personality throughout the day, throughout everyday. back then i was a multiplitude of people.
the only thing though, is i still can have some considerable altered perceptions.
at work i can feel like im tripping out, but i can still talk and do stuff normally. u have to get used to it. my concentration is still a bit shot. my dreams are still mental.
so just becarefull how much acid u do. but im happy and come across like a normal guy. u do acid, u live a life of what it does to you internally. just remember that. it doesnt go away.

thats my life.

 

you have to be very strong, and very smart to see what acid is really doing to you


all the amazing discoveries that i raved about and belived 100% is all just a mad trip. but at the time ur down the rabbit its just all so real.

 

hoo boy, here we go...

 

I wish!

 

yes it is true, you were convicting to the whims of your imagination very unconstrainedly

 

I think to actually understand a drug i would have to get into it...Thats why after i get my shit fully together iam going to go into lsd pretty deeply, i loved what it has taught me....Never again though for ahwhile

edit-to fully understand a drug

 

I dont think there is much to understand about a drug unless you plan to keep using it all the time? Otherwise, shouldnt you be trying to understand life itself?

 

Nah i believe that the deeper i get into a drug of choice the more i learn about myself and surroundings....Life itself is not too hard to understand, iam alive, i have a life, i live my life, i have the most spiriitual experience on earth...And after that i dont know what happens haha

 

anti depressants?

how about no drugs? why get so close to being clean and then fucking it all up?
it's pretty hypocritical of you to criticize others for using acid to block reality while anti depressants are used solely for that.
LSD was used to block reality by you, and once you stopped using that you switched drugs.
I think that this proves the blame is on the user...it doesn't matter if you're using a psychedelic or not...one who shies away from reality will do so in any way they can. acid isn't inherently negative you know.

 

yeah pete, what happened to joining the police force/army and going clean?

 

yeah. anti-depressants arent as bad as i had thought. and before that i had taken 5htp for over 6 months to treat depression. and plus on anti depressants i can fuck for as long as i like. so there not as bad as i had thought.

as for the police thing, well yeah i just found out the other week that i was not accepted, but it was because of my interview. i did not have enough life experience and probably came across to young. they prefer taking people that are like 25 or older.

but thats ok, cause im goin back to uni in july to do bachelor of justice, and i get acredited 1 full year cause of my justice admin diploma. i might just try and be a federal agent now.

so i am good and clean, and anti-depressants have helped. oh yeah, they help with anxiety too. so i only gonna take em for 6-12 months.
iv been prety good i bought a bench press and am working out everyday n stuff.
so yeah.

i dont critisize people for doing acid.
i merely just came to share my experience of acid.
u dont have to like it. its just my experience. seriously fuck, thats one thing about acid trippers, they think they are 100% right about everything, and think they are gods up their. i know.