an intriguing situation involving a scorpio and a leo

Ok, hello everybody here! This is my first post on these forums and it's going to be quite long one, so.. just have the patience to read it through and I'm asking what your 'take' is on this situation.
First of all, we're dealing here with a female leo (19) and a male scorpio (this is me and I'm 21). The time span over which this has been happening is well, just around 8 months. Yet when you ask me how long we've known each other, then it'd be approximately 2 years.

So.. where do I start from. I went to the music school 2 years ago. I'm studying classical singing there, she's studying choral conducting.
I met her, yet in my first year there wasn't much interaction. This year this changed due to the fact that mixed chorus practice started to take place and we got to spend a lot more time together. Well, somehow it just happened that from someone I rarely said 'Hello!' to she became someone I'd call 'a friend'. Maybe this was helped by the fact that she lives away from the town a bit (which applies for me too) and occasionally it happened that we took the same bus and went home 'together'.

Now, as we started to talk more, we got to be more 'free' around each other. Thanks to the choir, we did lots of stuff together and had many conversations which were always friendly and warm. Some 5 months ago, I think I fell in love with her. I didn't tell her right away, 'cause I wanted to be sure. And we had more interaction between each other.. and always greeted when we saw the other. The relationship was on a good level, I believe. When she saw me outside of school, she would smile and greet me warmly. And here comes the ultimate dilemma for me. This year was the 2nd for me and the 4th (final) for her. She would graduate this year and she did. And I had all these feelings in me. I was in love with her. And I was also about to be very sad because she'd be leaving the school, graduating and going on to study in the academy of music, some 200 km away from me in a different town. We wouldn't be going home together again. We wouldn't be seeing each other.

I had to take the risk. If she wouldn't be going away, I would have waited longer, to get to know her and just be around with her. But no such chance. So the graduation day arrives. I'm a very-very shy person yet I still had to do it somehow. And here was my plan: to write my heart out in a letter, to write her a choral work for mixed chorus and dedicate it to her.. and ultimately I added a bouquet of flowers, a CD with music, a book about music, a big bar of chocolate, a bag of green tea.. and I gave it all her on her graduation ceremony. In the letter, that was handwritten with care and love, my message was basically this: she's become very important, lovely and for me, she's the person who can tell me 'everything's alright' and I believe it, that I think I don't love her, yet I believe I could love her if I had time to get to know her more, and if I could EVER be as important to her as she is to me now, I had to do it (= write that crazy letter).

Thus it was. Soon I got an e-mail reply from her with an answer that basically said: She wanted to thank me for a 'mega' (cool, I imagine) graduation present. It was very cute. And especially the choral work, which she hadn't checked out thoroughly yet. But the letter and its content was very surprising for her and she didn't fully understand it, but 'could guess' what I meant. And she appreciates my 'sincerity' but had to tell me that 'she isn't thinking in the same direction at all' and it might sound a bit radical, because of course I am an amiable and wonderful/nice person for her as well, but definitely 'couldn't say more'. She hopes I understand and will not be 'that unhappy'. She can't really explain her feelings more either and just hopes everything's alright.

After getting over my first shock and 2 days of constantly trying and failing to hold back my tears, I'm now here and feeling incredibly 'normal' again, which is good, I think, because I was quite 'at the bottom of the world', honestly. It's surprising for me, too, that I could come back this fast. Yet it doesn't mean I 'don't love her enough' or anything. I still do. People had noticed me acting 'not okay at all'. And eventually, because one of them had asked me for several times 'What's wrong?'.. I told everything about it. It helped yet I also got some interesting information, because the person I told knows the person I'm in love with. I found out that 'she never lets boys get too close to her' because 'studying is the most important thing to her right now'. And some years before, another guy had been turned down by her as well.

So, the conclusions.. what I think, anyway. I am fully aware of the pride of leos, the way they want to be admired and feel important. I've read much about it. And the way they think about love is that it's 'one time' and 'long lasting'. I feel the same way and don't want anything temporary, either, just like her. I've also read that if a scorpio and leo try not to find faults in one another, but compromise, then it might be a really good and solid relationship. Anyway, I don't doubt that it's possible and I also FEEL that it IS possible. The relationship we've had during the last 4-6 months seemed like a really good foundation. Yet now, I know something's 'off'. There was a school trip some days after the graduation ceremony. And during that trip we didn't exhange any words or glimpses. That seemed bad.

Anyway, I'm having a lots of questions now that I've calmed down a bit and here they are:
* she replied to my letter, yet how 'final' can I think it is? is there a possibility that she'll change her mind or find out that she's actually sad when she experiences that the people (including me) for whom she is very important, are not around?
* I feel that she cares about me, even if it's only as 'a person' and just a little - she DID hope 'I'll not be unhappy/sad and that everything's alright', right.. does she care about whether she's hurt me or not?
* her priority is studies right now, I get it. studies are imporant for me as well, and I never thought we could have a deep relationship over such a long distance. all I wanted to know is whether there was a possibility of us being together at all (in the future). I'm not sure if she got that idea or if she thought I was 'just some guy in love with her again'. I'm a scorpio as well and think of her as the only one I wanna be with, I really do.. so do you think I didn't convey my message well enough and puzzled her with that?
* do you think we'll still be able to communicate and talk to each other? cause now it seems a bit 'off'..
* the aftermath. I read the following from someplace on the net (it's about leos): "Ironically, the only thing Leo will respect (or respond to) is someone who has the courage to walk away. They may initially view your walking away as a sign that you don’t love them enough, but eventually they will come to respect you for not taking anymore of the crap they know they’ve been dishing out to you."
How much can I trust that? I mean, I'm a lot more 'okay' than I thought I would be in 2 days, should I act according to the statement above?
* all in all: have the chances of us being together reduced to zero or is it still possible that she'll come to understand that I'm really an important person for her as well, but it'll just take time for her to 'know that'? because, perhaps, after finishing with all of her studies in the academy.. she'll think back and remember me, and then, knowing that there was a person who would definitely love her.. would come back to me?
* (if you need to clarify anything about the situation or the story so far, feel free to ask)

 

i didnt read all that crap but im scorpio and the old lady is a leo. we fit like a glove.one catch,it took7 years before she decided it was time. thats just the way it is. if she is important to you you will deal with it,it may pay off somewhere down the road.

 

srry i didnt read it either. but i am a scorpio and a psychic once told me that i would marry a leo.

 

I read the post, I feel maybe you were a bit forward with her in the gift, perhaps, I don't know the extent of the relationship, sometimes confessing love to someone before you are about to part puts the other person on a huge spot where it would be easier to distance yourself. That is just a generalization though. She is a leo, and leos normally love being the center of attention so the gift seems perfect for a leo. Perhaps her rising sign is a bit more prominent... I'm not sure. Leos are also very loyal, perhaps she was attatched to someone else. whatever the matter I don't think your chances are at a total zero. stay in contact with her who knows where it will lead. She may not be ready yet, but if you stay in contact and if it is supposed to happen then it will. If it doesn't happen it's not meant to be. You both will learn something from this. if you have more questions feel free to PM me. good luck!

 

Thank you so much for the reply, greatly appreciated